Chapter 7
BPOV
I intertwined and untwined my fingers nervously, while I rode to the Cullen's house with Edward driving and Sophie in her car seat in the back of Edward's car. I wasn't surprised at all when I saw his silver Volvo. He's wanted a Volvo since he was 15.
I had pointed it out to him while he put Sophie's car seat in the back, and he just gave me a crooked smile that I love.
Edward put his hand on my intertwined fingers.
"Bella, calm down. They'll love you," he said, glancing at me.
Just his touch and his voice calmed me enough. But my heart was still beating a mile a minute.
"And calm your heart. I can't think straight," he chuckled.
"How can you hear my heart?" I asked. Edward then game me a look.
"Vampire, remember?" he asked, turning back to the rode.
"Oh. Right. Sorry, motherhood just stresses a person out a lot and you tend to forget things easily. That and just being with you feels like the old days," I said. Edward squeezed my hand.
"I wish they were. You don't know how much I wish I was still human. To grow old and die with you and Sophie. But I can't," he said.
"I don't want you or us to grow old and die. I can't imagine a world where you don't exist. Besides, I never planned to age after I turned 22. All you do is grow older and get all wrinkly and ugly. I planned to stop aging at that point," I teased lightly.
"Trust me, Bella. This isn't a life I would choose for you and Sophie. I love you both, too much for you to lose your souls."
"Lose our souls? Edward what are you saying? That you've lost your soul? No, Edward. You…..you haven't lost your soul. It's what makes you, you," I said, looking at his perfect face.
"I'm not the same person you knew when we were younger, Bella. I'm a monster," he said.
"No, you're not. Stop saying that! I don't care if you're a vampire. I don't care that you have to kill animals to survive. I love you! I've loved you since we were babies. We were too young to know what love was, but we knew it was there. It's always been there. Please, stop saying these things, Edward. It hurts me when you hate yourself this way," I said, the tears starting.
Edward looked at me, eyes going wide.
"I'm sorry, Bella. I didn't want you to cry. Please don't cry. I love you, too. So much. Please forgive me," he said.
I leaned my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. "There's nothing to forgive," I whispered, closing my eyes.
He kissed the top of my head. It was silent for a few more minutes until Edward said, "We're here." My nervousness came back at his words.
He smiled down at me, then was our of the car at my door the next second. He helped me out. I opened Sophie's door and unbuckled her. She giggled at me and started tugging on my hair. Edward wrapped his arm around my shoulders and led the way into the gigantic house.
He led me inside and called out in a normal voice, "Everyone, could you come downstairs, please?"
Suddenly, Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, and Alice were there. Two other people were there, too.
It was a woman and a man. The woman was older looking, about 25, with caramel hair, and a heart-shaped face. She had a motherly vibe coming off of her. The man was blonde, about 6'5", and looked about 28 or 29. They both had golden eyes like Edward and his "siblings."
"Bella, you know Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett," Edward said. They waved and smiled and I waved back with 1 hand.
"Bella, these are my parents for all intense and purposes, Esme and Carlisle," Edward said, pointing to the woman and man.
"Nice to meet you," I said shyly.
"You, too, Bella. It's nice to see Edward happy again," Esme said.
"And everyone, this is Bella and my daughter, Sophie," Edward said, motioning to Sophie.
Everyone gasped. Then Alice smiled really big I thought it would crack her face in half.
"I knew it! I thought she looked familiar," Alice said.
Sophie sat up in my arms and waved and giggled to them all. Alice, Rosalie, and Esme awed.
"She's even prettier in person, Bella," Rosalie said.
"Thanks," I said.
"I take it she was conceived before you were changed, Edward," Carlisle said. I blushed and Edward nodded.
"Finally. I thought Eddie boy here was a virgin. I guess I was wrong. About time someone scored around here," Emmett said, wriggling his eyebrows at Edward.
Edward growled and I just blushed even redder.
"Well, how about you show Bella around, Edward," Carlisle said.
Edward nodded, taking my hand. He led me up 2 flights of stairs. We came to a stop at a door. It was brown and wooden.
"This is my room," Edward said.
He opened the door and I gasped. His room was huge. He had 1 wall made of glass; another a window that ran from the ceiling to the floor that was open, leading into woods; 1 wall was a shelf filled with an expensive looking stereo and music; and a black couch against the glass wall; a desk beside it filled with pictures and an expensive laptop.
"No bed?" I teased, stepping in the middle of the room.
"No, um….I don't sleep," he said, awkwardly, looking at the floor, still standing in the doorway.
"Ever?" I asked, surprised.
"No, not at all," he said, watching me for my reaction, a little of his British accent leaking through. Edward's family is from Britain and he picked it up on some summers when he went to visit his grandparents.
"Oh," I said. I walked over to his desk that held the pictures. There was some of him, Elizabeth, and Edward Sr.; some of his new vampire family; and the most were ones of me and him from when we were little to the last one we took when he was human. I smiled. It was my favorite of us.
In the picture, I was thrown over Edward's shoulder and he was spinning around in circles outside in his backyard. Elizabeth had taken it when she saw us like that.
Sophie struggled in my arms, wanting down. I set her on the ground and, she crawled on her knees over to Edward, held her arms up, and starting clenching and unclenching her hands into tiny fists. He leaned down and picked her up. He kissed her forehead and walked over to me. He wrapped an arm around my waist and looked deep into my eyes.
'Snap.' We both looked at the door to see Alice with a camera.
"Add it to the collection," she said before dancing off. Edward and I both laughed, before he kissed me softly.