Jasper led me into the house, holding my hand and giving me a small smile of reassurance.

The house seemed quite- too quite. My heart was pounding in my ears and my breath was becoming labored.

He was guiding me into the family room, when I stopped.

"I can't do this Jasper." I panted.

"Bella, it's just the guys." He calmed me.

I shook my head as I felt the nerves get the best of me.

"No no no. I can't. I just need to breath. I just need some time alone. I'm so sorry Jasper. I just can't." I pleaded. He looked at me with those sympathetic eyes and I pulled my hand away.

I quickly ran up the stairs, not looking back. I ran into Sam's room and slammed the door shut.

I pressed my forehead up against the wood and panted.

Why was I so afraid? Oh heavens…

"Bella?" a voice asked.

I gasped and turned around.

There was Sam standing by his dresser shocked. He was dressed in a tight black tee shirt and baggy grey sweatpants.

"Sam." I breathed, my heart speeding up with nerves.

"Are you ok?" he asked stepping towards me concerned.

I shook my head, brushing away my fears.

"Yea, I'm good. I'm sorry, I didn't know you were in here." I apologized getting flustered.

"Its fine, I just finished putting away some clothes." He said turning back a little to show me.

I nodded and went silent.

The silence was there…it just floated in the air.

"So…. I better go." I said turning back to the door after what seemed like minutes. I turned the doorknob and opened the door but large hands stopped me from walking out.

"Bella, wait." He grabbed me and flipped me around so my back was up against the door, which was hit closed.

"We need to talk about this. You can't run away forever." He stated; cupping my face in his large warm hands.

"Sam." I said, fear evident in my voice. I looked away, not meeting his stares, no matter how hard he tried.

He sighed but held my face firmer.

Finally, I looked up at him. I gazed into those beautiful brown pools of love.

Within seconds my mouth was on his and I couldn't help but put all of my love into the kiss.

It was firm, hard and full of passion. It felt so raw and emotional- something Sam and I both felt.

His lips dominated mine as he pushed his rock hard body up against mine. My back slid against the wooden door as Sam moved his hands from my face to my legs, sweeping me up off my feet to wrap around his waist.

We broke the kiss just for a second to take in a breath. I ran my hands through his hair as he put his forehead to mine. His hands moved to my hips, holding me in place.

After a few minutes, I opened my eyes and looked at him.

His lips were pink and swollen while his breathing was hard and labored. His eyes were closed peacefully.

I brought my hands down from his hair and rubbed my thumbs across his temple.

His eyes fluttered open and met mine.

The grip Sam had on my hips lessened and I brought my feet back down to the floor. We kept each other in an eye lock, neither one of us daring to look away.

"I need to know…I need to make sure that you are ok. I-…"

"I'm fine." I cut in.

He shook his head and put some space between us.

"No, you are not getting away from this that easily." He told me in stern voice.

I sighed and leaned against the door.

"What do you want from me Sam?"

I tried sounding angry and fed up, but it came out as a pathetic whine.

"Look at me. Bella I want you to look at me." He commanded, leaning his body closer to mine.

I shook my head and the tears escaped my eyes.

"No." I sobbed.

"Bella." He said brokenly.

I shook my head again, breaking down in front of him.

"Why?" he asked so quietly I wasn't sure if I was hearing him correctly.

I sniffled and tried to calm myself down. "I-it h-hur-rts." I hiccupped.

"Oh Bella." He whispered, wrapping me into a tight hug.

I wrapped my arms under his arms and cupped his shoulders for dear life. I rested my head against his chest and cried my eyes out. He whispered comforting words to me and kissed the top of my head.

I remember Sam picking me up and sitting the both of us on the bed, with me in his lap.

What seemed like after hours, I finally calmed down and looked at Sam.

We stared at each other with wonder, compassion, and curiosity. It was a moment where time seemed to stop and everything faded away.

I brought my fingers up to his face, and traced his jaw line, lips, cheekbones, and eyes. Everything about him was so perfect.

"Bella, you need to know. I will never leave you." He said to me in such a strong determined voice.

I closed my eyes, telling my self to suck it up and don't let the tears fall.

"Can we just forget about what I said earlier? Cant we just push it off like before?" I asked.

He sighed. "No we can't, because this is eating you up inside. It's eating up all of us. We love you Bella. And all we are asking is for you to trust us."

"No, it's so much more than that." I countered.

"You're asking me to stay with you. You're asking me to love you with all my heart and expect everything to run its course. You're asking me to act human and let you all worry about the bad guys. But I'm not that person, and I can't do that." I explained.

"Whether you see it or not, you're asking me for more than just trust." I saw the hurt in his eyes and guilt swam through my heart.

"I love you with all my heart. I love all of you, but I can't just stand by and act like everything will turn out ok just because I have family and friends.

I know I have you guys and I appreciate that. It's just that…sometimes it's like you all forget what I am capable of. And you all act like you can just defeat James like he is some stupid ass vampire. But there's the catch. He is far from that. He's smart, and gifted, and is experienced." I sighed, knowing he was not going to like what I would have to say.

"And I know you all are hurt that I don't tell you things, but I cant. Because it's me that has to deal with the consequences."

He was about to argue with me but I stopped him.

"I know family is supposed to be there to help each other, but it's more than family. It's my destiny. This is what my life…and maybe my whole future is supposed to be like."

We sat in silence for a minute before he squeezed my hand to look up at him.

"I don't care if this is your destiny or how your future is supposed to be. You and always going to be the woman I love and part of the pack. Nothing can or will ever change that. So I'm asking you to trust us. I'm asking you to trust us, and to love us, and to let us be in your future; have a part of your destiny."

I was about to cut in, but he put a finger to my mouth.

"And in exchange, I promise to try and treat you like you were meant to be. And I will tell the guys too. I guess I just think of how fragile you can be and it scares me."

He hugged me tight to his body.

"Well, at least we have that mutual feeling about each other." I pointed out.

He laughed a bit and I felt a small weight lift off my chest. Everything was going to be ok.

I let my mind wander, and think about everything.

"I'm afraid that one day I will screw up so bad and I won't have you guys to help me pick up the pieces." I asked out loud.

I clamped a hand over my mouth, cussing at myself for saying that aloud.

He looked down at me shocked.

"Bella, that day will never happen. Sure you seem to mess up quite often, but you always seem to have such a reasonable and convincing reason, that it's hard to be mad. You make us realize how important we are to you; and how important you are to us. You make us see the world through different eyes." He said after a second of recovery.

"But…"

"No. there is no but's. It doesn't matter what you screw up on, we will always be there. No matter what. I promise." He stated.

I shook my head. "Don't make a promise you don't know if you can keep."

"I didn't. I know I can keep this promise Bella. Trust me." He said softly.

I took a breath and looked at him again. I nodded. "Alright."

We stayed there for a few more minutes before I began yawning.

Sam moved us so I was laying on the bed with him curled up behind me. I didn't bother going under the sheets since my personal space heater was right there.

"I love you." I whispered.

"I love you more." He whispered back, kissing me softly.

I was too tired to argue, so I just snuggled into him further and fell asleep.

When I woke up, it was dark. I groaned and turned thinking I was going to snuggle into Sam's body, but nothing was there. My brows furrowed and I slowly opened my eyes. Sam was no where to be found.

The door to his bedroom seemed to be shut, along with the curtains. I started to get up when I realized I was snuggled in a bunch of covers and blankets. I brushed some hair out of my face and climbed out of bed.

I walked over to the mirror and took a look at myself. I looked like a wreck. My hair was everywhere and my eyes were still puffy from crying.

I shook away my thoughts and went in his drawers for a pair of his boxers and white tee shirt.

When I was done dressing, I took a brush I kept in his room and ran it through my hair. Once my hair was smooth and clear of tangles, I set the brush back in its place and opened the door to head downstairs.

I walked slowly and quietly, just incase anyone was sleeping. I walked into the kitchen, but found it empty. So I headed into the living room.

Everyone seemed to be in there, including the vamps, who were still wide awake.

No one seemed to notice me, they were all in their own little world. By the looks of it, worry etched their face. I felt a little sad. Poor Jasper who has to deal with all the emotion. I scanned the room for him and found him in a corner with Alice on his lap; his head was against her back.

I quickly put a shield around him to stop his pain.

He must have felt the huge relief because he quickly looked up and scanned the room.

He took in a sharp breath and everyone went on alert. Everyone scanned the room and each other, making sure they were all ok. Then, they saw me.

Quil was the first one to get out of his seat.

"Bella…" he said sadly.

I put a hand up to stop him. "Don't apologize. You didn't do anything wrong. It should be me who should be apologizing. I snapped and I shouldn't have."

I looked at all the pack and I saw their faces lighten up a little bit. My eyes finally casted upon Sam and I saw him in a recliner chair smirking at me a little.

"I want to start trying to trust you more." I blurted out.

The whole pack looked shocked.

I blushed a little, looking down at my hands in embarrassment. "I know I havent been doing a good job keeping you in the loop and I have been hiding things, but I want to-…no. I Need to try trusting you all better."

"So starting today, I am going to try and turn over a new leaf."

Everyone looked puzzled at the expression and I rolled my eyes. "I mean, I want a fresh start to try this whole trusting thing."

There were 'ooo's and 'got it's. I smiled a little, feeling happy that it would be this easy.

I pushed myself of the side of the doorway and walked over to sit on Sam's lap.

"Hi." I murmured.

He flashed me a bright smile. "Hi."

"So how long was I out?" I asked everyone.

"About 6 hours." Leah said.

I flashed her a small smile which she returned. Leah and I talked to each other for a little while everyone else has conversations among themselves.

"Thanks." Jasper cut in.

"Huh?" I asked confused. The chatter between everyone seemed to stop and all eyes were on us.

"For doing that shield thing while everyone was worried."

I nodded and laughed a little. "Its not a problem. I thought it would kinda be hard to deal with. Truthfully I couldn't imagine having to deal with that all day everyday."

He nodded. "Yea, its hard. But sometimes its worth it."

I looked at him puzzled.

"Of course I feel the emotions that are unpleasant. Fear, hurt, worry, anxiety. But I also get to feel the emotions that are so….wonderful." he tried to describe.

"I get to feel the happiness of others, the love, joy, the nervous butterflies that make you smile, and the comfort."

I was shocked. I didn't even think about putting it that way.

"oh, I didn't even think of it that way."

He smiled understandingly. "Its ok. Most people don't. But even so, I'm glad you helped me with the worry thing. Sometimes it just gets really hard to bare." He thanked me again.

"Anytime." I repeated, and we all went back to our random conversations.

Kim and I started talking, she was still telling me about that sweet cake program I showed her for school.

School. SHIT!

"Shit. What is today?" I said jumping up off of Sam's lap.

I looked at everyone and they all looked at their watches and tried to think.

"Sunday." Edward said confused. "Well…its more like Monday now, but it was Sunday."

I looked at him confused, when I saw the sun was starting to come up a little.

"Shit." I said and went to go grab my stuff.

"Bella?" Sam asked following me.

"Its Monday. I have class in the morning. I cant be late either." I yelled from his room.

"But you could just teleport there before it starts." He told me as I practically ran past him down the stairs.

"Yea. In this?" I asked, pointing to my attire.

He gave me a cocky smirk and everyone seemed to choke a laugh.

"I have to stop by my house to pick up storm and then go back up to my apartment up there and change and put my project all together." I told them as I put on my shoes.

"Alright. Well be safe." He told me and gave me a quick kiss.

"Will do. Bye everyone. Thanks for everything. Sorry I have to leave. I promise to be back as soon as possible." I told them, giving them all quick hugs and then stepping back to disappear.

When I teleported back into my room, I grabbed my overnight bag and quickly ran downstairs to grab my bike. I didn't have to worry about Charlie being home, Leah informed me our parents are getting closer than I thought. Apparently they are spending many nights together. Mostly Charlie at their place, so I figured he wouldn't be home. I quickly wrote a note to him, saying I had to go to back up to school but I loved him. After I set the pen back on the table, and scanned my eyes over the note one more time I ran outside, looking around to make sure no one was out.

When I thought the coast was clear, I put the bag over my shoulder and teleported me and my bike back to college.

I settled my bike back in its spot and then headed into my place to take a shower and change.

I took my time in the shower. I loved how warm and steamy it got. It felt so good. The warm water droplets hitting your skin as you closed your eyes.

When I opened my eyes again, I decided that I needed to hurry it up a bit. I quickly shampooed my hair and washed my body. I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a big poof comfy towel around my body. I walked back into my room to get dressed, sticking my hair up in a messy bun with a chopstick so I didn't have to deal with it at the moment.

I dressed in jeans and a short sleeve shirt.

I headed back to the bathroom, taking out the chopstick and drying my hair with a towel.

When it was close enough to dry and headed to the kitchen to collect my homework and eat something.

I noticed the clock on the microwave reading 5:45.

Shit. I had to be in class at 6.

I used my powers to gather all my things while I grabbed a pop tart. When everything was in its place I grabbed my bag and ran out the door to my bike.

The bike started up with its loud purring. I kicked up the kickstand, revved the engine a little more and was off to class.

I had to ride my bike to class because since I picked my apartment off campus, and I could exactly just teleport in town, I had to use the bike.

It took me about 10 minutes to get to my class. First one, cooking. I started and ended my day with those classes.

After two hours passed by, I finally got to go to my martial arts class.

Before I knew it, I was back by the cooking block of the school and finishing my last class of the day.

I was exhausted. Today had been super busy and I had a huge load of work to do.

As I walked back to my bike, I pulled out my phone and texted Sam telling him I didn't know if I would make it tonight.

He said alright, but I better come tomorrow.

I agreed, sticking my phone back in my pocket and went home.

By the time I walked in the door, I was practically dragging my feet in exhaustion.

I plopped onto the couch, setting my bag down somewhere and fell asleep.

When I woke up again, it was around 8. I had been asleep for about 7 hours.

I groaned and rubbed a hand over my face. I needed to get started on this homework. Oh and Leah and Seth's party. Shit.

I quickly did all my work; it was easier than I thought. After that, I finished putting all the pictures in the frames and began to hang them all around. I loved them. I put a lot of them in my room, some of them in the guest room and the rest around the house.

After I was done, I checked the time and saw it was 11. I sighed. I needed to go to bed, but I had to finish this surprise thing.

I called Sam and found he picked up on one of the last rings.

"Hello?" he answered in sort of a gruff voice.

"Sam, are you ok?" I asked. A thought suddenly occurred to me.

"Oh, did I wake you?" I asked sympathetically. Damn. I didn't even think about that.

"What? No baby. I'm out on patrol." He said.

"Oh oops." I said. "Alright, well you get back to being a dog and I will just talk to you in the morning, or leave you a voicemail or something. Oh! You know what, I will just call you at lunch then." I said thinking.

"Bella, Bella! Baby its fine. What did you need? Are you ok?" he asked this time.

I laughed at how we always assumed each other was in trouble.

"You know its sad that we always ask if each other are in trouble each time we call right?" I pointed out to him.

He laughed a little. "Yea, but maybe we just love each other so much we worry." He countered.

"Well I hope you aren't worrying too much. You know those worry lines could permanently eth on your face, and I don't know if you would look as good with them."

"As good? I'm just good?" he asked jokingly.

"Maybe." I teased.

"See, it's a very complicated question and has a very detailed answered that might take a while to explain, which requires a lot of time, which I seem to have and didn't call for." I elaborated.

My ears filled with Sam's laughter, and I smiled; I don't think I heard that in a while.

"Detailed huh?" he asked.

"yup." I exclaimed and moved on to why I called.

"Leah and Seth aren't with you are they?" I asked.

"No, it's just Jake and Paul." He said getting why I asked.

"Ok good. Well I was going to ask what we are going to end up doing, but I'm thinking you might have a plan." I asked hopeful.

He chuckled a little. "Maybe. I mean it's a very detailed and complicated answer, which requires a lot of time, which I don't know if I have." He mocked.

I laughed. Gosh he could be a dork and a pain in the butt sometimes.

"Oh Sammy. You know you should tell me right?" I started the playful banter

"And why is that?" he responded.

"Cause I'm amazing and I don't think you could go very long with out kissing me."

"Oh, I could go longer than you think." He laughed, thinking I was truly joking.

"Alright Mr. Tough guy. Lets see how long then." I laughed thinking about how he would look after a day or two.

He growled and got down to business. "I was thinking the pack meets at my place everyday after school, so you could just come a little earlier, then and pick us up and you and I will be there waiting at the house for those two. Then teleport us back and the guys will be waiting to shout surprise." He said with a huff.

I laughed; apparently he didn't want to play the no kissing game.

"Ok, we can do that. I will come maybe like 20 minutes early. Sound good?"

"Yeah, sounds perfect."

"Goodnight Sam. I love you."

"Love you too Baby, sweet dreams." He said softly, and then we hung up.

I changed into my P.J's and then was off to bed.

Then next morning, I made sure to write myself a note saying I needed to pick up some party things during lunch and then was off to class.