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AU: I don't own the song I Turn To You. It's own by Christina Aguilera. I really enjoyed writing this chapter.
Chapter 22: Don't Rain on my Parade
Rachel woke up the next morning. She looks around seeing that she's slept in her and Finn's room instead of Tina. That's when she realized she has ruined the girl's night out at Tina's place with her former New Directions girlfriends. She looks over to her left seeing Finn sleeping with his mouth opened and snoring. She laughs and gives him a gentle kiss trying not to wake him up.
She remembers everything about what happened earlier. She remembers her nightmare but promised herself she wouldn't tell Finn anything about it. Though, he probably hints what it was about since she asked him to promise to never leave her if she has a second miscarriage.
She grabbed clothes and got into the shower. She found herself singing.
When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way
When I'm scared and losing ground;
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there, pushing me to the top
You're always there; giving me all you've got
For a shield from the storm
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true
I turn to you
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything,
cause your love is so amazing, cause your love inspires me
and when I need a friend, you're always on my side;
Giving me faith that gets me through the night
For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm;
I turn to you
For the strength;
To be strong
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
I turn to you
He woke up by hearing the sound of her voice. She was singing in the shower...which was a good sign. Does this mean it's going to be a good day? He gets up, yawns, and stretches his arms. He walks into their bathroom to brush his teeth. "Morning, beautiful."
She was done with the shower, covering herself with a towel, and another towel for her hair. "Did I wake you?" She asked smiling.
"Course not, babe." He said kissing her. "You seem to be doing a lot better."
Rachel smiles. "Well, that's because I know I can turn to you for anything."
"All I want to see is your smile. You scared me last night, Rach."
"I'm okay now, really." Rachel continues to smile as she brushes her teeth.
"Are you one hundred percent sure?" Finn asked.
It took her a while to respond. She didn't want to relive her nightmare so she just nods her head. "You can go take a shower while I make breakfast. Does bacon and eggs sound good for you?" She asked.
"Anything sounds good for me." Finn laughs. "What are you eating?"
"Fruits and oatmeal." Rachel smiles. "I love you."
Finn hugs Rachel before she leaves the bathroom.
Her mood suddenly changed. Something isn't right but I'm not going to push it since the love of my life happy and smiling in the morning. Finn shook his head as he got in the shower.
A young girl came inside Rachel's room just before class started. She was surprised that all her students liked her. She wasn't well liked back in high school. Now, her students love hearing her lessons and her voice when she vocal trains them. Rachel looks up and smiles at her student. "Good morning, Hannah."
Hannah smiles and takes her seat. "Ms. Berry?" She says clearing her throat. "I was wondering if you could write a recommendation for me? You see, I missed a year of school because of what happened to me. It was awful. I was devastated and I couldn't let go. My mom told me to be strong, be who you are, and to never lose your voice. It took me a while to sing after that...so I missed a lot of school. I was only caught up because I was home schooled by my mom. What happened to me was that I had a miscarriage. The father of my baby was never there for me so I said, screw it...let me not deal with him. Let me not deal with school. I cried my eyes out for days, weeks, months, even the whole year. I figured that I'm never going to get pregnant again till I'm married and find the man of my dreams. It sucks, you know? To have a miscarriage and finding it so hard to move on." She tries so hard not to cry her eyes out. "I need a recommendation. I know you are new and everything but you're pretty cool, Ms. Berry."
Rachel places a hand on her heart after hearing a heartbreaking story. "Of course I will write a recommendation for you. Where are you going, sweetie?"
Hannah smiles with pride. "NYADA. I have an amazing voice."
Rachel smiles. 'You do, you do. Leave it on my desk before you leave for your next class." Rachel says.
She watches the young teenage girl walk up to her and gives her a big hug. "Thank you! You really are so welcomed here. I'm glad you're a staff."
"Thank you, honey." Rachel smiles.
Hannah sits back down on her seat. Rachel clears her throat. "Miss. Bergenfield? How did you-you know, learn to move on?"
"Lots of support from my family, my friends, and teachers. I went to the doctor to see if I can have children again and he said everything was okay. I told myself that I'm never having sex again unless I'm married." Hannah lets out a small laugh. "I went to see my therapist every other day. The people who were involved in my life have helped me through the pain. I realized that I can't take life from granted. I realized that I'm thankful for everyone who's been there for me. I realized I have lots of love and support. I realize that I have a future that I can't let go. I realized that I know I will never forget this pain. No one's asking you to forget about it, no one's asking you to let it go, no one's asking you to pretend like it never happened. You just have to learn how to move on. Get up every day, smile, laugh, and sing...because life is full of surprises. I mean, look at me...I'm a Senior and I'll be attending NYADA in the fall. I'm really blessed."
And there she was in tears. The tears showed that she was inspired by her student's story. She really does deserve a recommendation letter.
She couldn't wait to write the letter. She couldn't wait to be with Finn, tell her the amazing story that she heard, and she needed to do a few other things.
Just like Hannah did.
Dinner was quiet. Rachel was quiet. Finn was humming Don't Stop Believing by Journeys. Though Rachel couldn't help but smile the whole time he was singing. "What you doing there, babe?" He asked.
"Writing a student's recommendation. She auditioned for NYADA and needs a recommendation from me. Isn't this wonderful?" Rachel says. Finn walks over to her, kissing her neck.
"So you're day was good?" Finn asked.
"It was amazing!" Rachel smiles. "I know you're worried about me with what happened last night but I really don't want to talk about it."
Finn nods. "Okay, okay... I won't make you talk about it."
"I feel so connected to Hannah. She's truly an inspirational." Rachel says.
"How so?" Finn asked.
"She had a miscarriage and missed a lot of school because her boyfriend didn't want anything to do with her. She says that she's cried for days, months, and the whole year. She went back to school this year and she..She's just an amazing kid."
"Is she okay?" Finn asked concerned.
"She's fine. She's had a lot of support from everyone in her life and her dream college is NYADA like me, Finn." Rachel smiles.
"That's great. She does sound inspirational."
Rachel looks at Finn. "Finny?" She asked, dropping her pen, and getting up to sit on their bed. "Can we make a doctor's appointment? And you know, maybe I can go see my therapist?"
He stared at her beautiful brown eyes. He's wanted to sett an appointment and therapy session for so long but he didn't want to go behind her back. He swallows his throat. "Are you sure?"
"Yes, Finny!" She responds. She sits and places her hand on Finn's neck smoothing it. "I don't want to be all bipolar like anymore." She tries to let out a small laugh. "I know I'm not it's just the pain is still here." She places her other hand on her heart. "And the pain is never going to go away but you have to learn how to move on. I learned today that never take life for granted. Life is full of surprises." She kisses Finn. "I need to do this, Finny." She smiles with pride.
"I will support you in every way." Finn says hugging and kissing Rachel. "Whatever it takes to get you into that place. To that place where I know you'll always be smiling, singing, and laughing. To that place where I know you'll be my shining star."
Rachel throws her arms at Finn with the biggest smile on her face. She will forever remember this day.
Where she realized she'll have to strongly find her confidence and faith in her life.
Nothing or anyone will make it rain on her parade.
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