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Samantha

Love you all sorry it's after taking me sooo long to ud but I'm doing my leaving cert and really need to study!

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The journey from the airport was a dull one, my father had came for me accompanied only by his guardians.

"Where's mom?"

"At home"

"Why?"

"Because she's tired"

"Why?"

"Because she's pregnant"

"Yea but it's not as if she's anywhere near nine months, she's 6 months?" I reasoned.

"Yea well she's tired so she left it to me to come collect you."

We made the rest of the journey silence and I soon dozed off. I was awoken when we arrived. I groggily made my way inside and got toast before I wandered into my bedroom and fell asleep fully clothed. I decided to leave it for a few days before I broke the news of my pregnancy to them.

I awoke and made my way downstairs for breakfast. The pregnancy was really effecting my appetite, large as it was. I wolfed down my breakfast easting everything that was put in front of me, I matched my mother! Meanwhile my father was grumbling about us dhampirs eating him out of home. I smiled at this if only he knew!

Time passed and days turned into weeks. I still hadn't told my mother I was pregnant. Because she was so large and was no longer able to train and didn't notice that I wasn't training. I had taken to wearing baggy clothes but nobody said anything although I thought my father has his suspicions. I rarely got dreams from Adrian and Lissa was constantly keeping her walls up so I had no idea what was going on in their life. My father never let any details slip even though he was constantly aware of their actions. My waiting was finally brought to an end as news eventually reached my hears.

I was watching t.v. one evening while munching on carrots sticks, my craving one evening when I heard three sharp raps on the door. I picked myself up off the couch and went to open the door to find: Dimitri, no Lissa, Christian or Adrian just Dimitri. I was in complete shock, I was positive that I looked like a right idiot with my mouth open practically hitting the floor,

"Who's here Rose?" my mother came up behind me.

"Rose?" I was still flabbergasted and couldn't talk. My mother came right up behind me. I could tell she was shocked too but she composed her self a lot better than I did, slipping into guardian mode which I hadn't seen in quite awhile, since she had been living in Turkey, I swear my mother is completely different person around my father.

"Dimitri, do come in" she tried to make up for my lack of manners but I could tell she was displeased with him at the same time, she had obviously not forgotten Russia, which reminded me that I had an apology to make to him as I had later found out that my parents had came over to tell me about their engagement not the other way around.

She brought him into the living room and offered him tea. We sat in an awkward silence as she had gone to make tea and no doubt notify Abe that Dimitri had landed.

"So, what's happened to you since I last seen you?" I asked trying to break the tense atmosphere.

"What do you care, you left me to die?"

"Dimitri, I didn't want to I swear. . ."

"Well then why did you?"

"Because I had no choice, I knew there was more to come and that we wouldn't make it out alive"

"Yea well you were right, plenty more of them did follow but as the same time you knew that I wouldn't have done that to you. . ."

"I know Dimitri but I didn't have any other choice"

"Yes you did, you could have stayed by my said and we may have gotten out together or we may have been turned but we would have been together all the same"

"Dimitri, I'm sorry but I couldn't. .. …"

"Why, Roza, why?"

"Because I had to, you might not understand but I just had to"

"Why Roza, please tell me" he pleaded but I couldn't help it, I just wasn't ready to tell him yet, it was obvious that either he hadn't been in contact with Lissa or Christian or that they hadn't told him my news.

"I'll tell you once you tell me what happened after. . . . . . .after . . . . .that night"

I could tell he was angry, furious. His usually chocolate brown darkened and smouldered over and I was at that moment terrified of him. Thankfully we were interrupted then by my parents although their presence did nothing to ease the tension but amplify it.

"Belikov, where are the others?"

"Others?" I demanded "What others?"

Dimitri ignored me completely and spoke solely to my father

"I don't know, we all got separated on the way out. Lissa and Christian and 2 guardians made it out with me but one of our cars got ambushed. Guardian Scholen didn't make it out, as it was I just about did. Lissa and Christian's car made it away softly from the ambush but I lost contact with them. I thought they'd be backe here by now."

Oddly I wasn't worried about Lissa, I knew if there was any real danger I would feel it through the bond, I was however distressed about Adrian

"What about Adrian?" I asked afraid to hear the answer

"Adrian didn't . … emmm .. . Make it out"

"So basically he gave up his life for yours?"

"Well yea, he restored me and was weak after it so he didn't make it out they dragged him back, they had plans to change him."

A silence filled the room. I snapped. I couldn't bear it, Dimitri had cost me so much in my life, losing Adrian was the final straw. I walked up to him and gave him my famous Rose Hathaway glare and slapped him across the cheek. My hand left an angry red mark, each of my fingers left a vivid imprint. He flinched. Serve him right. I was satisfied with my mark but was not prepared for what happened next I suddenly felt the wall up against my back with Dimitri's hand holding me against the wall. I couldn't breathe, I was frozen with fear. This seemed to register with him as he loosened his hold on me but didn't let go. My father was holding my mother back but was keeping a close eye on Dimitri's behaviour all the same. I hadn't realised just how much Dimitri had changed in his absence. The old Dimitri would never have treated me like this!

Dimitri all of a sudden let go and stormed off. I was glued to the spot, I was still in severe shock. Out of the corner of my eye I saw my father leave the room. My mother came over and hugged me

"Are you Okay Rose?"

"Yea, Yea I'm fine just a little shocked, he's never acted like that before." I said when I got my voice back.

"Well you know where I am if you want to talk". at a loss for words I simply nodded.

I was sitting on the couch snuggled up in my snuggie when Dimitri entered the room.

"Roza, can I talk to you?" he asked hesitantly

"No"

"Well I'm going to anyway it's not as if you normally listen to me."

"Once you left reinforcements came. I was dragged off to a mansion and turned stirgoi. I had returned to my stirgoi behaviour and was welcomed with the respect I had before I was restored the first time. Time dragged on and then Lissa, Adrian and Christian arrived. They severely depleted my army and one of Adrian's guardians was fighting me. He was fighting a losing battle but he gave Adrian an opening and staked me. I was restored and someone dragged me from the scene of the fight. However we were followed and before we got to the exit of the surrounding land they caught up with us. One of them got me but Christian burned him but I was still heavily wounded, I actually died but yet again Adrian saved me, he brought me back again, but it slowed us down and they got Adrian. They bit him and dragged him off. We loaded into the SUVs and left him. We got around 5 minutes away from the estate when they ambushed us, I had to split from the others then, I just about made it. I travelled around and got in contact with a few people and here I am."

I remained silent through out his story and let everything sink in. Dimitri was now shadow-kissed but how would that be affected taking into account that Adrian was no longer Moroi. Dimitri seemed to find my silence unnerving.

"Roza, please say something" he pleaded

"Dimitri why did you come here?"

"To see you and apologise for Russia, I want you to know I did not contact your parents. It was pure coincidence."

"Dimitri, you don't have to apologise, you didn't do anything wrong. I totally over reacted and I'm sorry."

"Well apology accepted. Now I apologise for earlier what ever motives behind your reasoning are sure to acceptable."

I was about to tell him but we were interrupted by a knocking on the door. I left it to somebody else to answer I was too comfortable to move.

After a few minutes I heard a familiar voice, Lissa was here. Once she realised I knew she was here she let down her walls and entered the room, running over to give me a hug, claiming she missed me. She completely ignored Dimitri which was odd as Lissa was always well mannered and treated everybody with respect. She must really care about me not to pay any attention to her manners.

"Rose, Adrian . . . . Was. . . Emmm. .. .. "

"It's okay Liss Dimitri told me"

"Oh and how are you two?"

"No change"

"did you tell him?"

"Tell him what?" Dimitri inputted into the conversation

"None of you business" I replied.

"If it concerns me then it is my business Rose"

"I don't care I'm not telling you yet"

"So when will you tell me?"

"Whenever I want"

"Rose"

"Dimitri" I said childishly I was only short of sticking my tongue out at him.

The next thing I knew I was up against the wall again but this time I wasn't scared for myself simply our baby. I pushed him off and we started fighting. Lissa God help her was yelling at us to stop but we weren't paying her the slightest bit of attention. We traded kicks and punches all the time. I received some nasty blows to the head and legs as I refused to ease my protection of my stomach, I could deal with everything but that. Suddenly we were pulled apart. My father was restraining me while 2 of his guardians were trying to restrain Dimitri. I knew they wouldn't be able to hold him for much longer so I decided to just blurt out my news, it would be much easier to just tell everybody at once.

"I'm pregnant" I declared.

My father nearly dropped me he was so surprised. My mother on the other hand just smiled to herself. Odd I thought I had presumed it was the other way around. Dimitri's reaction was unexpected

"Your WHAT? YOU FUCKING WHORE, NO WONDER YOU LEFT ME, YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME DO YOU, I'M JUST A FUCKING RIDE, THAT'S ALL, A FUCKING RIDE"

"No Dimitri, it's yours I swear"

"THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE ROSE"

"I'M SHADOW-KISSED, IT'S THE ONLY EXPLANATION UNLESS IT WAS AN IMMACULATE CONCEPTION"

"WELL YOU CAN BE DAMNED SURE IT'S NOT MINE"

"what are you saying Dimitri?"

"I'm saying you're a lying whore"

That was it, I couldn't take anymore. I shrugged out of my father's grip and ran to my bedroom. Through the bond I felt Lissa's anger as she slapped Dimitri across the cheek. My mother was also less than impressed with him but refrained from any physical violence instead she made a hasty exit and within seconds I heard her knock on my door and enter.

She came in and sat on my bed beside me

"Rose, don't listen to him, you don't need him in your life, you have Lissa, Christian, Eddie and of course myself and your father and I promise you we will do everything we can to try get Adrian back for you."

I just cried and cried and cried. I was devastating how could Dimitri think of me like that? After all I had done for him he turns around and calls me a whore. I fell asleep and when I woke up I was alone. I was parched with the thirst and decided to go down and get a drink.

I walked into the kitchen to find him. He had his back to me and was wearing only a pair of black boxers. He looked like a God, he truly did but my feelings for him are now clearer, it is no longer the body of a God or anything with power over my life (thank you Adrienne Rich for that quote J).

"Roza, I'm sorry, I am so, so sorry. I don't know what came over me I just snapped."

"Where's your oh so great self control gone?"

"Out the window Roza, I'm so sorry"

"Save it Dimitri I don't want to hear it and stop calling me Roza it's not my name"

"Is it really mine?"

"What kind of a question is that?"

"A genuine one. I'm so sorry Rose please let me make it up to you. I'll do anything, I swear anything" he said pleadingly.

I refrained from looking into his eyes as I knew what I would find so I looked at my toes instead, they were painted bright orange.

"Yes it's yours. I've never slept with anybody else Dimitri, you were my first and only I thought you knew that."

"I'm so Roza. I really and truly am"

"Stop calling me Roza" I yelled and stormed back to my bedroom all thoughts of getting a drink quenched by my encounter with Dimitri. Once again I cried myself to sleep and dreamt of a better tomorrow.