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Chapter 3: Feelings

There he was standing in the doorway of the Berry's household. He's never step foot in the Berry' house after sending Rachel off to New York without him. Hiram stares at Finn. Finn figured he interrupted something, something serious.

"How are you Finn?" Hiram asked.

"I've been ok." Finn lies. He clears his throat. "Mr. Berry? I know I haven't seen you or the other Mr. Berry in so long but I spotted your daughter in the park." He explains. "She rushed off saying she needed to do some errands. Is she here?" Finn asked. He couldn't find himself catching a breath. He would look around for Rachel but Hiram had the door half closed.

Hiram clears his throat. "So you say." He says. "I don't think my daughter is up to see you right now."

"Can I just have a chance? Please? I really missed your daughter."

Hiram nods. "I guess so..." He sighs. Finn slowly walks inside the Berry's household. He saw a fragile Rachel hugging the pillow onto her chest. She was sobbing and her body was shaking.

"Sweet-pea? Will you be ok?" HIram asked.

Rachel looks up and is shocked to see Finn. Her sobs have become worse. "Oh gosh.." She gasps for air. "Daddy, no!" She let out a loud sob. Hiram bends down on his knees. "You're strong. Remember what I told you." He encourages his daughter, giving her a kiss before leaving her. Hiram heads upstairs to meet his husband and granddaughter.

"Hi." Finn greats Rachel awkwardly. Rachel doesn't look but she tries to calm herself from crying. "I know this is weird but I figured you'd be back at your father's house. I'm sorry, Rachel. I've always loved you, I still love you, and I've always been thinking about you. I regret everything that I did nine-years ago. Finn explains himself. "You don't know how much I missed you. I haven't dated anyone since I set you free." Rachel just stares at him with teary eyes. "Rachel Barbara Berry? I'm glad your home." He tends to smile.

She wasn't sure what to do or what to say. He was apologizing. She stares at him because he looks so good for someone who's been in the army. "Rachel?" He asked. "Give me a chance."

It was silent between them. It was an awkward silent. Rachel walks up to Finn and continues to just stare at him. "We were supposed to get married. We were suppose to go to New York together. I didn't want to go without you but you forced me too."

Finn closes his eyes. He was carefully thinking about the words he would choose to say. "Because I knew you were going to be a star. Because NYADA is your dream. Because you'd be stealing every lead of your favorite Broadway musical. You would forget about us and live the life you've always wanted. I thought you'd never come back."

"It doesn't matter." Rachel says as she crosses her arms. "I'm here and I'm here for good."

"I'm confused..." Finn wasn't following along with the story.

"I'm back for good for a personal reason." Rachel says. "A personal reason which I'm not ready to tell you. You'll know when you'll know."

Rachel turns her back to Finn but he places a hand on her shoulder. "What are you talking about?"

"It's personal, Finn Hudson! I'd like for you to leave my home." Rachel cries.

Finn shook his head. "Do you really deserve to call this your home?" He snaps.

"Don't ever come back here showing up unannounced. You had no right." Rachel says.

"But your father let me in!" Finn yells.

"Don't raise your voice, okay? Just get out of this house. I don't want to see you."

"For another nine years, right?" Finn yells. "I pour my heart out and you're just acting like a selfish person you've always been." With that Finn storms out of the house.

Rachel walks over to the couch and lies down. She starts crying all over again.

She's not ready to tell him. Not yet. Maybe she'll never be ready to tell him.

Kurt and Finn were at the Hudson-Hummel household. Finn was furious that he could almost punch a wall. "She's back? Is she back for good?" Carole asked her son.

"She says she's back for a personal reason! She's not ready to tell me! I told her everything how I felt for these nine years of our lives that we were separated." Finn sat down before he would find himself punching a wall, throwing something valuable, or punching Kurt

"Did you tell her that you backed out in the army?" Burt asked.

"NO!" Finn yells. "I wasn't planning too. I wanted to take this slow."

"Do you want me to talk to her? She feels comfortable around me. We were best friends." Kurt offers.

"Could you?" Finn asked. "Could you also tell her I'm sorry and that I was a complete jerk?"

Kurt nods. "Anything...I'll do anything to get you and Rachel back together. You're meant to be." He smiles at his step-brother. Finn hugs Kurt. He told him that he'd talk to her later this week.

Kurt knew Rachel had enough for the day.

That night Rachel tucks her daughter in bed. It was their first night they'd be sleeping in the home of Lima, Ohio.

She sang her daughter musicals from Funny Girl. "I love you, Ashley. IT's always been the two of us. I just want you to know that." She says, kissing her daughter.

"I know." Ashley smiles. "You aren't just my mommy. You're my best friend."

"Oh, baby!" Rachel hugs her daughter. "I will always be there for you no matter what."

"I know, mommy. I will always be there for you too." Ashley cuddles with her mother. "I tell my friends about you. You have the best voice in the world."

"That's so sweet of you."

"You are my favorite singer. My friends back in New York say that they're mommies can't sing." Ashley giggles. "Remember when you sang for my school? Everyone wanted your autographs."

Rachel laughs. "Even your teachers. I remember that."

"I'm going to miss New York." Ashley says. "I'm just sad because I don't have any friends since it's summer."

"You will make friends, I promise." Rachel kisses her daughter.

"But I always get so shy." Ashley said looking down.

"Don't worry baby. I'll make sure Lima will be great for you."

Ashley smiles. "Mommy? Promise me you won't cry again."

She looks at her daughter. Her daughter was serious. She was only nine but she's intelligent. "It makes me sad when you cry."

She plays those words over and over again in her head. "I'll try not to cry." She says without promising.

I have to say strong for my precious baby girl. I can't let her see me cry anymore. My daddies say it's time to let Finn Hudson know the truth but I just can't. Not now, not yet..I don't know when I'll be ready.

Is Finn right? Am I being selfish? Was I always a selfish person?

It's time. It's now or never.

As always,

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