Chapter 18

BPOV

Edward in the sunlight was shocking. Let me tell you, it's not something I was expecting. I was expecting him to turn into a giant fireball, or a pile of ashes. But sparkling like a fairy? No, I never could have imagined that. He was beautiful.

We sat in the grass, Edward still as stone, Sophie between us, and me turning his hand over and over again. I watched as the sunlight caught his skin and sent a million sparkles everywhere, like diamonds.

"Beautiful," I murmured to myself. Edward jerked his hand away and scoffed. Oh, right. He could hear me talk low.

"Beautiful? This is the skin of a killer, Bella," he said, turning his head away from me.

"I don't believe that," I said, angry he thought of himself that way.

"It's the camouflage, Bella. It's what lures our prey in. I'm….I'm a killer," he said, turning away from me.

"You only kill animals. Last time I checked, humans do that, too. What do you think hunting is?" I said. I put my hand over his and he moved it.

"Bella, I've….," he took a deep breath, "I've killed someone." He bowed his head in shame.

My breath caught in my throat and I stared at him, shocked.

"It was an accident. I never intended for it to happen. I was still so new to this life and she was too close. But it doesn't mean anything. I'll have to live with that for the rest of my existence," Edward said, burying his face in his hands.

"Alice took me out hunting a month after I was turned. It was a split second decision after I caught the scent. I was faster than her thanks to my newborn strength. A girl was bleeding and I went crazy. And….and I killed her," he said, pain in his voice. It broke at the end.

I moved in front of him and put my hands around his wrists. I tugged and he got the message. He lowered his hands and looked up at me with eyes that had seen too much in this world. I put my hand to his cheek and leaned in and kissed him softly. I pulled away after a minute. Edward's eyes were still closed.

"I don't care," I said quietly. Edward's eyes snapped open, now filled with anger. He pulled away.

"You should! Dammit, Bella! I'm dangerous, to you and Sophie! I should just leave before something bad happens!" he said, suddenly 10 feet away from me and Sophie.

My heart pounded in my chest. He can't leave. I just got him back. I've lived without him once, and I can't do it again. I would go even crazier than I was when he 'died'.

"You wouldn't leave Sophie without her father, would you?" I asked, looking down, tears leaking out. "You wouldn't leave me, would you? I can't lose you again," I whispered the last part. He heard me.

He was suddenly at my side, wiping away my tears and pulling Sophie and I into his arms.

"You're not going to lose me. I'm not going anywhere. I said I should leave. That doesn't mean I want to leave. You're lucky I'm a selfish creature. I couldn't tear myself away from you or Sophie. Not when I just got you back," he said softly.

I smiled up at him.

"Good, because I wouldn't allow you to leave," I said.

He leaned down and captured my lips with his. He pulled away before we could get carried away. He leaned down and kissed Sophie's forehead.

"My little Soph," he whispered against her forehead.

Sophie giggled and tugged on his hair.

"Dada!" she squealed, then laughed.

Edward and I froze. We stared at Sophie. I was the first to recover.

"Her first word!" I said, my face breaking into a huge 100 watt smile. Edward was smiling, too.

I took Sophie in my arms.

"Can you say it again, Sophie?" he asked, looking down at her.

"Can you say it again, baby? For Mommy and Daddy?" I asked.

"Dada, Dada, Dada, Dada!" she said over and over again in her high pitched voice.

I cradled her to my chest and kissed her cheek.

"My baby's first word!" I cooed at her.

"Dada!" she said again before breaking out into laughter.

"She's going to be a daddy's girl," Edward said proudly.

"Oh geez," I said, jokingly.

"Do you want to go back to my house?" Edward asked.

"Sure," I said. We stood up.

"We'll come back here again one day," he said, dusting off his pants.

"Good. I like it here. It's beautiful here," I said, as he lifted me and Sophie in his arms.

I closed my eyes and he took off through the woods. When we arrived back at the car, I got in as Edward strapped Sophie in. When he was I the driver's seat, he sped off.

"Dada, Dada!" Sophie kept repeating over and over.

Edward's smile got even bigger every time she said it. I admit, I was a little sad her first word wasn't 'Mama' but I knew Edward deserved it. He missed her birth and the first 6 months of her life. I was glad he didn't miss her first word.

We got back to Edward's house in no time, thanks to Edward's crazy driving. We unbuckled Sophie from the car seat, who was asleep. We took her inside, to find everyone but Carlisle there.

Esme was cleaning and greeted us both when we came in. Edward told her how Sophie spoke her first word as I took her upstairs to Edward's room to lay her down. I kissed her forehead and closed the door. I went back downstairs to the living room.

Emmett and Jasper were playing video games. Rose was reading a fashion magazine and Alice was drawing dress sketches. Edward was sitting on the couch, looking off into space.

I sat down in his lap and his arms circled around my waist. Emmett looked up from the video game and looked at us.

"So how was your day playing hooky, love birds?" he asked, wiggling his eyebrows. I blushed, which made Emmett grin even wider.

"Fine," I answered.

"Fine? Is that all? No Edward and Bella sexy time?" Emmett teased. I blushed even more, if that was even possible.

Edward threw a pillow and hit Emmett square in the face.

"Shut it, Emmett," Edward growled.

Emmett and Jasper laughed. Alice and Rose both looked at their husbands and glared at them. Their laughter died off. They each smacked the back of their heads. It sounded like rocks colliding together. I couldn't help the giggle that escaped my mouth.

"OW!" Emmett and Jasper shouted at the same time, rubbing the back of their heads.

"Idiots," Edward muttered.

Whew! Another chapter! I know it's kinda short, but I'm working on it guys! So I'm going to write out chapter 19 after Pretty Little Liars! Have you watched that show? It's the best! If you haven't, don't worry, the 2nd episode comes on tonight at 7 if you want to start! It's really good! So guess what guys! 15 days until Eclipse comes out! EEEEEEEPPPPP! So my mom was going to take me and my friend to see midnight premiere, then she backed out on us! So I have to wait until the next day at 4 PM to see it! How unfair is that? Ugh, parents! :)) So today I was watching the E! channel and guess what I saw! That's right! An Eclipse tv spot! But not just any Eclipse tv spot! It was a brand new 1 and I don't even know the name of it! But it showed Jasper (Jazzy) as human or as a newborn! I couldn't really tell cause it was just a flash of him, but let me tell you, Jazzy was HOT! I was watching it while I was letting my aloe vera stuff dry on my back! I got severe sunburn on my back! There are blisters everywhere on my back! So you can imagine the pain of putting a shirt on! I didn't even put my bra back on it hurts so bad! I had to get my sister to pour milk on my back while I stood in the tub! Let me tell you now, milk is your best friend when you have sunburn! My back feels so much better now! It felt like the aloe vera stuff made it worse! So I poured milk on the burns, washed it off in cold water, then took an ibprofen (is that how you spell it?) and now I feel soooo much better! So, now, Sophie is suppose to be about 10 months in this chapter! It's May, I should have probably put that, but oh well! So how many of you have seen the new eclipse clip (hehe say that 10 times fast) where Edward is like "Doesn't he own a shirt?" But also there's that H-A-W-T kiss that Edward gives Bella? My insides melted when I watched it! EEPP! I was like, "Hellz yeah Edward! Mark your terrirtory Cullen!" haha! Jake was pissed, but who cares about him? haha That kiss is going to be a winner at the MTV Movie Awards next year! Speaking of that, who watched it? Rob and Kstew totally kissed! I don't think Kstew was expecting that! They're totally dating! Just come out with it you two! Haha! Maybe next year, they'll kiss again when they win for that smexy kiss that Edward gave Bella in that scene I just talked about! And hopefully they'll actually show it to everyone! But they totally kissed! So I'm fixing to go watch Prettly Little Liars! I'll update soon! Bye guys! Love yall!

~Taylor~