Why? Oh why did this have to happen to ME? –part 15

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Those who love with their whole heart are called fools. If that is true then I am one of the biggest fools.

Remus's POV

It had been a week since the incident. I hadn't seen or heard of her since then. At first I thought that it would be easy to just go back to the way things were. It didn't take me long to realize that I was just fooling myself. I had gotten used to her and the way she was always able to make me forget...forget everything.

I tried to pretend like nothing had happened but the Marauders new better. The first day I thought that what had happened had only been a nightmare. I thought that if I could just wake myself up; that I would be able to see her smiling face again. That everything would be like it was before. I would go down to the Great Hall, like I would do every other morning. She would sit with us and she would end up fighting with James for the last piece of toast. Every time I woke up I realized that it had only been and will only be a dream. Only by turning back the clock could I change things.

I thought the best thing to do was to just forget. Forget about everything, every kiss, every touch and every smile. It didn't help that everywhere I went I would be reminded of her. Even my friends couldn't forget her. Every time James would yell out "mine," only to realize that Emily wasn't with us anymore. Then there is Sirius who was always used to caring around a first aid kit. She had made it a habit of tripping on everything that stood in her way even if it meant her own two feet.

It had only been a few days since I hadn't seen her but it didn't take long for the rumors to spread. It bothered me, how everyone was able to talk about things they didn't understand. Most of them had assumed she was the one that had done something wrong. The entire thing was frustrating. If only certain things hadn't happened, but it was too late to regret.

The more the days passed the more difficult it became for me to control myself. There were times I just wanted to find her. Even if she were to push me away to be able to hold her just once more it would be enough. Well that's what I kept telling myself but I knew it wouldn't be enough. Not when I already knew how it felt to have her with me.

Emily's POV

I hadn't seen Remus for almost a week. The night of the incident I had gone back to the castle. I was glad that no one had seen me cry. Since then I had kept my distance from him. I was afraid to face him. I wanted the pain to stop.

I had avoided everyone even Lily. Snape was one of the first to notice my strange behavior.

"Stop mopping, you look uglier when you mope." I had been crying at the back of the library when he snuck up on me. I quickly tried to wipe the tears away from my eyes. I didn't want anyone else to see me cry.

"I'm not mopping and I don't want to talk about it so leave me alone."

"I don't remember asking. I don't care why you're crying. As a matter a fact I can bet you eighty gallons that you're crying over something stupid. It's probably something to do with stolen food or something idiotic like that."

"It's not stupid." The jerk all he was doing was getting me angry.

"Anything dealing with you and your stomach is stupid."

"Just shut the hell up. Who the hell asked you anyways?"

"Well isn't someone being a little prat this morning."

"I'm sorry I just…Remus he…he," I could feel the tears start all over again. I was tired of crying I didn't want to cry anymore.

"So that's it."

"What do you mean that's it? How can you even say that? You know what he means to me."

"I don't think he does." I was getting angry now. How could he just say it like that? Like if my love had just been a joke. There were a lot of things I could stand about Snape but this wasn't one of them.

"He does and you know he does." I was losing it my tears weren't stopping and my voice was getting louder.

"No, I don't think he does. You want to know why? It's because if he meant so much to you then you wouldn't be here crying."

"Oh and what else am I supposed to do. He doesn't even want to see me."

"Look, if you love him then go knock some sense into him. The Emily I know would fight tooth and nail for the last bagel. So stop being an idiot and do something about it." I was just too shocked to say or move. Snape's right if I truly love him then I should do something about it but I'm a coward.

"I…I can't." I couldn't…I can't face him, not now. I need some time…the wound is still fresh.

Remus's POV

I saw her, she was with Snape. Their closeness had always bothered me. Even if he is a Slytherin it bothered me that he could give her what I couldn't. I say "couldn't" because it's too late to think about things that can't happen anymore.

At the moment the Marauders and I were heading towards the room of requirement.

"I see the rumors are true." We all turned surprised. We hadn't noticed that someone had followed us. I didn't want to have to deal with somebody like her. I had enough on my mind as it was.

"Bellatrix, is there a reason why you are stalking us." – Sirius

"It's only for entertainment purposes I assure you." – Bellatrix

"I didn't think people like you were capable of finding entertainment, that didn't involve hurting others." -Sirius

"You're one to talk you all may think you're better than me but you're not. You four are the same as me so if I were you I wouldn't be talking."

"We will never be like you. We would never stoop so low." - James

"So says the guy who has fun pulling pranks on others. Tell me Potter how many have you traumatized in your life time?" – Bellatrix

"We don't have to justify ourselves to someone like you." - Sirius

"Strong words for the guy that has the nick name heart breaker. Tell me do you enjoy watching them break down because I know I do. You little one, offer me some good amount of entertainment." – Bellatrix

Both James and Sirius had gone quiet. Any other time I would have walked away or at least jinxed her by now but things were different now. I was tired and I had enough of her and her nonsense.

"We don't have to listen to her crap. She can say all she wants I'm leaving you guys coming."

"Go ahead and run it doesn't matter to me. I just wanted to congratulate Remus for providing with the best amount of amusement yet." – Bellatrix

I had stopped for a second I knew it was best not to listen. She was only trying to mess with us and I wouldn't give her that satisfaction.

"After all it's not every day I get to see the kind hearted Remus use someone and throw them away. To think that oblivious idiot could be so amusing, who would have thought. I almost laughed when I saw her crying-." –Bellatrix

"Shut up…don't talk about her like that."

"Aren't we a little touchy I thought animals couldn't feel." I flinched at her implication and she hadn't missed it. "Oh don't worry I wasn't the one who told her about your little secret. As a matter a fact I believe it was Lucious who offered to tell her." I had gone stiff, did she know before she saw. Was that the reason why she came looking for me? "I was just passing by when I heard them talking. Oh but her response is what almost made me laugh out loud. She said she trusted you. Hahaha, what a moron she kept saying how she wanted to hear it from you. Something about wanting to let you explain things. If I were her I would have just asked or left you." I hadn't moved from my spot. I could hear James and Sirius telling me to just leave but I couldn't nit yet. She could have found out but she didn't want to betray me. I have been such an idiot. She was willing to let me explain but I didn't even give her that chance.

"To think I was waiting for the moment where she dumps you. Only to find out that you're the one that dumped her. Hahaha you two were the most interesting to watch. I never thought you would have in you. If you were in Slytherin instead of Gryffindor we could have been good friends. Oh well." With that she left. Her words had irked me I had and would never use Emily.

"Look, forget what she said. She's mentally unstable you can't trust anything she says. Let's just go." – James

"No," I couldn't go not after hearing everything she said. I couldn't…wouldn't let things end this way. Sirius and everyone else were right. I needed to find her.

"Hey! Where are you going?"

I didn't bother responding I had to find her even if she didn't want to talk to me. I knew where she would be I just hoped she would be alone.

It didn't take me long to reach the Howler. Even when we were dating she liked to come up there to feed my owl. There were times when I found her talking to him. It surprised me when my owl seemed to understand her. She had even confessed to me that she had been feeding him before we started going out. She said she didn't know he was my owl. Since I kept leaving every month there were times I couldn't even feed my owl. I always assumed it caught its own food.

After finally reaching the top I looked in the direction I hoped she would be in. Sure enough I saw her there talking to him again. I stopped in my tracks when I saw the wet trails on her cheeks. She looked like she had been crying for quite a while. Even though I had come here to fix things I realized that I didn't know what to say. I hadn't thought about what to tell her but it seemed that I didn't have to worry about that. She had seen me and she was coming my way. I racked my brain trying to think of something to say.

Emily's POV

I hadn't noticed him the moment he had come. For a moment I had hoped he had come looking for me but I quickly squashed those thoughts away. It was ridiculous for me to even think that. He had come to get his owl and that's it. When I saw him just standing there I figured he didn't want to approach me. I had hoped that I could avoid him for a while longer.

I figured I should probably leave before I make things more awkward than they have to be. He was standing in the door way. I made sure to keep my eyes focused on the door. I didn't want to look at him not now.

Just not yet…I don't think I'm strong enough.

I knew that if I looked I would crumble in front of him. Just when I was about to pass him he spoke.

"Emily…" I held my breath I could feel my heart constricting. It had been a while since I had heard his voice. "Emily I'm sorry." I was glad that my back was facing him instead I didn't want him to see me cry. I could feel my eyes begin to water. I stayed silent I just didn't trust my voice to speak. "Emily, please look at me." He sounded pained but I couldn't turn around. If I turned I would break.

"I can't…" it was true. I couldn't turn around if I did I would crumble. I feel him stand closer behind me it hurt to have him this close. "Please don't get any closer." If he were anyone else it would be easy for me to just run but this was Remus.

"Do you hate me?" I had expected almost anything not this. The question had thrown me off. I thought he only wanted to apologize for yelling at me. I had taken too long to respond so he took my silence as confirmation. "I deserve that I'm sorry for bothering you. I'll leave you alone." He had begun to walk away in the direction I had planned on leaving through. I didn't know what he was saying but I couldn't let him leave like that. Without thinking I ran after him and wrapped my arms around his waist.

"Please don't go. I'm sorry I promise to never be nosy again just please don't leave me…" I didn't want him to leave. It hurt me to see him walk away. I was crying fully now. I knew that he would see but I just didn't care anymore. "Please don't leave."

In one swift moment he had turned around and wrapped his arms around me. "Don't apologize you're not the one who did something wrong. This is all my fault I don't deserve you. Please forgive me for being a moron." My face was pressed against his chest. I just shook my head he was wrong I'm the one that doesn't deserve him.

"No, it's all my fault-."

"Emily look at me," I did as he asked and saw his brilliant blue eyes. I was right I would crumble. Whenever he looked at me with those eyes I would become mush. Even after all this time he still had that affect on me. "I'm the idiot not you. It's not your fault I wanted what was best for you. I just think you deserve better than me."

"No, you're wrong there is no one better than you. It hurt so much not being able to see you. I love you. Promise me that you won't leave." He kissed me softly on the lips before responding. I had missed his lips too much.

"I promise." This time I kissed him. His lips felt soft against mine. I had missed this too much. "I love you," he whispered into my ear.

The next couple of days I had spent them with Remus. After we had left Remus had made sure to stay close to me. I didn't mind in the slightest I had missed him too much. At the moment we were all in the room of requirement.

"Well now that you know I guess all that's left is to make you an honorary Marauder-?" Sirius

I wasn't sure what he was talking about but I was interested.

"No." – It was Remus, he was sitting next to me.

"Oh come on I think it'll be great. Besides I really want to find out what animal she turns into."

"No." – Remus

"Wait, are you talking about being an Animagus." - me

"Yup." - James

"No I meant it. It's too risky." - Remus

"Don't you think your exaggerating a tad bit?"

"You know how risky it is to do that-."

"Oh come on aren't you curious to find out what she turns into?"

"I don't-."

"Would you all like to see? If you wanted to know you all could have just asked." they all had stopped their separate conversations to look at me. I didn't understand what the big deal was.

"Wait a minute are you saying that you're-?"

"Here I'll show you." I turned into my respected animal. I wasn't sure what to expect but I was surprised either way.

"…haha look at her isn't she cute." –Sirius. How dare he didn't he realize I'm one of the most ferocious creatures.

"Actually I'm not surprised." – James

"She's a stuffed animal." – Peter. Personally I blame my form for my next actions. In a matter of seconds I had sprung on Peter. How dare he call me a stuffed animal.

"She's a baby bear." - James

"She's actually a cub." Remus

"Isn't that what James said?" –Sirius

"Yes and no." – Remus

I'm not sure how long I had stayed clawing at Peter eventually someone had carried me off. I would have fought them off if it hadn't been Remus who did it. After that I turned back while Peter continued to glare at me.

"I'm not a stuffed animal. I'm a ferocious bear *hmpf* jerk."

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