Why? Oh why did this have to happen to ME? –part 12

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I'll believe all your lies

Just pretend you love me

Make believe

Close your eyes

I'll be anything for you

- Anything for You

Tonk's POV

The first time I saw him was when I was eight, he was ten at the time. It was during that same year that my parents decided to spend the summer at Singapore. They thought it would be best for me to spend the summer away from all the stares. Everyone had gotten word of me and of what I am. I hated the stares they made me feel like I shouldn't exist. I'm different I know that but being different isn't always a good thing. Being different is just another way of explaining why you're alone.

The feeling of solitude is not something that can be sympathized. It can only be understood by those who have felt it for themselves. The first time I saw him I realized that he was just like me. I could see it in the way he would spend his time alone. He understood what I felt better than anyone else.

It was during our stay at a local village that I met him. I had been on my way to the market when I began to lose control of myself. I began to shape shift, my hair color changed even my features. I was afraid of the stares. I almost broke down then and there. That was when I saw him, the first time I saw those blue eyes. He had become my salvation, my rock. He had offered me friendship and not once did I feel judged by him. He was the reason I was able to finally express myself fully.

In that summer I had met one of my best friends and my first love.

I fell in love like those fairytale books. You know that saying "love at first sight." It was something like that.

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For every summer we spent together it became that much harder to stop my feelings from growing.

The summers turned into two in which I met the Marauders. My summers would then be consumed by them. It was then I realized I couldn't stop myself from loving him.

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By then I knew him better than anyone else. I knew that he would continue to see me as a friend and only a friend but that was enough. Well that's what I kept telling myself. As long as I am able to spend these moments together with him nothing else matters.

But like all good things this was only a short lived dream. A dream that I would soon be forced to wake up from.

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Even though I saw it coming from miles away my heart on the other hand was left unprepared.

It was the summer of his second year. Like ever break we had met at the Potters. Everything looked and seemed pretty much like the old days.

Like any child I assumed that things would stay like this forever. Eventually the letters they would send me became different. Something was different…there was someone else that had appeared.

Remus along with the others would tell me stories of their adventures in Hogwarts. Normally the stories would be filled with pranks and all kinds of mischief but this time someone knew was in the picture. A girl named Emily had joined them in becoming a Marauder.

I knew that Remus liked her or was at least interested by the way he talked about her in his letters. I would just brush it off after all it was probably just a phase and soon he will look my way.

It took me a while to realize that I was only holding onto childish fantasies. This wasn't some fairytale in which the ugly duckling marries prince charming. This is just me the girl who can change her appearance that falls in love with an unattainable love.

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Every time she was brought up I felt afraid. I was afraid that this girl could take away my most important person.

It wasn't until he came barging into my home. That I realized that it was the first time in years since I've seen so out of character. It wasn't until he said the words "I like Emily," that I felt the first stab to the heart. It hurt but I wouldn't…I couldn't let him see. I smiled my fake smile because I love him and love causes people to do things for the one they love.

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Every time he would mention Emily in his letters I could feel my heart break little by little. He would ask for advice and like all fools in love I answered. It was hard I had to keep telling myself that the pain would go away. That I would stop feeling this pain or that he would look in my direction. That someday he would realize how much I love him.

Then the day came when he stopped writing. I assumed that he was busy with studies but when the Christmas Holidays rolled around I realized why. I had found out in the worst way possible. We had been sitting around the table. When Sirius stood up and in the bluntest way possible announced that Remus was no longer single. I had felt my heart come to a sudden stop. I could no longer hear the uproars of applause all I could hear was the agonizing pounding of my heart.

I kept trying to tell myself that it can't happen. It won't because she doesn't know him the way I do. She can't possibly love him or need him as much as I do. I wanted to tell him not to get near her. My heart kept screaming for me to do something but when Remus placed a concerned hand on my arm my walls crumbled. He was worried. I had no right to tell him anything if this was what he wanted, then so be it. With trembling lips I managed to give him a fake smile because that's the best I could do. I smiled for him while I broke from the inside.

I would smile and hope for his happiness. If she is the one he chooses then I can only wish for his happiness because in the end his happiness is all that matters.

As long as he is happy then I'll pretend to be happy.

I will pretend for his sake.

Emily's POV

I was a bit worried it was the first time that I would be meeting his parents. I wasn't prepared at all. He had asked me a few weeks ago and since I can never say no to him I ended up responding yes right away. It took a few hours before his words sunk in. I wasn't sure what to expect all I could do was hope for the best.

"Nervous?" I was standing next to Remus in front of our meeting place. He had offered to get me from home but considering that I no longer live at home I suggested meeting elsewhere.

"Are you kidding, why would I be nervous. There is nothing wrong with meeting the parents of my boyfriend." Okay by now I'm practically hyperventilating. Remus was looking at me with a concerned look and one that said I wasn't fooling anyone. "Okay! Maybe I'm a little nervous but I'm okay really."

I wish I believed that but sadly I didn't. In a matter of moments we had arrived at a small house located near the edge of Fenrir Forest. Open entering we were greeted by three people.

"Remus darling, guess who came to visit." I turned to see a young girl with bright pink hair standing by the fire place. In a matter of moments Remus had left my side to give her a hug.

"Tonks what are you doing here? It's great to see you. I thought you were going to stay at Prongs place."

"Remus it's nice to see you too. I was planning on staying at the Potters but I realized that I hadn't seen your parents in awhile and decided to visit. I hope that you don't mind."

"Not at all, you know you're always welcomed. Actually I'm really glad you're here there's someone I want you to meet."

During their entire interaction I had been shifting from foot to foot. I didn't know anyone and I also didn't know what to do.

"Mom, Dad I want all of you, to meet Emily." I had gone completely frozen when all of their eyes landed on me. For a moment I expected them to laugh or kick me out. I don't think they realized that Remus had brought me along because all of them seemed surprised. The first out of all of them to snap out of it was the girl. She was the first to take a step towards.

"It's nice to finally meet you Emily. My name is Dora Tonks but you can just call me Tonks." She gave me a warm smile and offered me a hand. I was able to relax a bit her carefree attitude seemed to rub off on me a bit.

"It's nice to meet you too." After that everything else seemed to go a lot smoother. His parents gave me a warm welcome. We all sat down drinking milk and cookies that Mrs. Lupin made while stories were being exchanged.

The most interesting of stories came from the girl. The more I got to know her the more I became amazed at her assurance. She had such an upbeat attitude, always joking and making funny faces as a way to entertain us.

"Okay I got a better one I believe it happened about a month ago." Tonks was going to explain one of her many adventures using her hands to express it. "I was on my way minding my own business when I heard a noise coming from an alley. I had stopped and was going to just walk away when I heard the noise again. I mean what else was I supposed to do? So I did the only sensible thing I went in."

"That's not being sensible that's being nosy."

"You be quiet Remus. I'm telling my awesome story can't you see. Besides I'm not nosy I'm just naturally curious that's all."

"Right, that's what you said when you decided to see if dragons could actually throw fire."

"Well at least now we know that they can."

"No, you're just lucky you can grow your hair back."

"Okay, so my hair got caught on fire so what minor mishaps no big deal."

Eventually we lost track of time and it became too late for me and Tonks to travel. Therefore they had me and Tonks to share a room. I didn't mind I just didn't like being an inconvenience to anyone.

That night Tonks and me spent the night getting to know each other better. I wanted to know more about her, she knew Remus before I did. I wanted to know everything about him and she's great. In all honesty I wouldn't mind having her as a best friend. The more I thought about it the more I realized that she was the type of person I always wanted to be. I wanted to be like her; independent, confident, life of the party and someone who can make the people around her happy by just being near her.

It wasn't hard to see that Remus's parents love her. They treated her like the daughter they never had and I could see why.

The following morning I woke up earlier than I should have. I'm not even sure what caused to me to get up all I know is that I soon found myself going outside. I always loved the smell of fresh air in the mornings it was the most pleasant feeling. I would have just stayed there standing in the peaceful serenity but I hear voices.

Slowly I followed the voices. They seemed to belong to both Remus and Tonks. When I realized that it really was them I turned to leave. I didn't want to eavesdrop but when I heard my name I stopped. Something told me I shouldn't but my body wouldn't move I was curious as to what they were talking about.

"What? I'm sorry I didn't hear you."

"Does she know?"

"What do you mean?"

"Emily does she know about you…about you being-?"

"No, she doesn't."

"Remus-."

"I haven't told her not yet."

"I see"

"It's okay you don't have to feel sorry or worried."

"I didn't say anything."

"I know you. I know your worried about me buts it's okay. I just don't want to lose her just yet. That's why I haven't told her. I know she will eventually find out but until then I want to enjoy this time I have with her."

"Don't talk like that you don't even know how she will react. For all you know she couldn't care less about that. If you really care about her then give her a chance. I know I've only just met her but I know that she really cares about you. Please just think it over."

I didn't stay for the rest of their conversation. I didn't know exactly what they were talking about but from what it sounded like he wasn't telling me something. It hurt to think he didn't trust me but I didn't want to say anything after all everyone has their secrets. I have to right to demand anything from him. He had already given me more than enough.

The rest of my stay ended up quite pleasant. I already fell in love with his parents. They are two of the kindest people I know. Not only that but I made a new friend in the form of Dora Tonks. After saying my goodbyes Remus took me to Diagon Alley.

"You see that wasn't so bad now was it."

"You're right it wasn't what can I say I over reacted. I'm glad I went. I had a good time."

"I'm glad now are you-."

"Emily! There you are. We went to your house to see you but you weren't there. We would have waited but when Eleanor told us that you haven't been home for two days we began to worry." It was my aunt and uncle I had forgotten to leave a note.

"I'm so sorry uncle and aunt I didn't mean to scare you. I was just meeting Remus's parents and well I lost track of time. Oh by the way this is Remus the one I've been telling you about."

"It's a pleasure to meet you." Remus extended his hand like a gentleman leaving my aunt gawking.

"So you're Remus the one my niece had been in love with since-." I had placed a hand on my aunt's mouth. I didn't need her spilling my secrets for the whole world.

"Why don't we continue this conversation at home? I hope that you will join us." My uncle was referring to Remus. I was a bit worried knowing my aunt and uncle they would most likely do something crazy. I just hoped that I was wrong on my prediction.

Nope I was right. At the moment my uncle was telling Remus that if he wanted to be my boyfriend there was something he had to do. He would have to face off against his pet dragon. It took me a while to convince my uncle to take it back but it took even longer to get Remus not to accept. Maybe all these years of hanging out with James and Sirius was rubbing off on him.

The worst part came when my aunt kept handing him every embarrassing baby picture of me possible. I tried to stay as calm as possible but when my aunt proceeded to take out the old tapes I lost it. It was one thing to show baby pictures it was quite another to show him actual recordings of my misfortune. I drew the line at that. I did not want him to see any of it especially the part I walked into a poll. I would die right then and there of pure and utter embarrassment.

He wasn't helping the situation since he's taller than me therefore I can't bloke his view. I can officially say that my life is over. How dare they betray me.

After that little fiasco we had dinner when my uncle began to tell Remus of all of his adventures. My uncle loves telling people of the rare species he finds. He especially likes one where he has to run for his life.

"That's nothing compared to the most ferocious of creatures. Did you know there is a creature that can get angry at the smallest of things?" - uncle

"No I don't think I've heard of one."- Remus

"Well this monster has claws and fangs but you only see then when she becomes angry." - uncle

"So it's a she." Remus

"Of course it's a she. She even has an annoying high pitch voice." - uncle

"What in the blazes are you talking about!" – my aunt Abigail

"Do you see what I mean she's worse if she doesn't get her beauty sleep." I could see my aunt twitching next to him.

"Are you talking about ME!"

"Who else is more ferocious *SMACK*"

"How dare you I am a delicate flower."

"Right sure you are."

*SMACK*

*BAM*

"The monster is loose someone help me."

I sweat dropped you would think that I would be worried or freaked out sadly this happened almost daily. I was about to apologize to Remus but when I looked at him he was laughing. He had been doing that a lot lately. I was glad that he was able to relax more openly.

PS: Okay sorry my peoples I'm leaving it here please review if you want to read the next chapter.