Author's Note: This chapter isn't long but I think it is still able to show how Blaine is trying to figure out his feelings. Hope you like it. Glee isn't mine, Trust me.
Chapter 8: What is my Heart Saying?
(BPOV)
I needed to go somewhere to think. I immediately drove over to the park, hoping the clean air and the trees would be able to help me clear my head. As I listened to Kurt sing, butterflies had entered my stomach and something stirred inside of me. I had felt this before but it decided to increase in intensity today.
I started thinking about what I felt when I was with Kurt before today. I had always felt a pang of joy inside whenever I was headed to a meeting with him or whenever I thought of him, but that could've been because he was quickly becoming one of my closest friends, right? I hated seeing him in pain or sad, it made me feel just as sad and hurt. But isn't that because I hated seeing people I cared about like that. I mean I did it all for my other friends, but it seemed to be stronger whenever it involved Kurt. We both got along great, that's why we were so close and became quick friends.
As I looked at everything again, I realized quickly that were was something more than friendship there. I cared for Kurt more than I have ever cared for anyone else. Just thinking of him made me happy and sent butterflies in my stomach. I had felt this before but I had just put it aside thinking it was nothing important. But how could I have never noticed these feelings. We fit so perfectly together.
I seemed to have always had feelings for Kurt; from the first moment when I was captivated by his gorgeous Blue/Green eyes (though at the time I was just thinking they were pretty). I should have noticed this before. It took hearing him sing "Blackbird" for these feelings to be understood. It was as if I had finally found the person that I had always been waiting for forever.
The next thing I had to figure out was "How do you tell someone this?" I've never been much of a romantic. I had attempted to ask someone out once before, and that didn't work out the way I had planned. I knew that the way I felt was something more intense than I had ever felt before, and I definitely didn't want to scare that away.
I headed back to my car and turned on the radio. "Candles" by Hey Monday was playing. It was then that I realized that as long as I could turn to music, I would find what I needed to say in order to convey to Kurt how I truly felt.
I pulled out my phone and sent Kurt a quick text: Hey Kurt, meet me tomorrow at my place at 9. I have an idea for a song.
He replied almost instantly: K, what song we gonna be working on?
Nope. Not going to tell you. You kept your song a secret today, now it's my turn.
Fine. Your parents gonna be home?
Nope, just you and me. The realization of this made me even more nervous, but this was definitely something I wanted to do without the glaring looks from my parents.
Sounds good, I'll see you tomorrow.
With that I knew that I needed to start preparing. By the end of the day tomorrow, I will hopefully be gaining a Boyfriend.
Author's Note: Tomorrow is the DAY! When we finally get to Blaine admitting to Kurt how he feels. Hopefully you guys like what I have written. Don't forget to send me a review so I know how I'm doing.