Saturday Night Gleever
'Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.'
Dear Diary,
Will has just been in my office. The theme for Nationals is Vintage. Yay, I love Vintage. He said he is so distracted he can't even stage musical numbers on his scale model Glee diorama. He has three seniors in trouble: Finn has talent but no self esteem; Mercedes is just as talented as Rachel and Kurt but has no vision for herself; and he's really worried about Santana, she's got all the ambition but no focus. She just wants to be famous, she doesn't even care how. He doesn't know what to do. I'm not sure either. We each evolve at our own pace – just because you're finishing school doesn't mean you know what you're going to do with your life. I said they'll work it out, eventually. Will is determined to help them realise their potential. While he went to Sue for advice I wrote him a poem and left it on his desk:
You are
the peanut to my butter
Water to my ocean
Glaze on my donut
Spring in my step
Twinkle in my eye
Blue in my sky
Cherry to my sundae
Flip to my flop
Milk to my cookie
Sweet in my dreams
Beat of my heart
Cheese to my macaroni
Best to my friend
Love of my life.
XX Emma
Dear Diary,
Sue's solution was to use the album that defined a generation – 'Saturday Night Fever'. Will loves that album – but the kids hate disco so Sue is going to offer them swag – they love free stuff but they really love winning free stuff! Sue has leant them her own plexi- glass dance floor! I think Will would like one of those.
Dear Diary,
Will said M, F and S weren't that receptive to the idea of having to share their hopes for the future. Mercedes saw it as a teacher's game to get them to tell him what they wanted to do with their lives. But it worked – Mercedes said her dream was to sing big, bad, juicy hits that inspire people but she doesn't know how to make it happen. Her dad thinks her dream is unreasonable and what if she's cream at McKinley but skim milk out in the real world? We all face fears. Sometimes we just need someone to help us make the first step.
Dear Diary,
Will came home singing 'If I can't have you I don't want nobody baby…' And started dancing with me. Sue said to Will that it's come to her attention via her bugging system that a boy from vocal adrenalin came to see M and K at school. Sue said to leave it with her, she'll get to the bottom of it. She also said to leave Santana to her.
Will said Santana performed beautifully this afternoon, but still her only ambition is to be famous. He suggested she become a lawyer to make gay marriage legal. She has the quickness of mind and intelligence to be a lawyer. As with all the senior students throughout the year I had an appointment with Santana to assist with university applications or future plans. She never showed up. She's a straight-A student like Quinn, confident, good at sport, music, she could do anything she wants.
Dear Diary,
I just had Santana in my office. I pulled her out of history and made a few gentle enquiries about her future plans. Said I'd heard her plan was to become famous.
'Does Mr Schue tell you everything?'
'He's worried about you.'
'There's nothing to worry about. It's how you make money these days – becoming famous.'
'Do you really believe that Santana?' Her gaze wavered.'
'Look, I don't want some boring 9-5 job being told when I can eat and sleep. No offense Ms Pillsbury.'
'None taken, different jobs suit different people, but you know, a few months back, you didn't like the whole world knowing your sexual tendencies.'
'Yeah, well I've got over that. I'm out and proud.'
OK well just remember, reality TV like the Kardashians, Big Brother, X factor…these shows make people think that fame equals success but all they really create are talentless publicity whores feeding their narcissistic tendencies? You've been blessed with a lot of talents Santana, perhaps more than anyone else at McKinley, Mr Schue and I would hate to see you sell yourself short.'
Dear Diary,
It's Finn, who Will is really worried about. I think he sees so much of himself in Finn – personality wise and talent wise. He holds a special place in Will's heart and he doesn't want Finn to make the mistakes he made ie marrying his childhood sweetheart.
Dear Diary,
Rachel and Will came to me with a plan for helping Finn. I did some research and found Finn places in Ohio he has a chance at getting an athletics scholarship to. The three of us sat down with him and showed him some options for his future. He accepted the help and even seemed to get excited over some of the more glossy brochures. As he walked out of my office Will, Rachel and I hi-fived each other. Then Will said, I have a feeling he might have just been humouring us and he leapt off my desk and followed Finn. Good job he did because Finn threw all of the brochures into the bin. Will confronted him the next day. Finn said he wants time to stop, he wants to feel young and carefree forever, he wants to feel like he feels on the football field and he's just kicked a goal or when he's just finished a Glee performance and everyone is applauding. I think what he's saying is he wants to feel that kind of satisfaction with whatever he does. Will said to Finn, he thinks Finn knows what he wants with his life, he's just scared to say it out loud. Will said to him, 'You can do anything you want to It's not the broken dreams that break us, it's the ones we didn't dare to dream.' So true, last year when I gave up on my dream to be with Will, thinking it had just been a stupid dream, I felt such a failure, BROKEN and I settled for second best and I was MISERABLE.
Dear Diary,
As Ken once said, 'The herd will take care of it.' And they did! Brittany is a genius. She understands Santana better than anyone and realized you don't try to TELL Santana to change her mind about being famous at all cost like we all tried to do, she SHOWED her what it would be like. I didn't see the video she put on Youtube, but I heard the rumours. She somehow organized the student body to embarrass Santana enough to make her reassess her ambitions. Sue quickly followed Brittney's success with a cheerleading scholarship to Kentucky. Of course Sue likes people to be in her debt but I think deep down she really does care about those kids.
Finn has decided he wants to try acting. So he and Rachel can both be broke in New York together!
Dear Diary,
I walked into my office to find Will had left me a poem:
As the sun is to the earth
As the moon is to the tides
As air is to life
You are to me.
PS.
I like it when you smile
But I love it when I'm the reason. We're in the auditorium.
I headed over.
Sue had had Becky working overtime to make the whole club white polyester suits for a final number. I sat down next to Becky to watch Will, Sue and the kids strut their Saturday Night Gleever stuff to 'Stayin' Alive'. I looked at Will in his 70's white suit, swaying those hips. I smiled.