Chapter 3:

A/N – so sorry I haven't updated since last year….I was busy with exams and piles of homework and projects. Hope you like it! sorry if i have grammar mistakes.

BPOV

I don't know if I was dreaming or not. While in the forest I thought I heard Edward, and I felt his arms around me, but I don't know. I am dead right? I'm sure that I killed myself, so that way everyone can live in peace. But am I dead, I still feel the same, but a little irritated by a constant beeping noise. I tried tuning it out but it was to no avail. Slowly I opened my eyes; at first I couldn't see anything except this blinding light. Slowly when I was regaining my sight back, I realized I was in the hospital. Soon, my eyes locked with a pair of emerald eyes, I opened my mouth to ask who they were, but they started to talk before I could make words come out of my mouth.

"I'm sorry; I should have listened to you." The words ran out of his mouth in a smooth velvety voice, it took me a few second to register that is was Edward. Why is he here, he doesn't care about me so why would he be here, unless he read my letter earlier then I planned for him to find out. I started wondering why I am in the hospital if I was dying in the forest. Charlie was not supposed to find the note quickly hence the reason I left it in his room. But then again Charlie and Edward hate me, so why would they find me. I shouldn't have told Charlie where I was going to be, and I should have put the letter into Edwards's locker after he left school. I guess this is my entire fault, whatever; I'll just leave this town soon, as I am already eighteen but Charlie might not let me leave after this. Or he will just send me to Renee and Phil because I am a disappointment to him.

"Bella" I was pulled out of my internal rant by Edward. I was tempted to pretend that I have amnesia, and ask him who he was but I decided against it.

"Hmm?" I replied to him, not feeling like talking. I decided to look him in the eye; all I could see in them were concern.

"Why didn't you tell me? Try to reason with me." His voice started off soft but it started to get louder and rougher. "I would have listened to you. Why did you set up this stupid stunt, killing yourself, really Bella? I would have never thought you could have pulled a stunt as stupid as this. Do you know what I went through not knowing if you would be alright or not?" He stopped yelling at me once he met my eyes, his face soften. I am sure that my eyes were filled with tears from his previous words. "I'm sorry, I did not mean yell at you, I'm sorry I am just frustrated with what just happ…" I cut him off.

"What you went through. Do you even know what I went through? Of course you don't, because you weren't there. I went months without anyone helping me. Months in which I was hated upon, by you, your family, everyone even my own father. I was alone, and on top of that you just kept telling me I am worthless. And now you think you can waltz right in here and yell at me. And you say you are sorry." I said all of this in a low detached voice, it sounded a little scary.

When I looked at him he looked guilty, but I couldn't trust him, because he hurt me right? "Why are you even here? I wrote you that letter so you would know the truth of what happened that night. I don't want to be here, alive. So why in the world did you save me?" My voice dropped into a whisper as I questioned him.

"Bella, I realized that I was wrong, in many ways not only did I not listen to you but I didn't give you a chance to explain." In all honesty I thought that he was sincerely apologizing, but then again I don't know him anymore, even if he did safe me. "I am ready to do anything for your forgiveness."

Anything he says…

"When I read your letter, I realized that I did not give you a chance to explain. I want to apologize to you, ready to do anything for your forgiveness, so I headed to your house to make it up to you. When I rang the doorbell, Charlie answered the door, but he did not know where you were, so he was worried." I internally scoffed at that, Charlie wouldn't be worried about me. "Then he found the note you wrote him, and both of went out in the forest to find you. And we did, and then we brought you here. And to answer your question, I saved you because I never did stop loving you, even when we were apart I wanted us to be together."

"But you are with Tanya." I replied back.

"That's not the point, Bella. I would do anything for you; I want you to know that."

"No, you are supposed to be with Tanya, and have nothing to do with me. Both of you are good for each other, now if you don't mind will you leave me alone."

"But Bella…" He started to respond

"Get out Edward, just get out." He glanced back at me, and walked out of the room slowly. Finally I could think in peace again. The fact that Edward saved me still made no sense, he told me he hates me, and won't care for me anymore. Then why on earth did he come to find me, and confess his love for me. He did apologize, but I don't know if I can forgive him now or ever.

I am really sorry I haven't updated recently, I was having trouble writing this chapter, so I kept rewriting it, trying to make it perfect. I really hope you liked it, and once again I apologize for not updating. I will really try to update more frequently.