Louise woke to a cold empty bed, Nick had gone in early to get ready for a meeting with Henry and the board. She rolled over to find a little note on his pillow reading "morning gorgeous, kissed you before I left, see you later, 831 xx" she smiled to herself. 831 simply means I love you, its 8 letters, 3 words and 1 meaning. Nick sometimes said it when they were in the ED as to not attract attention. She laid there and picked up her phone to see if she had any messages but there wasn't any, she knew Nick would be bored so sent him a picture of her breasts with the message "good morning x" which would certainly cheer him up within seconds of pressing send she got a reply "ooh Dr Marshall you naughty girl, I shall be looking forward to seeing all of you later on x" with a little smiley on the end. This made her grin from ear to ear and couldn't wait to see what 'later on' had to offer.
She loved seeing the naughty Nick Jordan, the one that no one knew about, he was so different to the Mr Nick Jordan clinical lead. She pulled herself out of bed, grabbed her toiletry bag and headed for the bathroom to get ready.
Sat their gazing at the object in her hand thinking to herself "it can't be" it was a pregnancy test and it confirmed her thoughts, she was pregnant.
She sat there for what felt like an eternity she couldn't believe it, thoughts rushing round her mind, her and Nick hadn't even been together 5 months yet then she said "oh shit how am I going to tell Nick?". They'd never spoke about children well they'd only been together a short while and that conversation had never popped up and she thought she was too old to be having children and as she'd never got caught before she thought maybe she couldn't have them. She knew Nick had tried for children with Zoe so he did want them or wanted them, "that was a few years ago though so maybe he's changed his mind" she said to herself. After a few more minutes she stood up, put her pregnancy test in her handbag not knowing what exactly to do with it then slowly got ready for work, still in shock.
Louise wandered into work in a daze, Noel said "morning Dr Marshall" and she completely blanked him so he repeated himself. She looked up at him and said "huh" he asked "are you alright?" she replied "yeah thanks just in a world of my own" "anywhere nice" he asked. She didn't answer she just walked off towards the staffroom. Noel gave a look to Big Mac and just shrugged his shoulders and got on with his work not thinking anything else of it. She went around the whole day in a daze, running off every now and then to be sick but not so often that people would notice, thankfully Nick was in the meeting for a few hours then busy with paperwork in his office most of the day so she didn't really see him apart from glances in the corridors.
This couldn't have happened on a better day she didn't want to see him because she didn't know what she would say she needed to get her head around it first. It wasn't unusual for them to go the whole day without seeing one another so no one would of thought anything about it especially Nick she needed that especially because she didn't want him thinking anything was wrong and asking questions before she could tell him.
It wasn't long before end of shift and she knew Nick would be along anytime and she couldn't lie to his face and not tell him what was going on, she was worried what he'd say but the thing was she was happy about this baby she never knew how much she'd actually wanted children until she did the test that morning. She walked up to his office with the test in her scrubs pocket, took in a deep breath and walked in, she stood there a minute while he finished on the phone when finished, he looked up and smiled "Hi Lou haven't seen a lot of you today apart from that lovely picture, are you alright?" he asked. She placed her hand on the test thinking seriously before taking it out and placing it on Nick's desk in front of him and stepping back. "What's this?" he asked reaching forward before realising what it was, holding it in his hands looking at it reading the word 'pregnant' over and over again, he looked up at Louise pointing at the test with a finger and stuttering said "is this" and Louise nodded and didn't say a word. Nick looked back at it to read the word 'pregnant' again just to check, placed it down on the desk and stood up, at this moment Louise didn't have a clue what he was going to do. He walked round to her and hugged her, Louise was shocked, and he leant back and kissed her softly on the lips then gave her a big smile. "Your happy then" she said, he replied "of course, it's something I've always wanted" "good" she replied. "Are you happy?" she smiled and nodded "well that's sorted then" he said with a smile and kissed her again.
A tear trickled down Louise's face as he wiped it away with his thumb he said with so much love in his eyes "what's the matter?" she replied "I'm just so happy", he smiled and chuckled a little then gave her a massive hug and kissed her forehead.
They stood there for a few minutes fingers entwined together and Louise suddenly said "I'm glad I got that over with" frowning Nick asked "why?" "Because I was scared of what you'd say" "never be scared to tell me anything okay" he replied looking into her eyes and placing a hand underneath her chin, kissing her gently again.
A while later Louise was sat on the couch dozing waiting for him to finish so they could go home, he stayed at hers most nights, he practically lived there. Nick noticed her nodding off and just watched her then Louise noticed him staring at her so asked "what you staring at?" he replied "you are beautiful" Louise just shook her head, he knew saying that always got him out of trouble, "come on this paperwork can wait, let's go" he said standing up and taking Louise's hand and heading out for Louise's place.
Once there they had tea, Nick ran her a bubble bath much to her surprise "ooh is this going to a regular occurrence?" he replied "yes, you better get used to it baby" and in she hopped. Once she'd done she went into the living room where Nick had the fire lit and was watching some rubbish on the telly, she laid down on the sofa placing her head on his lap. Stroking her hair while they both watched the telly, Louise looked up at him and he was staring at her belly "Nick, what are you doing?" "I just can't believe there's a baby in there, something I thought I'd never have" placing his hand in her dressing gown and under her pyjama top resting it on her stomach smiling "you soppy sod" Louise replied and smiled. Nick leant in and kissed her as she placed her hand over his. Soon after Louise fell asleep, Nick leant forward kissed her forehead and whispered "I love you".