Chapter 7! I'm so exhausted from writing so much faberry, so I might take a break for a while. But don't fret, as Quinn would says.

The moment Judy walked in she could no longer be around Quinn because it remembered her of the aggressiveness her father had towards her. The world she had created came crashing down and suddenly everything wasn't fine. It was horrible train wreck. She had been able to ignore it before but it caught up to her.

She will be fine without you.

There are plenty of other nurses who are capable of taking care of her.

Eleanor is there too!

It's their job to take care of patients.

But shes probably worried.

You left in the middle of the night for God sakes!

Rachel you should at least call.

but-

No buts call her.

I mean it.

That means, right now Rachel!

She picks up the phone and dials Quinn's number regretfully.

"Sorry the number you dialed is temporarily out of service." The words played in her head over and over again. It was the same exact message that played when she attempted to call her, on her wedding day, after she didn't receive a text back.

That's right Quinn doesn't have a phone anymore.

She turns off her phone and curls up into a ball on her bed.

It's not you fault Rachel.

It's not your fault.

Your fault.

Tears build upon her eyes as her words turn against her. No matter how much she tried to convince herself it wasn't, the events that happened that day replayed in her head and she couldn't find herself convincing other wise because in the end, Quinn still ended up in the hospital and she was responsible.

The brunette laid in bed for hours drowning in her own tears not quite sure what to do.

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Call her today.

It's been days Rachel.

Three to be exact!

You had your time to think so call already.

She turns on her phone but leaves it on top of her drawer. She sits at the edge of her bed sniffling. If she couldn't call her how on earth was is possible to confront her on the phone. All she was going to do was apologize for not coming anymore and that she was no longer going to visit her- so why was it so hard?

Why was it so easy before?

Her phone rings several times and she let's it go straight to voice mail. The ringing continues until she takes the effort to check who is calling. She grabs her phone and checks the caller ID. The number from the caller was unknown and she didn't recognize the number at all. She notices that the person had left a voice mail and calls it.

"Hi Rach, It's Finn-" With a push of a button she skips the message instantly. Finn was the last thing she wanted on her mind. Not after what had happened days before that left her curled up crying in bed.

There is silence on the line and Rachel looks at her phone checking if she had accidentally hung up. She is about to end the call when she hears a familiar voice. Quinn's voice. She quickly puts the phone on speaker because she is unable to hear and understand the blonde's soft mumbling voice.

"Hi Rachel. I was just checking up on you. I don't know if you know but I'm really worried and I hope you are ok." There is a pause on the line and Rachel brings her ear closer to the speaker and breaks down after she hear the next few words. "I miss you a lot. Please let me know that your at least safe. Call me as soon as you get this message. Ok bye."

How could she miss her after all she has done? She understood worried but missed?

She could sense the gloominess in the blonde's voice even though she tried her best to cover it up with a cheerful tone. She looks through her other voice mail messages and sees 12 other voice mails from her.

"Rachel please call me. I'm worried sick here."

"Rachel I know you probably don't want to talk but at least tell me your alright."

"Did your phone get stolen or something or did you not charge it? Call me ASAP!"

"Hi its me again. I'm beginning to think I'm calling the wrong number. If I am please tell me."

"I..I'm so sorry, I don't know what I did to you but I can't..I just can't express how much I'm sorry." Quinn is crying this time. "I promised I wouldn't cry but- but Rachel where are you?" Why was she sorry? She had done nothing completely wrong and yet she was apologizing. When this whole time the brunette had not shown up or let her know what was really going on.

"Where are you Rachel?"

Similar messages are played until she hears a different voice. Puck's.

"Rach your girl needs you. I don't know if you know but she's been frantically worried about you and shes been trying to reach you. She can barely eat or sleep. All she does all day is stare at the phone in anticipation for a call from you and I just can't stand to watch it anymore. Please just let her know you're fine. We are all worried about you."

Rachel is pacing back and forth in her bedroom now, debating whether or not to call back.

She's worried. She left 12 voice mails in a day. One day!

She picks up the phone nervously dials the number. The phone connects almost instantly.

"Hello?" Rachel remains silent.

"Rachel is that you?"

She hangs up the phone.

I can't do this.

I can't.

For the next few days Rachel tries to leave her house and visit Quinn but can barely place her hand on the doorknob of her room. She spent hours standing in front of her door unable to open it. Eventually she was able to make it down the stairs to the front door but still she was unable to fully turn the knob. She does this several times but somehow ends up back in the safety of her room.

Today is the day we are going to do it.

The diva places her hand on the knob and slowly turns it. She yanks her hand back when the knob turns against her. Her father opens the door surprised at Rachel initial reaction.

"Oh dear. Honey you scared me, like rawr." He growls making a tiger claw gesture and winks. The brunette stands there as if she is caught red handed but why? It wasn't like she was sneaking out.

"Aw c'mon where is my little girl's sense of humor." He puts his hands on his hips and frowns when the diva runs back upstairs into her room and slams her door.

Leroy walks towards him wiping a glass cup with a white towel cloth. They look up at the staircase, where their daughter had ran up."

"What's wrong with her?"

"I don't know but I think it has to do with that Finn boy. She didn't even laugh at my tiger claw. Rawr." He makes the gesture again and Leroy laughs

"That is funny." He mocks the gesture and the two laugh. Once they settle down Leroy looks at Hiram in seriousness.

"We should probably talk to her."

He pushes his glasses upwards, "Yes. I was just about to suggest that."

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Rachel can hear her fathers laughter downstairs and misses the way she used to laugh with Quinn. She missed Quinn but there was no way of going back not when she was in a condition like this. Hiram and Leroy knock on their daughter's door.

"Honey can you open the door please." She opens the door to a crack.

"Can you tell us what's going on."

She says one word and one word only.

"Quinn."

They look at each other surprised. They were certain it had to do something with Finn. Well maybe it was but still. Bringing up Quinn was out of the question. Especially, how happily she returned home on Sunday.

Leroy raises his chin in question. "What about her?"

"I miss her."

Hiram snorts, "Well honey why don't you go see her then? We never stopped you before."

"Hiram, maybe they got into a fight. You know how girls are these days."

He adjusts his glasses. "Let me tell you a story baby doll."

"Oh boy not again."

"See your father here, this man right here, him." He points at Leroy.

"She gets it. Your talking about me." He says it with annoyance and a dragged tone.

He gasp and crosses his arms, "You are unbelievable, I'm trying to tell my little girl a life changing story and you interrupt so rudely." They chatter away forgetting the diva is still there.

"You guys." They turn in attention to their daughter.

"I know what your doing. Thanks."

They smile, "Your welcome Hun." Leroy kisses her on the forehead.

"So you driving to the hospital to see your little girlfriend?" Hiram air quotes girlfriend.

"No I don't feel like it.

"Ok I'll give you a lift there. Get ready in 5 minutes kiddo and then we can-a-go." Her dads dart away before she can disagree. As her fathers walk away she can hear her dads continue to bicker.

"You always do this to me."

"I do not."

"I'm beginning to think we need couple therapy. We aren't getting along as we used to and it worries me. You used to be so loving."

"That was when your stories weren't told a million times."

Rachel's dads were something. They never addressed her problems directly but in a way it made her address it herself and she was thankful she had two dads,who cared for her but at the same time gave her privacy. Plus they were funny. Berry funny.

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Hiram parks his car at the entrance of the hospital and looks at his daughter.

"Here we are. Now give me a kiss goodbye." Rachel leans over and kisses her dad's cheek.

"Wait now you forgot the other cheek." He turns his head and she kisses it.

"Love you kiddo, never forget that."

She smiles, "Love you too dad.

"There is my girl's bright shining smile, how could I miss something like that." Rachel covers her teeth with her lips.

"What where did it go?" His comment makes the diva's lips burst open.

"Bye dad." She opens the door and steps out of the car.

"Bye kiddo. I'll pick you up at 10 sharp." He winks and snaps his tongue against the roof of his mouth.

Once her father drive away her smile dissolves and she is broken again. She wanders outside the building until it gets dark and she is forced to go inside.

You just have to wait here till 10 and then you can leave.

Your not going to see Quinn?

I can't..

She walks around the hospital trying to find a place to stay till 10 but every place she goes to she is stuck with thoughts.

Quinn, Quinn, Quinn.

I can't stop thinking of her.

Go to her then.

She makes it to an elevator and hovers over the button L2.

Your already here, might as well see her.

She presses it but then rushes out as the doors begin to close.

"Rachel?"

She turns around and sees Eleanor with towels in her hands.

"I thought it was that brown head of yours bobbing around. I was practically chasing you around everywhere but you kept moving."

"Sorry, I have to go." She begins to walk away.

"Aren't you here to see Quinn? Shes been a terrible wreck without you."

The brunette pauses in her tracks.

"I.."

"C'mon, shes not mad at you." Eleanor grabs her arm and presses the elevator button. The elevator arrives and she brings the diva with her. She presses the L2 button and the elevator door closes. As they escalate up Eleanor continues to talk as she stays quiet.

"I'm so glad your here. I been waiting for you guys to make up. Couldn't stand the little blonde. She didn't want to eat or shower until she heard of you. I swear you guys must be the closest of friends. Fight one day and it's like the end of the world."

They reach the second level and Rachel waits for Eleanor to leave first.

"Go on child."

"Your not coming with me?"

"Of course not. Now make up!" She pushes her out of the elevator and smiles as the door closes

Rachel stares down the empty hall and begins to walk closer to the room. She hesitates going every now and then until she finally reaches the room. When she goes inside she sees Quinn facing towards the window with full attention.

"Hi Quinn." The blonde doesn't turn around to see who it was because these past 5 days thinking of Rachel Berry was nerve wrecking and now, now she could hear her voice. She was certain her mind was playing games with her again.

She hears her voice echo in her head again. Why couldn't her mind let her rest for once. Why couldn't she get the girl off her mind.

"Your mad at me huh." There is a quiver in her voice now and she is shaking uncontrollably. She never asked for this to happen. She wanted to be by her friend she did but she couldn't find herself to be. As hard as she tried she couldn't and she hated she couldn't take action. It there because people pushed her to come here. That was why she was here now.

"I'm not mad at you Rachel, I'm just miserable."

Without you.

"I'm so sorry Quinn. I really am." Her tears engulf her words as the blonde continues to stare blankly out the window. She wished she was angry at her because making her depressed was worse.

"You don't have to be." She had said this but Rachel felt like her words screamed the opposite.

Rachel shakes her head in disagreement and cries harder. "Why won't you look at me?"

Quinn turns her head in astonishment that the diva was right in fact, in front of her. She couldn't help but tell her what's been on her mind.

"I..Rachel the accident, it wasn't your fault. As much as you thought it was its not." The words that she been wanting to hear all along had came out crashing down on her shoulders whether she was ready or not to hear it.

"I..I couldn't help but answer your text. I didn't know what else to do Rachel. All I knew was that I loved you and that the only way for me to make you happy was if I supported you, even if it was against what I was for."

Even if it was against my feelings! But she didn't say that. She couldn't.

"Rachel losing you wasn't a mistake I was going to make. That's why I was on my way. On my way, to support you in a decision you believed was right because Rachel- I can't lose you." Quinn is crying now and as much as Rachel couldn't believe it she could hear the sincerity in her voice.

Although, she had spilled the truth to the girl she wasn't prepared to tell her that there was a possibility that she couldn't move her legs because right now they were to fragile and the diva running off again- she couldn't let that happen.

Quinn presses her forehead against the diva and they cry in each others arms. The warmth of the diva filled her body and the tears she thought were gone came gushing out.

"I can't Rach."

"I can't."