Disclaimer: I do not own Baby Sitter's Club or any of its characters.
Authors Note: I have not written on this story in three years, but I am hoping I can get it finished now.

Chapter Three

Mary Anne

Dear Diary,
So, I woke up this morning with Sharon screaming because Dawn was not in her bed. It really had everybody freaked out until they found the note that Dawn had left. Apparently, she had decided to take a road trip with Claudia and Kristy. And had not even bothered to ask me. I mean, sure I start my internship tomorrow and it is for a job that I had always dreamed of having. But, what if I do not like it and have to change my career path? Maybe I was trying to hard to grow up and instead missed out on this time with my best friends to have one last adventure as a kid …

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Sharon had been downright livid when she figured out what Dawn had pulled. Dawn had always been a free spirit, and I guess that was what helped her decide that this was all right to do. I could never imagine worrying anybody in my family that much. My dad had been trying to calm her down ever since Dawn calmly called on her cell phone to explain to her what was going on. He had tried to rope me into helping, but I was pretty perturbed myself, so he went on trying it himself. However, he seemed to be not having much luck and I decided that I could not deal with the yelling anymore and had left the house.

However, as soon as I was out of it, I was not sure where I was going to go. Jessi was packing to leave for her summer of ballet, Stacey had left this morning, and Mallory was stuck helping with a family project all day. Not to mention the fact that even if any of them had been here, Kristy and Dawn were my two best friends and they had both abandoned me. I tried to tell myself I could not be too angry with them because I had been the first one to make plans for the summer. I had already ruined our non-binding plans of not really doing anything but spending the summer together.

Then I thought, since I did not get a chance to talk to Logan at graduation, maybe I could talk to him today. I knew he had been avoiding me, but it seemed impossible for me to be able to get him out of my life completely without at least knowing that he would be all right. I was not sure what I was going to say if his mom answered the door, however, since I had now broken her son's heart twice, but that was a chance I needed to take. I determinedly began riding my bike in that direction. While I was now old enough to be driving, I really felt as if riding my bike would give me clarity and time to think about what I would say to Logan when I saw him or Dawn or Kristy when I spoke to them on the phone.

"Mary Anne?" Kerry asked as she opened the door. I could tell by the hostile tone in her voice that she was not very happy to see me.

"Is Logan around?" I asked, trying to maintain a steady tone in my voice. Kerry and I had gotten along and become really close since Logan and I had been together, and I figured if I could convince anybody in the family to be happy to see me, it would be her.

"Logan left this morning," she smirked at me, "He went on a road trip with Alan."

One of the things that had always annoyed me most about my relationship with Logan was how close he was with Alan. They had not been that close in middle school, but freshmen year they had biology together and had basically become best friends. While Alan had been dating Kristy, it had been fun, but as soon as she broke up with him all he ever wanted to do was ask me about how she was doing. I could never have the heart to tell him that she wanted him to just basically drop dead.

"Seriously?" I asked, confused. It seemed odd to me that Logan and Alan would be going on a road trip on the same day that Dawn, Kristy, and Claudia did.

"Yeah," Kerry laughed, "Apparently, your sister invited him along on theirs. How did you not know about this?"

"I …," I started to say, but since I really had no way to respond to what she was saying, I stopped myself, How could Kristy and Dawn let Logan go on a road trip with them? Especially without me there.

Sure, Logan and Dawn were pretty good friends, both being the kind of people who did not really care what people thought about them. Besides, they had plenty of time to talk while Logan would be waiting for me to finish getting ready for our dates. However, he and Kristy had never been especially close, unless talking about sports, and Claudia and Logan barely had any interactions. Why would they invite my ex-boyfriend?

"Is there anything else I can do for you?" Kerry asked. I just shook my head and she slammed the door in my face.

I slowly began to walk away as I pulled my cell phone out of my pocket. Maybe I should try and call them and get an answer as to why this was happening. I was almost positive it had to be Dawn who had invited him, especially since she had been the one to urge me to not break up with him until after graduation.

"Hi, you've reached Dawn, I am not able to come to the phone right now, so please leave a message after the beep," I heard Dawn's voicemail come back at me after I dialed her phone number.

"I cannot believe that you would do that to me," my stern voice came out as more of a whine as I spoke into the phone, "Logan is my ex. I am sure that while there is no strict rule about it, you are not supposed to invite them on road trips with you. Especially without inviting your sister or your best friend."

I hung up before I started to say anything I could possibly regret and called Kristy next. I really was not too surprised when I did not get an answer from her either.

"Kristy here, I am probably playing baseball. You can leave a message, but there is only a fifty percent chance I will get back to you!" Kristy's voicemail that normally made me laugh came over my phone. This time I just rolled my eyes in annoyance.

"Hey Kristy," I said, calmer this time, "I am sure that this was not your idea, but I really wanted to know why anybody would think taking Logan on a road trip would be a good idea? I assume since Alan Gray is with you, you are not too thrilled about it either. Just call me later when we can actually talk about this. I except to know every detail."

I decided to make one last attempt and dialed Logan's all too familiar number. It was the number I had dialed the most in my life, next to Kristy's home phone number. I mostly expected to get his voicemail too, so when I heard the familiar sound of the phone picking up, I could feel my heart racing.

"Hello?" his cute accent that he had never quite been able to get rid of came over the phone, "Mary Anne?"

"I …," and I could not say anymore and hurriedly hung up the phone. Maybe I had been thinking too much about what I needed. If Logan needed to get away, that's what he needed to do. That did not mean that I forgave Dawn or Kristy because one of them should have told me, but I had no right to be mad at Logan for anything anymore.

That thought was enough to trigger my emotional side. Sure, I wanted to end things with Logan, but I guess I always thought he would still be around. It was not fair for me to want him to be always pining, and yet that is what I had expected. However, now he was on this road trip where he was going to meet lots of women and probably not think of me at all.

My "teenage menopause" as my friends had so affectionately described my ability to cry for anybody or anything since we were about fifteen caused me to sit down on the curb outside of Logan's house and let all my tears flow freely. I really hoped that my internship would help keep my mind off of what exactly Logan or any of the others would be doing this summer.