I stood in the doorway, watching them. I felt so anxious about not knowing what they thought. After about 2 minutes, the living room got pretty quite. I let out a breath slowly. Sam got up from the circle. He slowly walked towards me and put his arms around me. I snuggled my head into hi chest and he rested his head on top of mine.
"They were amazing Bella." He said quietly
I smiled into his chest and looked up.
"Yea?" I asked questionly.
He smiled at me warmly. "Yea."
"Bella, those were amazing!" Leah said.
I turned my head to her. "Thanks Le- Le."
Jake walked over to me and Sam with a smirk on his face. "I told you they would like them!"
I rolled my eyes. "Yea, yea Jake." I said.
"So Bells, when did you do these?" Seth asked
"Yea, we didn't know you could draw like that." Quil said.
"Umm…well I did them when I had time. Sometimes before I went to bed, or in the morning. I did a few when Jake and I were at the beach today."
"How do you remember all of the details and stuff?" Embry asked.
"Well it's like I take a picture in my head; and then when I want to go back and draw it, I just recollect the memory and draw the picture from my head. It sounds really crazy, but that's the best way I can explain it" I shrugged.
"Sounds cool!" Brady said.
"Yea, it is." I smiled.
After a while we all decided to watch a movie. We turned off the lights and got comfy. Sam and I were snuggled together on one end of the couch, while Le-Le and Jake were on the other side. Seth was on Charlie's recliner chair and the rest of the guys were lying on the floor. The front door opened and someone turned on the lights. I tensed up in Sam's arms. I relaxed when I saw it was just Charlie.
"Hey dad." I said letting out a breath.
"Hi honey!" he said while hanging up his coat. He turned to us. "Oh! Hello everyone, Jake." He nodded.
"Hey Mr. Swan!" Jake said waving.
"So, what are you guys watching?" he asked while standing in the doorway.
"Shhh!" everyone said.
Charlie raised his hands in surrender and backed off. He turned off the lights and went into the kitchen. Sam and I laughed at Charlie's expression. After the movie was over Sam and the guys got up to leave.
"Come on guys, we should get going." Sam said.
The guys got up and stretched. Jake came over and pulled me into a quick hug and then left with Leah. The rest of the guys, except for Embry, waved before heading out the door. Sam and Embry were the only two left in the house. Embry walked over to me and pulled me in a hug. "Thanks Bells." He whispered in my ears. He must have known I was confused. "For everything."
I smiled. "I didn't do anything Embry, but I think I should be thanking you."
"What? Why?" he asked looking at me.
"Because you kept my secret, even though you didn't want to and you kept your promise to me. So thank YOU." I stated.
He smiled at me and hugged me again. "Anytime Bells." We parted and he headed out the door.
"See ya later Sam!" he said over his shoulder.
"Bye Embry!" Sam said while walking towards me. He wrapped me in his arms and pulled me into a hug. After Embry shut the door, Sam looked over to the kitchen. He must have been looking for Charlie because after he didn't see anyone, he pulled me into a passionate kiss. His lips parted with mine and our tongues battled. His arms tightened around my waist and my hands tightened around his neck. I missed his kisses. They were always so warm and passionate. It felt so good. We broke for a second to catch our breath and then continued to kiss. He sucked on my bottom lip and grazed his teeth over it. We both moaned in pleasure. We could hear Charlie's footsteps come closer so we quickly pulled apart. He leaned down to my ear and whispered to me. "See you upstairs Bella." He said and then headed to the door
Charlie was in the foyer. "Oh you leaving Sam?" he asked
"Yes, sir. I should get home." Sam said politely, while sneaking a wink towards me, when Charlie wasn't watching.
Charlie nodded his head. "Ok, well have a safe drive home!"
"I will sir, thank you. See you soon Bells." He said and gave me another quick wink before closing the door behind him.
After Sam left, Charlie turned towards me.
"Well, im going to bed Bella." He said.
I nodded. "I am going to too in a second."
Charlie gave me a kiss on the head and began to walk up the stairs. He made it about half way before he turned towards me. "Oh, and your mother called. I forgot to tell you. Sorry. She said to call her when you had a chance." He said.
I turned towards the kitchen "ok, thanks."
He nodded and continued up the stairs. Once he shut the door I let out my breath I had been holding. Why was Renee calling again? I shook it off, she was probably calling to me to ruin my life some more. No way in hell I'm calling her back. I shook it off, cleaned up the kitchen a little, before I turned off the lights and headed upstairs for bed.
After I finished my whole nightly routine and put on my P.J's, I slipped into bed. I jumped a little when I felt arms around me. I rolled my eyes, when I heard the muffled laugh. Stupid Sam. I rolled over to face him.
There he lay with a grin on his face.
"Not funny." I said pouting a little.
"Oh come on Bells that was a little funny." I rolled my eyes.
"Funny would be using my powers to push you off this bed and then letting you fall flat on your ass" I said slyly. He looked a little panicked then his face went calm.
"But that would be using your powers for personal gain." He said smugly. I leaned closer to his ear.
"Well I think I could make an exception this one time." I said while leaning back. His face looked a little panicked again and he gulped. I chuckled.
"Your lucky you have such a nice girlfriend" I said and rolled over back on my other side. His arm wrapped around me and he scooted my body closer to his. We fit like a puzzle piece. Perfect. I smiled at this thought. He propped his head on his arm and leaned down to my ear.
"Damn right I am, and she's hot too." he said. I could feel his smile on his face. I couldn't help but smile wider. I rolled back towards him a little, and met his eyes. We kissed a little, then went back to our same positions and fell asleep.
Weeks went on, just as boring as the others. The weekends weren't so bad. We had a couple of more bonfires but nothing epic went on. School was school, the same routine: Wake up, go to school, try and pay attention, go home, do homework, sleep, and repeat.
But every spare moment I had, I couldn't shake the feeling that something was going to happen with James.
My focus on school or other things were becoming cloudy and I felt as if it was starting to become an obsession. I know James had an ulterior motive but I couldn't figure out what. The talk with Sam helped, not figure out the problem, but at least to regain my focus.
We were watching a movie at my house, Charlie was still at work. Sam's arms were wrapped around me and I had my head on his shoulder. I couldn't seem to pay attention to the movie. Every few seconds my mind would drift back to the whole scenario about James. I tried to think if he said anything that would mean something, that would tell me what he was planning but I always came up with nothing. James is not the kind of guy that leaves something unfinished. I know that by the way we battled that day. The most reasonable outcome I could think of would be is to find my weakness, which is pretty obvious. The pack. I was not going to let them get hurt for my mistakes. Sam shook me a little. "You Ok?" he asked, looking down at me.
"Yea, I'm fine. Why do you ask?" I wondered.
"I don't know, you just seem…out of it. You've been like this for the past week, like you can't seem to focus."
I forgot how observant Sam was. I bit my bottom lip. He sighed. "Tell me what's going on Bells." He said turning to me as he paused the movie.
"Nothing Sam, im fine."
"Bella." He growled.
This time, I sighed. "I don't know, I just feel like, something's going to happen, and it's not going to be good. There are so many unanswered questions and I can't seem to find the answers." I said, putting a hand to my forehead. I looked down. Sam moved my hair away from my face and looked at me.
"Well, whatever does happen we will get through it together. Nothing is going to break us apart. I love you too much to let that happen." He said while tracing my cheek with his thumb.
I sighed. Getting through it together was something I didn't want to happen. I mean, I loved Sam; I love him and the pack with every fiber in my being. But if something was going to happen, I needed to do whatever needed to be done by myself. They were not ever to get hurt if it was my fault. Ever. I suddenly froze and went over his words in my head again.
"You-You love me?" I asked shocked.
He looked slightly embarrassed. "Well yeah, I mean I thought you did too, I just well, I thought…" His cheeks were pink and he was stumbling over his words. I smiled. Another perfect moment to draw. I thought. I kissed his cheek. He looked at me. "What was that for?"
I shrugged. "I don't know. But, I love you too." I said sweetly. Sam gave me that toothy wide eyed grin. He suddenly gave me this mind blowing kiss. It was like nothing I ever felt before. When we parted we were both gasping for breath and smiling like idiots.
My fears were lost that night, and everything felt like it was ok.
The weather was starting to change. It was getting colder, and closer to winter. I didn't have many things for winter so Le-le and I spent some "girl time" together at the mall.
Earlier that Day.
"Please Bella" Sam begged. He was following me everywhere, waiting for me to become annoyed enough to cave. I turned around towards him.
"No Sam, I have money, I can spend my own money, I don't need your money, and I don't want you money. So stop begging cause I wont change my mind!" I said with a huff. Leah was going to be here in about an hour and that time seemed like such a long time from now. Sam was over the house a few hours before Leah called.
We hung out for a little and decided Sam would leave when I did. He kept bugging me to use his money he has, saying that what was his was mine, and he could provide for both of us. I know that usually when your boyfriend says that your supposed to run over take his credit card, cash, or whatever, give him a big kiss and run out the door shouting thank you, but I didn't. I didn't want to use his money. I had my own and I didn't need anyone to 'handle me'
"Please Bella." He said again. I groaned and threw a pillow at him. He quickly caught him and joined me on the couch.
"Why wont you?" he asked hurt.
"Because I don't want your money Sam, and please don't use that whole 'what's mine is yours' phrase, because I will go insane." I said.
"Why won't you let me take care of you?" he asked with his head in his hands.
"Because I don't need to be taken care of." I said quietly before getting up to get the door. Le-le was here early (thank the heavens." I opened the door. "Ready?" she asked excitedly. "Yea, lets go." I said before grabbing my purse and shutting the door behind me. Leah looked at me curiously while walking to the door. "But wasn't Sam in there?" she asked confused. "Yup." I said while getting in the passenger side of her Ford escape.
"The why didn't you say goodbye?"
"Because he is being an ass I and I don't feel like saying goodbye." I said grumpily.
"Ok crabby pants. Don't get your panties in a bunch." She said while driving away.
I sighed. "Im sorry, it's just; we had a fight about money and crap."
She looked at me, telling me to go on.
"He used the whole 'what's mine is yours' phrase."
Leah nodded in uderstandment. I sighed and put my head on the window.
"I just...he has good intentions, I just don't know if im ready for that. I-I can take care of myself." I justified.
'Wonder if it's not about your independence, just that he is trying to show you that he will always be there. Maybe he doesn't see that you're not ready. He is pretty pushy sometimes." She said as she was driving. I looked at her, but she wouldn't look at me. "Thanks Le-le" I said.
She nodded. "Anytime Bells, now let's get our shop on!" she said while parking. We smiled at each other and laughed. 20 stores and 16 bags between the both of us, I got a text. I opened my phone to see it was from Sam.
'I'm sorry, I was being a jerk.' It read.
I smiled at texted him back. 'No, it was my fault too, sorry for being so stubborn. Still love me?'
2 seconds later my phone rang telling me I had a text. 'I will always love you, nothing could ever change that.' He wrote.
We texted for a while just talking. I told him we would be back soon we were going to go eat some dinner and then come home. He said he had to run some errands but would be waiting for me in my room later. We ate at an Italian restaurant.
On the ride home Leah looked over at me. "I'm guessing everything is ok with you and Sam now?" she asked amused.
"yea." I said grinning.
"Good, cause I was gunna kick his ass. But I could anyways for putting that permanent grin on your face. You look like an idiot."
I laughed a little. "Thanks Le." I said.
'Anytime Bells. Anytime."
After all my clothes were hung up, I laid down on my bed. Shopping with Leah was exhausting. She may show off like a tough girl but on the inside, she is the most girly girl I know. Her and shopping are one. I closed my eyes and started to drift away. I woke up slowly by feeling myself being lifted. I rubbed my eyes and looked up to see Sam.
"Hey, im sorry." He said quietly.
"It's ok, what are you doing here?" I asked while sitting back down on the bed.
He smiled. "I told you I would be back later."
I arched an eyebrow. "What time is it?"
"About 2 in the morning."
"Wh-you were out that late?"
"Yea, patrol. I haven't taken a late shift in a while, so I gave the guys a break." I nodded tiredly.
"Lets get you in bed." He said pulling back the sheet some more. I looked down to see I was still wearing my clothes. I sifted a hand through my hair trying to wake myself up a little more.
"Let me get some P.J's on." I said getting up groggily. My foot must have been caught in the sheets because as I got up, I was about to fall flat on my face till I felt big, strong arms wrap around me. Sam's chest rumbled with laughter and he looked at me.
"Your not awake yet are you?"
I shook my head. "Nope not yet, but thanks."
Sam pulled the sheets back all of the way so I wouldn't trip, and I went to my dresser and pulled out some P.J's. I tiredly walked my way to the bathroom and slowly got changed. When I came back I saw Sam sprawled out on my bed. When he heard me his head popped up and a smile appeared on his face. He scootched over to make room for me.
I groaned and buried my head in his chest, snuggling as close as I could to his body. He smiled in my hair and kissed me on the head.
"Night Bells" he said softly.
"Night." I mumbled before I fell into a deep sleep.
~A/N: So I haven't gotten as many reviews lately, so I was wondering if you guys don't like it anymore. Should I abandon the story?