NA. Hi ok I don't know that this is going to translate but I tried to make larger spaces so it will be easier for you guys to read! My computer is very weird so when I post it it looks all weird and crowded together. I know this sounds kind of narcissistic, but I really love this chapter! It's one of my favorites. I hope you enjoy reading it just as much as I enjoyed writing it!
Fever
Guess what! I got sick! This is great I have the flu! Oh, and believe me it sucks, I have a fever of 105 degrees, my head feels like it's spinning. Whenever I move it feel like knives are cutting into me, and I have a cough, so lets just say it doesn't look pretty! I've been sick for two weeks now and I'm starting to feel worse and worse, we haven't been able to bring my fever down at all and now I keep hallucinating that people have red eyes! Can this get any worse? Oh, let me answer that... YES IT CAN! It just so happens that Luke took it upon himself to bring me my assignments from all of my classes, and to take care of me after school!
My parents didn't mind and Charlotte couldn't refuse Luke's pleading, so now I have my own nurse. So whenever I groan he's there asking if he can help, whenever I cough he's there with water, whenever I do anything he's right there! Sure it's nice to have his company but like I said I'm not my prettiest right now, so I feel like crap, I look like crap and instead of having the luxury of having the guy I like stay at school and not see me like this, he's my FREAKING NURSE! I know it's sweet and admirable of him to care for me and I can't say that I don't like him being here, but how am I supposed to stop liking him if he keeps being so dang wonderful!
He came into my room wearing worn out jeans and a gray T shirt, on anyone else they would have looked frumpy but on him he looked like a super model, he sat by my bed as he always did and asked, "Hey beautiful! How are you feeling?" I lifted my head to look at him and said with a groan, "Like death warmed up!" He smiled weakly and asked, "Is there anything you need?" "No not really, just the usual suffering, headache, fever, coughing, body pain, you know the usual." Luke looked at me his expression pained, he then moved closer to me, his cool hand brushing against my hot cheek, his touch felt so good, he then asked, "Are you sure that there's nothing I can do?"I thought about it for a moment and said, "There may be something you can do... but it's crossing the line of friendship and dating, I'm not so sure if it would be ok or not."He looked at me anxiously and said, "Tell me, whatever I can do to help! I really don't care as long as it helps!"I looked down and blushed as I said, "Well I was thinking that since you have weird cold skin and how I have a fever of 105 degree's that maybe you could... cool me down.""What do you mean cool you down? How?" He asked eagerly "Well um... this is the awkward part; I was wondering if you would, maybe lye next to me and... wrap your arms around me...That way I could cool down faster. We'll both be fully clothed and I think it would put out my fever...Oh if it's going too far then forget about it, it was just an idea I had!"He thought about it for about half a second and before I knew it he was lying next to me, he pulled me into a tight embrace, once I felt his cool skin on mine, I could instantly feel it helping, it felt so good. I decided to curl up against him in order to touch more of him, he didn't shy away from my action... in fact he welcomed it, he drew me closer to him and whispered into my ear, "I'm sorry that I didn't think of this sooner." At this I buried my face into his cool chest and allowed myself to embrace the cooling sensation and began to heal.
Before I knew it I fell asleep, and for the first time since we moved to Forks I dreamed! I was walking along a cobble stone path, It was dark outside so the street lights were lit, as I continued to walk I heard a sound coming from a dark alley I turned to see what it was, as I walked towards it the sound it became louder and louder until the sound became a clear scream, it was a little girl. I ran towards the scream to see a tall man with jet black hair and bright red eyes, he was hovering over the little girl menacingly, once he heard my approach he turned towards me his lips covered in blood, it was then that I heard a voice coming from behind...it was my great grandfather. He grabbed my hand and said, "Lily come, there's nothing we can do now.
"I turned to look at him and asked, "To late for what?"
"To save that poor girl from that blood sucking scum..." I stared at him my grandfather now turned from being a short, wrinkled, gray haired man to being a tall, muscular, red haired young man, he then began to tug me away from the dying little girl and the monster that was killing her. We then proceeded to walk down the alley until we were cut off by a tall beautiful man with chalky white skin and murky red eyes, he looked kind, but also dangerous, he smiled at me with brilliant white fangs and said, "Lily, my dear it's been so long!" He then proceeded to come closer to me he reached out took my hand and pressed it to his lips, an action that left me nauseated. It was then when my grandfather stood in front of me and said, "Hello Aro kill any young girls lately?"Aro laughed and said, "Not yet." He then smiled at me and lunged for my throat. I screamed and then woke up. Luke's cool arms were still around me when I woke up, they were like iron restraints holding me to him, he was stroking my hair and saying, "Lily your all right, it was just a dream your ok, it was just a dream." I looked up at him scared, my dream seemed so real and those red eyes! Red eyes...Oh dear God! Red eyes equal vampire, vampire equals the Cullen's friends, Cullen's friends equal slightly less dangerous than the Cullen's! I moved away from Luke instantly he let me go as I moved away from him. I got off the bed and moved all the way to my desk before my legs gave way. Luke caught me before I hit the ground he then pulled my into another embrace and asked, "What's wrong? Did I do something?"I stared at him, touched his face and asked, "How many people have you killed?"His face became solemn his eyes looked grave, I knew I wasn't going to get an answer so I continued, "Edward told me something about red eyes...and in my dream... Red eyes meant Vampires and vampires mean killing people and killing people is... not ok!" At this point I started hipper ventilating I couldn't breath...Vampires exist! Luke held me in his arms tighter than before, as if he was trying to keep me, keep me from running, crying, screaming! His eyes only showed pain.
I finally began to breath easily again and then I buried my face into his chest once again and asked, "Why haven't you killed me yet?" He then picked me up and set me down on the edge of my bed and said, "Lily..My family is different... we don't kill people! We only kill animals that are why our eyes aren't red.""But there's a...a... chance that you could kill me.." I stuttered in a disconnected voice."Yes there is a chance.. a great chance...but ... the more I am around you the easier it gets." "Was it hard for you in the beginning? You know when you first met me?""Yes, it was extremely hard for me to just be in the same room with you.""Well you didn't show it!" He even spoke to me on the first day how could he do that if he was in so much pain? "Why go through all of the pain then? If it was hurting you so much? why didn't you just kill me? Or leave me alone?""Lily, I value human life ...and I value yours above all others! I couldn't bring myself to leave you, I don't know why but I guess I feel drawn to you somehow.""Why? Why do you value my life so much? It's not like I'm anything special." letting a sniffle escape my chest, I can't believe it Luke's a vampire!"Lily to me your life is far dearer to me than anything else!""Why!" I demanded."Because, I love you!"My eyes grew wide, I couldn't do anything, my breathing became shallow as I said, "Can you leave? I need a moment." Luke's face fell and he nodded, I then added, "Don't leave the house...please... just stay out in the hall ok?"Luke nodded again then left closing the door behind him. I knew that I loved him, I loved every little thing about him, his laugh, the way he smiled, his personality, but him loving me was just impossible but here he was saying it out loud to me! Oh and the fact that the man I love is a vampire is a little bit of a shock...a vampire...I can't believe it...but then again that would explain so much! The strength, cold skin, super speed, the changing eye colors. It was all inhuman and strange. How can I turn away from the man I love? Just because he's a vampire doesn't mean that he's evil… right? It's like stereo typing a person just because of the way they dress. I know Luke and I know that he would never hurt me. I know Luke and he is a good person. Then there's his family, Esme, Carlisle, Alice, Edward, Bella, Jasper, Emmett and all of the other members of the Cullen clan that I am yet to meet. All of them are so kind and they truly became my friends, and my family's friends. Emmett, Jasper, and Edward are like the brother's I've never had. Even though I don't know Bella and Alice that well they seem nice. Oh and Carlisle, is so kind and compassionate, and Esme is the sweetest person I have ever met. How could all of these wonderful people be vampires?
That's it! Just because they're vampires doesn't mean that they're bad! It's just a burden that they have to live with, they're still the same. Luke is still the same, he is still the kind, funny, noble man that I'm in love with! I finally went to the door to let Luke in. Luke was looking at me anxiously his hands shaking as he stood there waiting for my answer I drew in a huge breath and began, "Luke Cullen, I love you and I don't care what you are... OK!"
"What did you say?" Asked Luke with a confused tone washing his voice.
"I said, I Love You!" He came towards with his head cocked and his eyes wary, "But how... how could you love a monster like me? I'm a vampire...I've killed people! Innocent people in my past... I've done awful things! You don't deserve to be with something like me. You deserve to be with something better...human." I sighed took a hold of his hands and stared straight into his face, "Luke, all I know about you is that you make me laugh, you make me happy, you are the first person I think about in the morning and the last that I think about at night, your music is beautiful, your character and morals are prominent , you've saved my life, you're a great kisser, and you are the most loving and kind PERSON that I've ever met! I couldn't imagine another person better. Do you see a pattern here? This why I love you! Not for what you are but for who you are!" Luke stared at me with astonishment, his confused frown suddenly turned into my favorite excited smile.
He then drew me into a loving embrace and whispered in my ear, "Lily you have no idea how much this means to me!"I smiled pulled away and said, "Oh I know...Now shut up and kiss me!" He needed no more invitation he had his lips crushing against mine in a way that radiated of joy, I could feel my hands intertwining around his neck his hands where gently wrapped around my torso and pulled me into him as my lips moved along his. I felt so happy and so alive, but still so human. I had to pull away to breath and Luke had no problem with that, I then said, "Sorry, still sick...still need to breath!" Luke smiled at me and said, "I love you so much, you know that right!" I smiled back and said, "I Love you too. Can you lay me back on the bed? I can feel my fever coming back it's making me feel a little woozy." He took me in his arms and then laid me down gently on the bed and then circled his arms around me, the cool feeling came once again. It felt so good, but knowing that he loves me makes it even better.