When I woke up I was in Sam's bed. My stomach was sore, and I saw the scar. All of the memories started to flow back to me. I got out of bed and made my way to the hallway. Sam's place was pretty quite. I looked around before going down the stairs.

"Bella." Leah said. I turned around and there she was red and puffy eyed.

"I just wanted to say thank you for saving Jake. You were practically dying yourself…and…well…just thank you." She said quietly. I nodded my head.

"It was my fault anyways." I said.

She was about to say no but I cut her off.

"You know it was." I claimed.

She shut up and put her head down. "Jake wants to see you." She said quietly.

"He is in the guest room down the hall." She pointed and walked down the stairs. I took a breath and made my way down the hallway into Jake's room. The guilt I felt was so immense it was almost unbearable. I turned the doorknob, taking a second to prepare myself to what I was going to see. When I walked in, Jake was laying on his back in bed. He didn't look like he was in pain, but he didn't look like the carefree funny Jake I knew. "Jake." I whispered.

"Bella." He said raspy. I could hear him clear his throat

"Hey." I said, pulling up a chair to sit beside the bed. I ran my fingers over his arms and chest, making circles here and there. We didn't talk; we just enjoyed each others presents for a while.

"It's not your fault." He said after a while.

"Jake…" I started.

"No, I was the one who tried to interfere. You were right. You warned us all of those times that those people are powerful, but my ego and protective side got the best of me. This was not your fault Bella Swan. It's far from it."

I shook my head in the dark and tears escaped my eyes. "It is my fault. How can you not see it? If I wasn't here, you wouldn't have so much drama in your life. You wouldn't have been laying there on the grass dying. You wouldn't even gotten hurt! I shouldn't have moved back here. It was selfish of me." I said practically sobbing.

"Hey. I like drama." He said smiling. He wiped my tears off my cheeks. "Plus, you gave me a chance to see my mom."

"What?" I asked.

"I saw her Bells. I swear when I was dying, I saw her. She was beautiful."

I smiled a sad smile towards him. "Im glad Jake." I said. I could tell Jake was loosing consciousness.

"Go to sleep Jake."

He moved a little. I could hear a whimper escape his mouth. "It hurts Bella." He cried.

I stood up and ran my hand through his hair. "Ok Jake, Its ok. Im so sorry. Let me try something." I said. I put a hand over his stomach and tried to heal it. "Better Jake?" I asked.

He was out cold. I wiped a few more of my tears and slowly walked out of the room. I shut the door as quite as possible and slid down the back of it. I sat there, leaning against the door in the hallway, crying.

This was my entire fault. I got Jake hurt. I thought about what Jake said-feeling how much it hurt. For him to admit that it hurt made me feel worse. Jake was always the guy to suck it up and not complain. I took a few deep breaths. He was strong, and the way he was healing was a lot faster than I expected. He will be fine I kept telling myself. I walked downstairs to find the others. It seemed like no one was in the house. The kitchen and living room were empty.

Then, I heard a banging coming from the back of the house, leading to the backyard. I carefully walked back there to find wood and pieces of house everywhere. What the…? I thought.

"Bella!" Sam shouted. He quickly stopped hammering and gave me a hug and a kiss. It seemed like he was shielding his body in a way so I couldn't see what he was doing

"Hey." I said, trying to look at what he was doing to the house.

"Feelin' Better?" He asked.

"Yea, thanks. Sam, what happened?" I asked, leaving his arms and looking at the house that I once called perfect. The house was broke. Literally. There were huge gaps. You could see straight into the house.

"Oh…umm…well…when the fight happened, the guy threw you here…and…umm…" he said not wanting to continue.

"I-I-I did this?" I stuttered in shock. Hatred cursed though my body. The hatred was not for Digit, but for me.

"Bella." He said coming towards me. I shook my head and backed away from him a little. I turned around-my back facing him. I inspected the damages to the house.

"I did this." I said, mostly to myself. I felt like my body went on auto pilot. My eyes filled with tears. I felt as if I was drowning in my own thoughts. I did this to Sam's house. How cruel am I? He lived in this house forever, and had so many memories, and here I come to ruin it all. I practically ruined his whole house. What did I do? I kept thinking. By me coming here, was all a mistake.

Renee was right. I wiped my tears away, but they kept falling. I could see a blurry Sam out of my peripheral vision, just standing back, letting me take it all in for myself.

He and I both knew nothing he could say or do would convince me that this was ok. I need to leave, I shouldn't have come. I should have left a long time ago.

What about Sam? He would be fine. My thoughts were going back and forth. It was so frustrating. I decided that leaving was the best thing to do. I wiped my tears once again and turned towards Sam. I looked at him, making sure to remember every single detail I could before I left. I walked over to him, and kissed him with everything I had. His lips parted with mine, and we both moaned. It was the most amazing thing. He was the most amazing thing. We ended the kiss and looked at each other.

"I should go." I said, walking past him towards the door.

"Bella?" he asked.

"Yea?" I said turning around and biting my bottom lip.

"Are you sure you're ok?"

"Yea…yea. Im fine." I said. I was about to shut the door behind me when I turned back to Sam.

"Hey Sam?"

"Yea?" he asked not moving from where he stood just a few minutes ago,

"I love you." I said.

"Love you too Bells." I heard him with question in his voice, before I shut the door and headed for my bike. I was going to leave tonight. More like in about 20 minutes, before anyone would figure out I was leaving. As I thought about my plan, I walked right into the rest of the pack, who had wood and other supplies to fix up the house. My eyes started to water a little, just thinking about what I did to the house.

"Hey Bells! Feelin' Better?" Seth asked with wooden panels over his shoulder. I looked at the wood, and tried to focus on Seth.

"Yea, thanks Seth." I said quietly before getting the keys out to my bike.

"Hey Bells!" Paul and Quil yelled from their pickup truck.

I waved to them and gave them a small smile that anyone could tell was fake.

"What's the rush?" Embry asked.

I came to a halt and my heart rate increased. The pack must have heard it dramatically increase because they all looked at each other, then all eyes came on me.

"Nothing, umm…I got to go home…and…see Charlie!" I said a little too enthusiastic. I was wishing…more like praying that they didn't know he was out of town on a business trip for a week

"So…yea. Bye, Love you guys!" I said before rushing towards my bike.

Shit. I thought. I didn't have much time before they would put together the pieces.

Sam knew that Charlie was on a business trip for another week and saying I love you to Sam and the guys meant something big. Sam and I usually don't say we love each other unless something is going on. We don't say it because we know it. We feel it between each other. Words are just words. Showing it has a different meaning. We don't need a reminder…usually.

I felt dirty, running away like this, but I thought this would be for the best. There would be less danger with me around. I hopped up on storm and took off for home. Once I got to Charlie's house, I ran upstairs.

I went straight to my room and pulled out a duffle bag. I threw all the clothes I could possibly fit into the first duffle bag, and then took another one out of my closet and filled it with some more clothes, toiletries, some food, and accessories like my cell phone charger, etc. I was teleporting all around the house.

Right before I teleported back upstairs to stick the food in my bag, I took the picture of Jake and I when we were young off the mantle and into my pocket. When I was back into my room, I put the stuff in my bag and printed off some pictures of everyone from my computer as I was finishing up.

I stuffed them into my back pocket and then grabbed the wad of cash I stored for emergencies into my front pocket. I took all of m bags and teleported into the kitchen. I conjured some paper and a pen and sat at the table to write a note to everyone. I wrote one to Sam and Jake. Then I wrote one to the pack and Charlie. I could hear rustling in the woods. The pack was almost here. I put up my shield and finished my notes to everyone.

Dear Sam,

You have no idea how hard this is for me. I need to leave. Please don't look for me, because it's just going to hurt even more. I don't want to run away from you guys, but it feels like the right thing to do right now. I am so sorry for the damage I did to your house. I put you and your pack into so much danger, and I got Jake hurt. I don't know how you can forgive me, or love me. You're a great pack leader. I know how you doubt yourself, wondering if Jake is better fit for the job, but I believe in you. I trust you, just like you did me. Your trust in me was something I was so lucky to have. You believed in me when I least believed in myself. What we had was…unspeakable. I can't put into words how much I love you and care for you. I love you so much, that it hurts. I wanted a future with you, so bad, but I need to accept my destiny, and by accepting it, I can't stay here and let you get hurt. I know the whole tale about imprinting, but I can't come back Sam. You will recover, you will learn to ignore the pull of me, and find love again. I will NEVER forget you. You are the biggest, most best thing of my life. I love you forever and always.

All of my love,

Bella Swan

Xoxo

As I wrote the letters, tears cascaded down my cheeks and onto the paper. You could see the tear stained words.

I took a new sheet of paper and began Jakes.

Dear Jake,

Im so sorry about getting you hurt. I shouldn't have stayed the last time, but I was so selfish. Please forgive me? Im going away for a while. I know it feels like I just got back and everything was ok, but staying here…I can't. I don't belong here anymore. I need to face what I am, and im not letting you get hurt again. I love you so much. You are such a great friend, and I will miss you so much. Believe in yourself and take care of Leah for me. Don't try to be a hero and look for me or try and recover faster than your body will let you. Be strong and believe in yourself, just like you believed in me. Don't be sad Jake, I don't want that. Live your life just like before I came here. Oh, and fix up that bike and car already! Lazy ass. =) Love you Jakey.

Miss you already,

Bella

Xoxoxo

Dear Pack,

I am truly sorry for leaving like this. When I woke up this morning, I realized how much danger me being here put you in. You all made me feel so welcome and accepted which is why this is so hard for me. You were my bestest friends, and the people I knew always had my back. You loved me like your own and treated me like I was the most important person in your life. You work as a team, so stick together.

Don't give up on each other. Take care of Sam for me.

Jared, you are a great guy, Kim is lucky to have you. I am so glad I met you both.

Seth, keep fighting, you are a wonderful person. Embry, thank you for everything you have done for me. And please take care of Catie. She is a great girl. Just remember, if anything happens to her I will kick your ass.

Paul, Work on your jokes. They suck. And watch over everyone for me. I know how this is tearing you all apart, but you all need to stick together. I love you and thanks for being such a great friend and brother.

Quil, stay cool man. You are just one of the guys I have fallen in love with since I was little. Don't ever change. I love you bro.

Leah, I love you sis! Im sorry for everything that happened. You are amazing. Make sure Jake gets back on track.

Collin and Brady, stay funny guys. Your sense of humor makes the pack. Maybe you should teach Paul a thing or two?

Emily, you are the best. All of your parties were the most amazing thing. My birthday was so special thanks to you. Please, take care of Sam. Love you All.

Bella Swan

Xoxo

Dear Charlie,

Thank you for opening up your house to me. I know I haven't been the best daughter, but you have been the greatest dad to me. I have to leave. Some things have come up. Remember that I will always love you, and to be strong. Don't look for me, please. Hope to talk to you soon, I love you.

Bella

Xoxo

I put the letters in envelopes and wrote their names on the front. I then grabbed my stuff and headed for my motorcycle. I strapped the bags to the back of my bike. I could hear the guys get closer. I started up my bike and backed out of the driveway not daring to look back.

Goodbye Forks and Hello….somewhere.