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I awoke tired despite the face I had just had a long sleep, it was however a restless sleep. I noticed Adrian's absence more than ever as I dreamed of him with red eyes, like a stirgoi and the images haunted me. I finally made my way downstairs to get breakfast. The house was quite which I noticed was odd. I was given my breakfast and a note accompanied it
Rosemarie,
We have gone shopping Lissa, your mother and myself accompanied by a few Guardians. Dimitri and a few others remain. I suggest you take the calmness of the house as an excuse to talk things through with Dimitri. Don't let Adrian's sacrifice be in vain.
Love you lots,
Abe.
Short and sweet and brought me to tears. He was right I would not let Adrian's death be in vain. He had sacrificed himself for Dimitri, for me and there was no way I wasn't going to be grateful for that, I would be eternally grateful. So now I had to try talk to Dimitri. I tried to put myself in his position before I went to see him. So big breath, I was left broken hearted by my fiancée because of something that was out of my control, I left her defenceless and she nearly died, I was forced to see her again due to Guardian duties, and she left me to die, her friend who was in love with her restored me, then he brought me back to life, then he was captured and turned so I lost my bond mate, once I returned to my ex-Fiancée I found she was pregnant that was of course after we both lost our tempers and had a heavy sparring match which resulted in her running in tears to her bedroom where she refused to talk to me and cried her self today. God he must be an emotional wreck. With all this in mind I went in search for him.
I found him in his rooms reading a western, where he got hold of a western novel in Abe's home I'm not entirely sure but that's besides the point.
"Dimitri can we please talk?" I asked nervously?
"Yea Roza come here" he replied and pulled my into a hug. I instantly felt myself tear up.
"I'm . . . .so. . .so. . .Sorry Dimitri" was all I could say in between sobs.
"I' sorry to Roza, I love you and I'm sorry I called you a whore and didn't respect your feelings regards Adrian"
All I could do was put my arms around his neck and just sob into his chest as I tried to let all the anguish pent up inside me escape. He held me close and murmured to me in Russian. I guessed they were meant to be words of comfort.
I don't know how long we stayed there but I was awoken from my deep slumber by Lissa
"Rose, where are you, I've something to show you" she called in a sing song voice
I stirred and Dimitri carried me down stairs bridal style, not that I minded, I was just too tired to properly wake up and walk. We made it down stairs to see all the Guardians except Dimitri carrying baby stuff inside. I briefly wondered why there was so much of it until Abe said it was for me and mom. I thought it was sweet of them to get so much stuff for my baby so I went over and hugged them, showing them that was very grateful.
Later that evening we were all seated in the living room. I was sitting on Dimitri's lap. Everybody obviously knew we had sorted stuff out but nobody knew to what extent, hell even we didn't know! I eventually decided to ask if there was any date set for mom and dad's wedding yet
"Hey mom, dad have you decided when your going to get married?"
"Well to be honest Rose we haven't thought that much about it there's been so much going on and we're not even back together that long, we don't want to rush things" my mother said as she snuggled into my father's chest.
"Yea but you've been together how long? At least 19 years?"
"Well no Rose we met around twenty years ago, sure you were born but we didn't stay together for very long after that, only around two weeks and then we went or separate ways. We weren't even in contact really only the odd time when one of us needed a favour or a problem regarding you" my father inputted into the conversation.
After that everybody kind of split into their own conversations. Lissa and Christian cuddled together as did mom and dad and myself and Dimitri. A few of the guardians we chatting amongst themselves and I was painfully aware of Adrian's absence. Dimitri picked up on my subtle mood change so he carried me up stairs, into my bedroom.
We reached my room and he plonked me softly down on the bed.
"Roza do you want to talk or just be left alone?"
I motioned for him to join me and I sobbed into his chest
"I miss him so much Dimitri"
"I know Roza so do I love, so do I"
Of course, how could I forget although Dimitri had always felt by Adrian's relationship with me he was bonded to him briefly but no matter how brief it was he was still going to feel the loss of his bond mate. I don't know why I reacted as I did, whether it was out of love for Dimitri or because of the loneliness I felt due to Adrian's absence or because I was confused with all the emotions churning inside me but I leant up and Kissed him and not innocently may I add!
"Roza are you sure?" he asked when my mouth left his as I kissed down along his jaw line
"Yes Dimitri, I'm positive. I've already lost you twice and now I've lost Adrian I need to grow up and be grateful for what I have and I'm grateful to have you"
After that remark he pulled my lips back to his. Things then began to get very heated but it was sweet all the same. I gave him free reign and enjoyed every bit of it before falling into a deep, dreamless sleep.
The next morning I awoke in Dimitri's arms. I watched him sleep, he always looked so at peace when he slept and I was so grateful to Adrian for bringing him back to me. It was then I realised I was due to return the favour. I owed so much to Adrian and I knew no matter what heart break I put him true he would never have became stirgoi willingly. I decided that once my baby was born I would hunt down Adrian and return him to Lissa or find some other Spirit user to restore him so he could be put out of his misery and if that's not he wanted then I would put him out of his misery by killing him. The thought made me shudder and I wondered if that would be my down fall like it had been when I tried to stake Dimitri but I suppose if I had managed to stake Dimitri I would manage to stake Adrian. I would not tell Dimitri of my plan or I was sure he would follow and I couldn't, wouldn't risk his life like that. He could stay with baby while I made the world a safer place, after that I would become a full time mother if that was what was required but first I had to deal with Adrian.
I returned my attention to Dimitri and stroked his face. Last night had been amazing, so sweet and tender and loving. I was afraid to get out of the bed in case I woke him, he deserved a good night's sleep and I wouldn't deprive him of it. He shifted suddenly and I thought he had woke up but I then realised he was just having a dream, a wet one to by the looks of it. I smiled to myself and hopped out of bed without disturbing him to get a shower before I got breakfast.
Once I got out of the shower Dimitri was still fast asleep. I left him and padded down to the kitchen. The room went very quiet as I entered so I gathered they had been talking about me.
"Well Rose, have you and Belikov made up yet?" he asked with a smirk on his face.
I blushed I wasn't aware that anybody had heard us, we had made an effort to be so much quieter than usual but I guess that hadn't been quiet enough. Meanwhile my father hastily excused himself and Lissa glared at Christian.
"Well I'm guessing you know the answer to that Christian or you wouldn't be asking" I remarked as I sat down and dug into my breakfast, pancakes, yummy. My mood was however dampened as I knew Lissa was hiding some thing from me as she had me blocked out of her mind(I know the bond is supposed to be broken but it's just not as good that way).
"What's the matter Liss?" I asked
"Well . . . Umm. . .Rose I know we haven't been here very long but we're heading back to court tomorrow. . . "
I was relived I could tell that was all she had to say but I understood perfectly, she was Queen, she couldn't neglect her people and that's what made her a wonderful Queen.
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