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Dimitri POV
I left Roza in her room, in her huff. I knew I had messed up big but how the hell was I meant to fix it. The way she had reacted made me certain that a proposal would not fix things.
I made my way to Abe's room as he seemed to be in control of everything we were due to leave later today as Sonya had healed Mikhail but the stirgoi sightings may slow us down a little. I entered Abe's room but had to make a very hasty exit, knocking would have been a good idea but then again if they don't want to be found in a compromising position they should lock their door.
At a loss for anything better to do I decided to try and enter Adrian's mind. I have yet to actually do it of my own free will but no better time than the present. I sat down on my bed and concentrated solely on Adrian. Much to my surprise it worked or at least I think it did maybe Adrian had meant for me to be pulled in.
I was sitting on the edge of Roza's bed with Roza sitting in front of me. Her eye's were all red and puffy and I guessed she had started crying after I left of course she wouldn't cry in front of me, it was however okay to let Adrian see her weak and vulnerable. The sight of Roza made my heart ache, God I loved her.
"Look Adrian I know he feels betrayed, that I keep leaving him but I never left him because I didn't love him. I sooo over reacted in Russia but I thought he forgave me for that and then when I went for you I left him a note it's not as if I just got up and left. I told him I loved him I can't believe he said he didn't want me back"
"Rose I think you should go talk to him, fix things he genuinely loves you more than anyone I know. Now maybe you don't believe me, whatever that's your choice but he does love you and that's never going to change. I'm telling you Rose go talk to him he's not going to stick around forever."
"Adrian I understand what your saying but . . . .it's not that easy, I can't ever see myself going back to him and if I do it's for Mason's sake"
"Rose"
"What Adrian I'm just saying it as it is"
"Look Rose what you decide to do is up to you but please try and monitor what you say around me I have no way of knowing if Dimitri is listening in"
"Maybe I'll say what's on my mind so and I may never have to even look at him again"
"Rose"
"Just saying Adrian he is one of the biggest dick heads to ever grace the face of this earth and if he was to just disappear I don't know if I'd be overly upset"
"Rose you and I both know that you don't mean that" Adrain really wanted to believe that but at the same time he couldn't help but doubt his own words.
"Wanna bet Adrian?" she said in a challenging manner
"Don't forget Rose you slept with me, you're not completely innocent either." with that he turned on his heel and left.
I was then pulled back into my own body by Adrian shaking me, I hadn't realised he was where I was headed.
"You heard?"
"Yea"
"I'm sorry I tried to block you obviously I haven't quite got the hang of it."
"Don't worry about it she's responsible for her own actions, not you"
"yea but I still influenced some of her decisions"
"not your fault Adrian just as nobody else is responsible for my actions"
He sighed in defeat knowing he wasn't going to change my view of events.
"Dimitri I'm your bond mate, you know where I am if you want to talk to me." With that he turned on his heel and wandered off to find alcohol. How irresponsible of him but I suppose I felt the exact same need to drown my sorrows but being a guardian I knew more than my life was at stake if I chose to act as he did.
Rose POV
I had cried myself to sleep. I knew Adrian was right I wasn't completely innocent in the mess between me and Dimitri. I had made up my mind that we needed to talk. I dragged myself out of bed and got into the shower. I let the warm water wash away all my drowsiness as I concentrated on how I would keep my cool with Dimitri. Adrian was right yesterday I didn't mean it when I said that I wanted Dimitri to leave. I sincerely hoped that he had not been present in Adrian's mind but he more than likely was, Adrian had been fairly stressed out and they hadn't managed to learn how to block each other yet. I felt sooo guilty.
I eventually got out of the shower and got myself suitably dressed for the day ahead of me. It felt good knowing that we would be returning to court and I would get to see Mase and little Abe, I had missed them so much and trips into Lissa's head were never sufficient enough or were the amount of times she seen them as she was going from court to Turkey. Despite my happiness about them part of me worried about Dimitri, what if I had screwed up one time too many?
As I was about to leave my room I noticed a piece of paper lying on the floor. I went over to pick it up afraid of its contents and rightly so
Guardian Hathaway,
I am informing you, as head of Guardians of my decision to leave my post as a Guardian until further notice. I have also notified her Majesty of my decision in writing.
Guardian Belikov.
PS I will be in contact regards Mason.
Typical Dimitri was most certainly in Adrian's mind and took everything to heart, just as I had when I was in Lissa's head, God karma is a bitch. I don't know whether the contents or the formality of the note hurt the most. I just stared at the note, reading it time and time again. I was paralysed with numbness, right now I wanted nothing but Dimitri to walk into my room and just hold me. Realisation hit me like a ton of bricks, I might never see Dimitri again, those deep brown eyes, his half smile, his westerns, that black duster, I broke down crying.
I don't know how long I just sat there crying but eventually I felt someone pick me up and carry me off. I didn't know who it was, I didn't care.