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So this is chapter 4 ;)
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'Kendall! Wait!" James shouted while trying to catch up on his blonde friend. ''kendall please wait!" Logan yelled. Carlos, after a upset Kendall the fastest in the group finally reached the other boy. He grabed both of his arms and turned him around. ''What!" kendall shouted at his smaller friend. Carlos was a bit hurt, but after he saw his best buds face his mood turned into pity and sadness. Kendalls eyes are red from trying to keep his tears from falling. His cheeks are rosy and he just looked not good. ''Kendall...'' now that the Lationo finally catched up with him he didn't really know what to say, so he just hold tight at him and looked into his familiar now tears shining green eyes until the other two guys came to join them. ''Dude" james breathed heavy. ''Kendall. We're your best friends. You don't need to run away from us." Logan said a little unsure because of kendalls tears shining eyes. None had seen kendall crying since...since his dad left...and that was 6 years ago! ''Please guys...can we just go to rocque records? I really don't want to talk right now." the boys changed looks and nooded. They know kendall need time to open up when he is really hurt. And when it comes to his dad he is REALLYsensitive and it is easy to hurt him. Too easy. He will open up when he feels better and is ready. It's always the same. He just need to control his emotions by himself first. The continue their walk to the studio in silence. Kendalls eyes had gone normal again...ok almost normal. You can still see the hurt in them.
''DOGS! You're late!" gustavo shouted at the moment the four boys walked in. He just wanted to go on with his angry speech when he saw the boys faces. ''Hey, what happened?" the big man asked now a little bit worried and curious. Kendall just looked on the floor and the other three at each other. 'Huh' gustavo thought to himself. 'Thats unusual.' ''Can we just start now?" Kendall suddenly asked. Gustavos eyes widened at his voice. It was not as normal powerful and happy. It sounded broken and sad. Gustavo decided it should be better to do what he want and don't asked again what had happened.
''Uhm...okay...than...recording booth!" Gustavo said not as loud as always.
Singing was not as much fun as ever for Kendall. All he could think about was his dad. Why was he here? Should he try to find out? What if he want to become a family again? Kendalls heart jumped at this thought. But...What if he'd hurt him again or even worse..what if he hurt this time not only him and his mom...what if he also hurt Katie? Katie was a baby as he left them. She had to grow up without a dad. But now she is old enough to realize it when he would leave them again. No! Kendall would not let that happen! It was his dads decision to leave them when they needed a strong father, but he didn't care! He had given up. And kendall would never forgive him for that.' 'Ok! That doesn't work!'' Gustavo suddenly said through the microphone and brought Kendall out of his thoughts. ''I don't know what happened but obviously it wasn't good. Recording is not working when my dogs are in this bad mood! Take the day off and make everything ok again. Tomorrow I want you guys happy and stupid as always back here! Understand!" Gustavo asked them ''Yeah'' The three said simultaneously and made there way out of rocque records. They just left the building when kendall suddenly stoped. ''Come on dude. You can't just keep away from the Palm Woods. We need to go back now. Your mom is probably worried because you left...you know..so..upset?" James said, unsure how to describe Kendalls actions. Kendall didn't response so Logan agreed ''Dude. I can't imagine how you're feeling now. And honestly I don't want to'' now Kendall looked up at him. ''But you don't have to face this stupid situation alone. You know that right?" ''You have our back, buddy." Carlos smiled at Kendall hoping his friend would act like the strong leader the knew. ''Your right." Kendall agreed with his friends and smiled back at them. 'Why was he so afraid? He isn't the little broken boy anymore. He is a man now! He is the man of the house! But what is he doing? Hiding from his past...'he thought sad 'No! He isn't living in the past anymore this is his new life, which was perfect until..no it is still perfect. I will not let it happen that this man can just come here and ruin everything again'. Kendall would go back to the apartment, hoping his father was around so he could tell him that he don't want him anymore. That he don't need him. That he should just go back where he was hiding all the time when his family needed him the most. No matter why he is here now. Kendall just want him away. He never thought he would really want his father gone. But he do. He really do.
'So what are you waiting for?'' Kendall asked his friends. The first gave him confused looks but they soon changed into happy smiles. That is the strong kendall they know. They made their way back to the Palm Woods. ''So what do you want to do when your father is in there?" carlos asked him a little nervous. ''First of all: I don't think my mom let him in. By the way, I think he was here earlier. I saw my mom very upset and ...you know...not very happy...anyway that was the reason why i was so worried. I didn't know she was so upset because of him. And I'm really sorry for not telling you.'' Kendall said a little guilty. ''It's ok Kendall.'' Logan replied and put a hand on his shoulder for support. ''And second...''kendall continue ''If he'd be really in there...I'd tell him to go back where he was hiding all the time and leave us alone...I think he already knows how to do this.'' kendall said bitter. ''sooo. You're ready?" James asked his blonde friend. ''Yeah. Let's go in.'' with that Kendall pushed the door open, just to see his mother crying on the huge orange couch with a confused looking Katie on her left and his father with a very sad look on her right. 'Stay strong! Stay strong! Stay strong!' Kendall thought repeatedly. He put all his guts together and made a move towards his dad which was meanwhile standing up from the comfortable couch. ''What do you still want here?'' kendall asked him calmly but in a cold voice. ''Kendall I can't say how sorry I am. But there is something I really should talk with you about'' his father answered. ''I don't want to hear it. And you better go now. I don't think I have to show you how to leave'' kendall continue bitter.''kendall, sweetheart. I know you don't want to, but you should really listen what he want to tell you.'' his mom said making her way to her son's side. Now Kendall was confused. Why want his mother him to listen to what this man, the man who left her and ruined her family had to say? But kendall trust his mother and would never question her. So he turned to his father and said: ''You've got 5 minutes.''
His father gave a small smile and sat back down. Sighing kendall to sit with him. But kendall stayed stubborn where he was. ''kendall this is not easy to say...'' ''Just say it. Remember 5 min. No. Now just 4..so I'd hurry if i were you.'' kendall shot back coldly. ''Kendall I'm sick.'' Now kendall was confused. He looked at his father to go on. ''They diagnosed me half a year ago cancer.'' Kendall had to agree..he is shocked, but why should he care? Their contact broke over 9 years ago. Is he here to tell them he is sick and get pity? 'Pff. He will not get it!" kendall thought. ''What do you want me to say now'' kendall asked. Playing uninterested . ''kendall i know you don't care about me...but it's not that easy.'' what does he want to say? ''Kendall, the cancer was there my whole life,but it never got dangurous. Nobody knew it was there until it got diagnosed. But it was always there. In because it was in me , I could have..I-...'' kendalls eyes widened in shock at he realized what his dad was trying to say. ''You could have passed it to your kids...'' he finished for him.
With that everybody in the room got silent.
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Soo I'm sorry if it was bullshit what I wrote, because I have no clu about cancer (which
I'm kinda happy for...) anyway...I hope you enjoyed it.
Boy, I don't know how some authors are able to write so long chapters;D While writing it's like I had wrote 50 pages and when I scrole back it's just 1 ;D
Anyway...Please review and let me know what you think :)