Chapter 21: Something You Just Can't Forget

The next morning Finn and Rachel didn't talk about what happened last night. Rachel made breakfast for her family but hasn't hugged or kissed Finn yet. She has told Finn that Tina invited all the girls from New Direction for a girl's night out at her place. Finn lets her go but he worries for her too much. He would spend this day with his daughter, having a father/daughter moment.

Rachel packed her things and headed over Tina's house where she met Mercedes, Kurt, Santana, and Brittany. Usually Quinn would be invited but they all know the story between them. They did a facial, watched romantic movies, ate Chinese, and Sushi. They laughed as they told stories but Kurt realized the look on Rachel's face.

He puts a hand on her leg. "What's wrong, Diva?" Kurt asked.

She crosses her arms, hugging them. "Nothing."

"You sure it's nothing?" Mercedes asked. "You haven't eaten your sushi and it's like your favorite thing."

"Yeah, stubbles...you aren't even laughing at our jokes." Santana says.

"Rachel doesn't have to talk about what's bothering her. It's a fun night. It's our first sleepover we've done in a while." Tina says.

Kurt glances at Rachel worriedly. "Diva?"

She looks down not wanting to look at everyone else. She knows her tears are coming. "I ruined our first romantic night together in his apartment." She said crying. "We had you know and then I didn't want to do it anymore so I asked to look under the stars. I tried to be happy! Really, but he said something about having children...and...I can't give that to him!" She sobs as she recalls the previous night.

Kurt moves closer and puts his arms on his shoulder. "Oh, hon..."

"No..no. I really tried to move on from my miscarriage but it's so hard! Finn is there to make me happy but I have my days. I just want to have more children with him." Rachel says standing up. Kurt stands up as well.

"Do you want to go home?" Kurt asked.

"No. It's a girl's night. Tina? I'm sorry..."

"Don't apologize." Tina says.

"I'm really afraid if I get pregnant, I'll lose the baby again!" She sobs. Kurt pulls her into a hug, rubs her back, and she sobs on his chest.

"Are you seeing a doctor about this?" Mercedes asked.

"No. I don't want too." Rachel sobs. She takes a deep breath and looks at everyone with Kurt having his arms wrapped around her. "I'm sorry. I just needed to get it out. I'm scared Finn and I won't get thru the wedding."

"What?" Everyone gasped.

"Don't be crazy." Kurt tells her. "My step brother is in love you."

Santana stood up. "Okay, I think it's safe to say that we're all tired. We can sleep late till the afternoon tomorrow."

Everyone nods. "I'm sorry." Brittany hugs Rachel. "I have a huge guest room. That's where we'll be staying." Tina says.

"I'm sorry.." Rachel apologized once more. "For cutting the night short."

"Stop apologizing. It's not your fault." Mercedes hugs Rachel.

They all cleaned up and headed to the big guest room.

It happened again. She found herself having another miscarriage. It was like Déjà. Finn left her and wasn't very supported like last time. She hasn't heard anything from him but sees her one day in the park with Quinn. They're both happy and madly in love.

"Look who decided to keep coming to his senses. Finn's a smart guy. He knows who he wants and it isn't you." Quinn gives Rachel a smirk. Finn wrapped his arms around her and kissed her.

"Rach? I'm sorry. But I can't be someone who will constantly miscarry our children. I'm in love with Quinn."

"Life's better that way. You're alone now." Quinn kisses Finn passionately.

"No! No! Please no!" Rachel yelled. "No, please Finn! I love you so much, please! No, Finn!" And with that they walked away smiling.

She woke up screaming. "Finn! NO! FINN!" She was loud enough to wake Kurt and the girls up. Her body was shaking as tears begin to fall on her face.

Kurt ran to her hugging her for comfort. Rachel stared straight ahead shaking her head. "Where's Finn?"

"He's at home with Ashley. Did you have a nightmare?" Kurt asked.

She wasn't sure why all the sudden she had a nightmare. It's been a while since her last one. "I-I-I-want my F-inn!" She stutters.

"Diva, oh, look at you." Mercedes pulls Rachel into a hug. Kurt goes downstairs to call Finn letting him know he has to come here immediately.

Santana moans. "You alright, stubbles?" She asked. Rachel shook her head as she began to sob on Mercedes shoulder. "It's okay. Whatever it was, it was just a dream."

"N-ni-nightmare!" She continues to stutter. "Where's my F-inn"

"He'll be here." Mercedes rocks the girl back and forth letting her sob.

It wasn't a dream. It was a horrible nightmare that felt real. Rachel thought to herself.

He felt like a horrible fiancé for coming forty-five minutes later. He had to constantly call Puck to wake him up so he can come over to stay with Ashley. He informed him with what was going on. Finn drove in going over his speed limit, passing over red lights, and not having a care in the world. His fiancé needs him. He's the only one who could calm her down. As he got to Tina's house, he ran upstairs to the guest room, and barged in.

Rachel was still sobbing onto Mercedes. "He's here now." Mercedes tells her smoothing her hair.

"Rach?" He says. "Oh, Rach...ssh. Babe, I'm here. I'm here." He carefully carries her like he was holding a baby.

She looks at him with swollen eyes. "Promise to never leave me if I miscarry again?" She asked him letting out a loud sob. Finn looks at her confusingly and looks at everyone else thanking them before leaving. Kurt offers to take drive his car so he could be with Rachel.

Her sobs have slowly calm down but she was having trouble breathing. "Take Deep breaths, Rach. Deep breaths." Finn tells her smoothing her back.

She leans her head on his shoulders in between his neck as she does what she's told. It didn't take her less than a minute to fall asleep onto his shoulders.

Once they got home Finn was carrying a sleeping Rachel in his arms. He tucks her in bed and kisses her forehead. Finn sleeps on his side of the bed letting out a loud sigh.

HE remembers those nine words she's asked him at Tina's house. He doesn't know exactly what happened in her nightmare but all he knows is that he'll always love her no matter what.

To infinity and beyond.

He'll never ever leave her.

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