Chapter 46

"I am the boss, darling, I'll be fine. And to that last, the answer is, just you!" his eyes locked with hers, trying to tell her all the feelings he had not been able to share for so many years. 'Was this the time to bring up what AJ had told him?' he wondered.

Blushing she smiled up at him, "You have me, Tom. You always have, and soon I'll be your wife."

"I love you so very much, Krystal. May I ask you a very personal question?"

"Tom, we're going to be married, I don't know how much more personal that can get," she laughed. "Ask your question."

"AJ said you blurted out something in the heat of the moment today when he accused you of aborting his baby. Darling, are you a virgin?" Tom asked gently holding her close.

"Yes," she whispered.

"Why didn't you tell me? I would never have acted the way I did when I took you to the house that night!"

"Tom, I'm thirty-two years old and I know nothing about making love. One more thing I can't do for you, I couldn't tell you. What if you didn't want me?" she cried hugging him for all she was worth. "I'm sorry I kept it a secret, but I thought if I waited until after we were married it would be too late for you to change your mind."

"Krystal, I have loved you for ten years, NOTHING could change that. I am honored that you have kept that part of yourself for our marriage bed. You have nothing to be ashamed of, and I will love teaching you about making love. You already have the first part down, you are a loving and giving person!"

"You're not mad at me for not telling you?" she asked looking up at him. "You're not ashamed you'll have to teach your wife to make love along with everything else? Tom, I really do love you."

"Mad at you? Why would I be? Krystal, I'm honored that you will be my virgin bride! We'll learn what pleases you together, okay?"

"I want to please you, Tom. I want to make you happy," she pressed herself next to him. "Since you know the truth there's no reason to wait any longer. Lets make love now, show me all the things that give you pleasure."

"No, Krystal, you have kept yourself this long, we can wait until we are married. You should have the honor of wearing white as you walk down the aisle to me!" he held her close but tried to keep her from pressing into his erection so she wouldn't know how hard...how very hard it was to turn down her offer.

"You want to wait? Why, my darling? It's no secret now and I can still wear white. Only the two of us know I'm a virgin and only the two of us will know that you took my maidenhead." Wrapping her arms around him she felt his erection. The thought of that being inside her scared her, and now she didn't know what to do or say.

"Darling more than the two of us know! You announced it to the entire staff at JAG remember? We can wait a few more days, what are a few hundred cold showers between now and then?" he smiled at her, seeing the look of fear in her eyes and wondering if she still thought he was upset with her for not telling him.

"Oh, no, what will my co-workers think of me? They'll think I'm a freak, that's what!" she put her face in her hands and began to cry. "Tom, I'm scared. What if we don't fit? You're so big and I don't think it will fit inside me."

"Krystal, I'm not that big, just average, believe me I've showered with enough men in my time to know that. And we will fit, I will make sure you are very ready before we even try, my darling!" he pulled her hands from her face and kissed the tears from her cheeks.

"If you say it's true then I believe you, Tom Boone, because I know you wouldn't lie to me," she smiled reaching up to nip his chin. "I love you so much I couldn't bear to lose you, my love."

To be continued…