Chapter 25

It was a quiet evening, and Wendy was walking to Starks Pond. She was planing on skating on the pond, though she would be skating alone. It was the beginning of winter break and the kids at South Park had a tradition of skating at the pond during the first day of winter break. Unfortunately this year, everyone was out of the town. Stan was going to the condo his parents rented in the time share deal for the break, and Bebe was going to New York. Wendy wasn't liking the idea of skating alone at the pond. Skating is always more fun with other people, with the laughing, socializing, and the stupid risk people took. Although Wendy didn't need to skate at the pond, she felt like keeping the tradition going on.

During her walk she noticed something in the distance, it appeared to be a person. She was trying to figure out who would come to the pond during this time of day, plus it was a rather cold day too. As she got closer she was able to figure out who the person was. It was Cartman no doubt, why he was here was a mystery of it's own.

Cartman would come here to make fun of everyone like he always does in the past, but this time no one was here, so it made no sense why he would be here. Wendy stopped for a moment. She was still afraid to talk to him, after what had happened at the game, she didn't want to get into a confrontation. She was about to turn back until she saw his face,it was the same one back at the ice cream parlour and when she gave him the oreos in the hallway. Even with the fear of confrontation, she still was walking to the pond, she wanted to know what was wrong with Cartman.

Cartman was standing on the edge of the pond, looking at himself at the reflection. He noticed a another figure appearing on the pond. He turned his head to see that it was Wendy.

"What the fuck do you want now Ho?" His expression changed instantly. Wendy could easily sense that Cartman was still mad at her.

"Cartman, I'm sorry about what happened at that game"

He didn't say anything, he just remained quiet.

"I didn't know that I was being a total bitch..."

Wendy was expecting Cartman to make a comment on how true it was or something close to that line, but he didn't.

"Whatever" He barely made any eye contact with hers, instead he was more focused on the pond.

Wendy was rather concern about Cartman's behaviour right now, it wasn't like him to disregard a fact about her being a bitch. She saw that his face was now purely looking at the pond. Wendy too decided to look at the pond to see the reflection and saw the same sad face Cartman had before once again. She looked at his face again to confirm it, Cartman didn't seem to show any hiding of it. Was it because he forgot about her? He didn't care if she saw it? Or was it because it was hurting him too much now...

"Cartman, are you ok?"

"Why the fuck do you say that?" his eyes returned to Wendy.

"Your face tells me that you aren't ok, and you know what I mean Cartman"

Cartman remanded silent, it seemed that he didn't try to deny that.

"So what, it's got nothing to do with you"

She knew he was right about that. "Maybe Cartman, but I want to know what's wrong"

"Why?"

"It's because I want to help you"

"Well I don't need your fucking help!"

"Cartman, you need to talk to me, whatever is happening is hurting you and I hate to see you like this..." Wendy truly wanted to help Cartman out, she couldn't stand to see him like this.

"I fucking said no already!"

"But Cartman..."

"Do you not understand fucking English? I fucking said no already Wendy! I don't need your fucking help, nor will I ever want your help, so for FUCKS sake, shut up and piss off Wendy!

Tears were starting to fill up Wendy's eyes, she knew that Cartman was a total asshole, this was something to be expected from Cartman, but still, it felt painful to hear him say that to her. It felt even worst when she received this when she wanted to help him out with whatever problem he had. She felt like an idiot for coming here now. Even after what Cartman had said to her, she still wanted to help him.

Cartman was finally able to get Wendy to shut up, he was hoping this victory would make him feel better, but it appeared it didn't. He went back to looking at the pond, hoping that she would leave soon. She stood there the entire time, looking away from him, too hurt to look at him. From the reflection in the pond, he was able to see that Wendy had tears coming from her eyes. He tried not to look at it, doing whatever he could to not think about it, but his eyes had a mind of it's own, and would always focus back to seeing Wendy. As cruel and mean a person Cartman was, the level as which would put Hitler's at the level of a kiddie pool, he started to feel something he had never felt before. Cartman tried to dissect this feeling, but he wasn't getting anywhere. Something in his brain played an event between him and Kyle. The details were sketchy, but he remembered something that Kyle said.

"The reason you don't understand it fatass is because I feel a little something call remorse, something you'll never feel for because your a cruel, insensitive, and heartless asshole"

Cartman has never given two shits to what Kyle has said in the past because he was a Jew, and after all Jews had no soul, so what the fuck do they know about emotions and feelings. Still... what Kyle said to him, remorse... was this what he was feeling right now? If it was, it's a pretty shitty feeling.

"W-Wendy"

Wendy was still facing away from him, still hurt from what happen. Cartman's voice didn't sound angry though.

"Yeah..."

"You might want to turn around"

Wendy didn't want to show Cartman that she was crying, so she took a minute, hoping the tears were all dry before turning.

"Ok I did"

Cartman took a deep breath and exhaled it.

"Look... I'm s-s-sorry for what I said" it was tricky for him to say that. The both of them knew he rarely ever said that word.

"What?" the words weren't registering in her brain.

"You may be a bitch..., but you didn't deserve that"

Wendy found this a pretty weird apology, with the fact that he called her a bitch. She did also found this pretty heart warming surprisingly. Knowing Cartman, this could have possibly be the first real apology he's ever done.

"Th-thanks Eric" she felt a bit better now.

The two were quiet in the mean time, both caught in an awkward silence. Both of them were looking at the pond now.

"Look"

Wendy looked up from the pond and was looking at him. "Yeah?"

"Do you wanna know?"

Wendy wasn't clear on what he meant. "Know what Cartman?"

"Know the reason why I'm feeling sad..."

Wendy was shocked to hear this, she wasn't expecting him to ever open up to her about anything after what happened before.

"Yes Cartman"

"Fine then" Cartman took a deep breath before anything else. After he did, his eyes were now focused at the pond once more.

"I was thinking back to when I was four years old. I met Stan, Kenny, and Kyle back in preschool. We soon got to be friends, except for Kyle of course. Our parents met at the daycare one day and thought it be nice to bring all of us to Stan's house during Christmas. So my mom and I did and we went to Stan's house. There I met with the guys once more, and we did what we used to do, play firemen. During the party I noticed something about the parents. All of them were happy and having fun. My mom was having fun too with the other parents, but she never appeared to be happy. I also noticed something different about my family compared to everyone else. We were missing something. I didn't know what until the party was done and my mom and I went back to our house for our little Christmas. There I opened my presents, getting lots and lots of presents as I usually do. While I was, I saw my mom looking outside of the window with a sad expression on her face.

During that moment I asked her "Mommy, where's daddy?".

At first I couldn't tell what her expression was when I first mentioned that, but I could tell she was afraid, afraid to tell the truth. She told me "oopsikins... daddy doesn't like Christmas".

"I didn't ask at first because I thought to myself 'Who could hate Christmas' but I soon learned the truth. My father never cared about me or my mom, he abandoned us when he first learned she was pregnant with me. All I said was 'Ok' and went back to opening the presents. My mom later brought me some quadruple stuff oreos for me too eat. It made me feel extra better during that day, but it soon was a reminder to me of that Christmas, when I first heard something about my father. I always remember that day so clearly, like it was yesterday. A father, was someone I never had, that everyone in this town does. Stan and Kyle have a dad, even Kenny has a dad and he's an alcoholic. A husband was a person that my mother never had, someonethat every woman has. Loneliness was something my mom obtained after giving birth to me. No man wanted to be a woman who was a whore and had a son like me... A father, I wished I had, to be there for me when I first broke my arm when I was five... A father who would bail me out from the shit I've done. Most of all, a father who I wished could have been there to love me and my mom..."

Cartman finished, he didn't look he was able to say anymore. He looked emotionally drained.

Wendy was heartbroken from this. She couldn't,NO, she was afraid to even imagine what Cartman felt right now. Wendy had a dad, though he wasn't the father of year, he was a good father and did what he felt was best for her. Wendy was afraid to even think of a life without her father. For Cartman to go through life without one must have been horrible. It must have not been easy for Cartman to live his entire life without the male role model you're supposed to have. To think that he was the reason why his mom was truly never happy. What's worst is to have a father that willingly chose to abandon him. A feeling that must have been crushing to Cartman. Wendy in the past never believed that Cartman was one to actually feel, that he was an emotionless person. In fact, he was probably felt the most emotionial out of anyone she knew, and to suppress all of that emotion and feeling, and to act like nothing was wrong was probably the toughest thing to do. Wendy was in silence, there was nothing she could have said because she had no idea what it's like to be in Cartman's shoe. To understand the painful emotions he's feeling, to understand what it's like to have a father who doesn't love you. Tears started to appear from her once more, this time she had no control on them, it was just flooding all over.

In an instant she hugged Cartman where he stood, wrapping her arms around him. Cartman was in shock to see this.

Cartman could see that Wendy was crying, but he didn't comment.

"I-I'm so sorry Cartman..." She sobbed, the only thing that she could have said to him.

"W-why, for once you Hippies weren't the cause of it" Cartman tried to make this situation not as emotional as he could, but it didn't work.

"You don't need to act strong now Eric" Wendy hugged him tighter when she said that.

Cartman didn't hug her at first when she first did, feeling that it was a bit weird, but he soon hugged her back.

The two were fully hugging now, something she never expected to happen between the two of them. Neither spoke the either time, the only sound they heard was the wind blowing through their hats. She was expecting Cartman to stop the hug soon, but he didn't. Wendy didn't mind it though, she enjoyed the feeling of hugging him. She felt something else touched her cheeks. It was water. She titled her head up to the sky to see if it was snowing, but it wasn't. Wendy was wondering where it came from. It soon touched her skin again, she was getting frustrated because she didn't know where it was coming from. She looked up once again to see something she wasn't expecting at all. Cartman was crying. At first she couldn't believe it and thought her mind was playing mind tricks with her, but it wasn't. The tears were coming from Cartman's eyes and landing on her cheeks. Wendy thought Cartman would have made some excuses to why he was crying like 'He had something in his eyes' or something related to Hippies, but he didn't. He just kept crying. Wendy didn't comment on it, she smiled though, she was happy to see Cartman was letting out how he was feeling. That he didn't need to act all strong around her now. Wendy was glad that she came after all, glad that she was there for Cartman.

*Tears dropping*

Here's chapter 25 of my story. Sorry that it's been a while since I've uploaded another chapter, I've been quite busy the last week so that's why nothing was uploaded. Don't worry, I believe that my schedule should be ok now. I might not upload the next chapter tomorrow, since I'm going to be busy watching the new episode of Simpsons and Walking Dead(AMC sure knows how to put a cliffhanger XD). So I'll probably just edit it earlier than my usual time and upload it then.

I tried to make this as sad as possible from Cartman's ended, but I feel like there was something else I could have added to make it even better. So if you feel this wasn't sad enough for a supposed "Sad chapter" then I apologize, I'm not really good when it comes to that :(

If anyone has suggestions on of any possibilities of making this chapter even sadder and such, let me know, would love to hear your guys opinions.

As always, thanks again for reading and for following my story still.