Chapter 14: Slipped Away
Everything has changed for Rachel Berry. It's been three days since her miscarriage. She didn't want any comfort from anyone. Her father's felt hopeless. Her daughter wasn't sure what was wrong with her mommy. Finn came every now and then. He just wanted to go upstairs to comfort Rachel so badly. She hasn't called him nor texted him. Kurt hasn't heard from her either.
She would eat but very little bites. She ate in silence and would find herself crying silently. She then would excuse herself so she could cry in the room.
Her father's suggested for her to see a therapist. They shrugged it off knowing Rachel wouldn't even leave the house.
Finn came over one day with his guitar. Leroy and Hiram greeted him. "How is she?" Finn asked.
"She's not getting any better. Please, do something Finn." Leroy begs.
Ashley greets her father with a hug. "What's wrong with mommy? She's always so sad."
Finn sat down on the couch. . With Ashley following him. "This isn't going to be easy." Finn sighs and takes deep breaths.
"Try me. I'm smart." Ashley tends to smile. "Do you know how your mommy was having your little brother or sister?" Finn asked.
Ashley nods. "Well something terrible happened. Mommy isn't having a baby anymore."
"Is that why she's sad?" Ashley asked.
Finn nods. "I want to hug her. I miss her." Ashley cries on Finn's shoulder.
"I miss your mommy too." Finn cries. "I'm going to try to make her feel better."
"Promise?" Ashley asked.
"Promise." Finn says. Though he knew he should of never promised his little girl.
Finn took a deep breath before placing his hand on the doorknob. He opens the door only to see Rachel curled up in a ball, lying on the floor. "Oh, Rachel!" Finn cries; dropping his guitar. He carefully lifts her up and lies her down on her bed.
Rachel kept shaking her head. Her eyes were so swollen; her face covered in tears. Finn wraps his arms around her so tightly as they lie on bed together. "We're going to get thru this. I'm going to help you. We're going to stay strong...none of this was your fault."
"Yes-yes it is." Rachel let out a loud sob. "If I went to the doctor, my baby will still be in here. Finn, I'm hurting so much. I'm in so much pain."
"Sssh...I'm hurting too. I'm staying strong for you." Finn comforts Rachel as he strokes her hair. "Rachel? I know it won't be easy but we have to try to move on. We can't forget about this but what about Ashley? What about your fathers? They are so worried about you. I'm extremely worried about you."
"Having a miscarriage is not something to move on from! I lost our child!" Rachel yelled, letting go of Finn's arms.
"But it's not your fault! Please, baby..."
"No, no...everything is my fault! Everything is my fault!" Rachel repeats herself. She hugs her knees with her arms together. "Why did this have to happen? What did I do wrong?"
Finn ran his hands threw his hair. "You did nothing wrong. Unexpected things happen."
"Please stop. Please stop trying to comfort me, telling me that everything will be okay, because I know it won't. I want to be alone today. I want you and my daddies to take Ashley somewhere. I need my space." Rachel says.
"I don't think that's a good idea." Finn argues.
"Just please leave!" Rachel yells.
"Babe? I'm worried...you shouldn't-"
"Please!" Rachel continued to yell. Finn sighs with frustration. He went back downstairs to tell the three that they should go out. Rachel needs her space.
She was uncontrollable. She looks threw her sonograms and traces the pictures with her fingers. This was the hardest thing that happened in her life.
It was even worse than her NYADA audition.
She sniffles and holds her last sonogram onto her chest. She takes deep breaths and begins to sing.
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly.
She thinks about how her life was turning out. It was turning out perfectly until now.
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Things will never be the same. Not after a tragic loss.
Na na, na na na, na na
I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand
I wish that I couldn't see you again, I know that I can't.
I hope you can hear me, 'cause I remember it clearly.
The sonograms were painful to look at. She couldn't help but shed tears.
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
She couldn't sing anymore after that. She just sobs her eyes out.
It's something she's been doing for three straight days; today would be the fourth.
She had so many things on her mind but most importantly she kept thinking why Finn is still so in love with her after she had a miscarriage with their second child. Their second child who they never got to meet or hold him or her onto their arms.
Now the next few chapters I promise Rachel won't be like this forever. AU: I don't own the song Slipped Away. It's own by Avril Lavigne. It's going to be a long bumpy road for Finchel.