For Heaven's Sake by Thriving Ivory
Pull yourself together Before you set yourself apart Make every door you walk through A living work of art For Heaven's Sake
For heaven's sake there's more at stake Than we may ever learn More footsteps to hold onto and corners to be turned Like weeping violins, you tremble and you shake Don't you dwell on the future for it's miles away For Heaven's Sake
Your talkin' in your sleep Like there's nothing more to lose Well hey you know you're not alone Cause honey I get lonely too And it feels so familiar, must have been here before Singin' I don't wanna go but I don't wanna hurt anymore For Heaven's Sake
And I know and I know and I know That it ain't always fair You're gonna have to let it go No you're not moving anywhere
Pull yourself together Before you set yourself apart Make every door you walk through A living work of art For Heaven's Sake
And I know and I know and I know That you've had more than you can bare But you're gonna have to let it go No you're not moving anywhere For Heaven's Sake
Cam and Booth were driving to the F.B.I after just finding more remains to add to the Peterson case. When Cam ordered they be shipped back to the Jeffersonian Booth looked at her agitated, "Camille, I've only been gone a week not a year. I remember the drill." Booth said and she backed off not saying a thing, she chalked it up to everything that had been going on. Hannah's death and Brennan's return, the timing was horrid. Ones heart could only take so much before the pieces were too far gone to put back together. She sighed as Booth re-ordered the remains shipped back to the Jeffersonian.
Now in the SUV Booth was silent. Cam usually let awkward silence alone until the other spoke, but this was Seeley. He was one her best and oldest friends. "I'm so sorry Seeley." Cam said empathetic. She hadn't seen him since Hannah passed.
Booth's jaw tensed, "Ashley asked about you this morning."
Cam smiled, everyone loved that little girl. She was so polite and her smile lit up a room. She let Piper have the spotlight and stole it quietly. She didn't ever fight for attention. She just had a natural warmth about her. "What did she say?" Cam asked.
"She wanted to know if you were going to be at work today." Booth said inhaling and exhaling.
"I will make sure to stop by and see her." Cam smiled a tight smile and Booth nodded. "How is she feeling? I believe Angela said Brennan is helping with her perforation and dressing of wounds." Cam said and then she saw it and wished she never would have mentioned Dr. Brennan's name. The look in his eye that he used to get whenever someone spoke of Brennan. It was still there.
Only now Booth was just as confused as ever as how to handle the fire that still burned inside him. Should he let it burn or contain it? Put it out or let her warmth embrace him completely? Could he let her warmth envelope him in all its glory or was it too soon? He was petrified and almost glad it was too soon. Glad she understood that as well.
"She is feeling better and Bones is helping." Booth said shortly about Brennan.
Wow. He was staying with Brennan through all of this. Wow, she wished she was a fly on the wall in that house. She couldn't imagine how tense this was on both of them. So, that was why he asked her to come out into the field instead of Brennan. Okay.
"How is Ashley doing?" Cam asked, not daring speak of Brennan. "She misses Hannah, although, she isn't taking it as hard as I thought she would. In the mornings and at night she will tell me she wants her, but knows she can't visit." Booth said.
"Visit?" Cam wondered.
Booth smiled half heartedly, "When we were in the hospital she wanted Hannah. Angela told her she could see her later, but later never came. She eventually learned of…of…Hannah's passing. She broke. Last week she announced she wanted to go to heaven to visit her mommy." Booth said as he ran his hand over his face and threw a glance in Cam's direction.
Cam's voice was soft, "I'm so sorry."
Booth inhaled, "Bones told her Hannah was an angel and she was with her mommy." Booth chuckled remembering Ashley, "She was excited and asked if Brennan's mommy was an angel too."
Cam inhaled at this and sat up a little straighter in the passenger seat as Booth continued. "Bones said she didn't know, but that I would say she was. To Ashley that was a yes. So she announced that Grandma B, mommy and Bones' mommy were our Angels and they would watch us." Booth said.
Cam smiled, "What did Brennan say?"
"Nothing, she just agreed with Ashley. She respected Ash and my beliefs." Booth sighed and they drove in silence until they pulled into parking garage of the F.B.I and parked. He looked at Cam and let the vehicle run as they sat a moment. "I miss her Cam. I know we didn't always get along and I know I confided in you more than I should have about our relationship and I'm sorry for that." Booth said speaking of Hannah and Cam nodded a nod that said its okay.
Booth inhaled exhaled and went on "Though, she was still Hannah. I loved her and now she's gone. She won't ever see Ashley get married or be there for her first boyfriend or any of that girl stuff mom's love to do with their daughters. We might have not been right for each other. I know we were having a tough go of it and we had more than our fair share of disagreements, but she was always a good mother Cam." Booth wiped a tear from his eye, "A great mother." Booth said and Cam frowned leaned across the console and hugged one of her best friends. They sat in silence as Booth pulled comfort from her.
Booth pulled out of their embrace and he nodded, "Thanks Cam."
"No problem Booth."
"You didn't call me Seeley."
"And you didn't call me Camille." She chuckled as they got out of the SUV and walked into the bureua.
Sweets saw Booth through his office window and rushed out of the door leaving his paper work unattended. "Agent Booth!" Booth cringed as he turned around not even in his office yet. Cam had gone to the restroom leaving him to fend for himself.
"I'm so sorry, I heard what happened. How are you feeling?" Sweets asked and Booth rolled his eyes.
"I'm peachy freakin' keen Sweets." Booth said.
Sweets registered the sarcasm unlike Bones did. He also knew it was a coping method. "I'm sorry Agent Booth. How is Ashley?"
"She is hanging in there Sweets. Bones is doctoring her perforation." Booth said immediately regretting mentioning Brennan.
Sweets closed his lips and stood up a little straighter, "Dr. Brennan is back?"
Booth sighed, "Yes she is back." Booth said eager to be out of Sweets interrogating. He was not in a session.
"Oh, when did she return?" Sweets pried.
"Last Friday." Booth said and suddenly it clicked with Sweets. Brennan had arrived the same night, hell within hours of Hannah's passing. Holy Shit! Poor guy!
"That is nice of Dr. Brennan to stop by your place to doctor Ashley's perforation." Sweets said.
"Yes, she is a good friend." Booth said knowing if he mentioned he was staying with Brennan. Sweets would have his butt on his couch in no time flat.
Sweets nodded as Booth escaped to his office. Sweets stood in the corridor a moment processing everything. Cam walked up to him, "Hello Dr. Sweets."
"Dr. Saroyan?" Sweets was surprised at her presence at the Hoover.
"Yes, Dr. Sweets?" Cam asked and Sweets looked to Booth's office then to Cam.
"He told me Dr. Brennan is back. That she is helping him doctor Ashley." Sweets said exhaling.
"Yes she is." Cam said.
Sweets knew he had lied, he could just tell. So, he went out on a limb knowing Cam was never one to say much or get into others business. "Staying at her apartment must be tough on all of them."
"Yes, I imagine it is Dr. Sweets. I couldn't imagine having a three year old who lost their mother. I know how distraught Michelle was when she lost her father and she was a teenager." Cam said remembering certain nights or outbursts Michelle went through close to her father's passing.
Sweets mind raced at the truth of the matter. Oh God. He is staying with Dr. Brennan. How emotionally draining? How horribly awkward to lose your fiancé only to immediately stay with your ex-lover? Brennan mine as well have been. He had lost a love only to have the love he purposely misplaced, though, never got rid of present herself back into his life, and all in the same day.
Sweets looked at his watch and told Cam he had an appointment and had to go. He also made a note to make an appointment ASAP for his two favorite patients. Cam smiled nodding in Booth's direction as she walked into his office. "I faxed the case over to Bones."
Cam nodded eager to return to the Jeffersonian and her team. Booth on the other hand was notably taking his time as he had 'one more thing to copy or fax' that Cam knew someone else could have done. "I can't wait to see Ash. It's been too long. I bet she will be ecstatic to see both of us." Cam said knowing the mention of his daughter would make him leave his work. It did.
She smiled as Booth said, "Alright, I'm finished. Let's hit it." As they left the office she noted the papers he said he really needed to get out still sitting on his desk. Family has that affect on you.
Brennan was in her office going over the Peterson case file Booth had faxed from his office. It stated that they found more remains and they were being shipped to the Jeffersonian right now. She noticed where she usually signed her name as the anthropologist in the field Cam's signature was signed. It was okay; she had too much catching up to do in the Jeffersonian to care of such frivolous matters.
Though, upon seeing her signature she couldn't help but notice that she inhaled and exhaled deeply. She didn't know why she did, but at the same time she knew exactly why she did. She wanted that signature to be hers. Though, she had more important things to do at the Jeffersonian. She needed to catch up and review her interns work. She looked at her watch it was eleven forty five. She got up and headed down to see Ash and Piper.
"Dr. Edison." Brennan called and Clark Edison looked up from the skull he was examining.
"Yes Dr. Brennan?"
"I'm leaving the anthropology department to visit Ashley and Piper in the Jeffersonian daycare. Booth said the remains are being shipped here right now." Brennan said.
"Okay." Clark looked to Hodgins who walked up next to him. "She doesn't want to be here when the remains get here? New remains at that." Clark said stunned to Hodgins.
Hodgins shrugged, "She is great with the dead dude, but as long as Booth's alive..." He paused, "Clark, she is still a woman. Think of it that way."
"Ah, got it. Agent Booth is distraught; of course Dr. Brennan would be too." Clark nodded in understanding.
"Dude, they are one messed up-" Clark cut Hodgins off.
"Star-crossed lovers?"
"Yeah." Hodgins agreed and they went back to work.
Brennan knocked on the daycare's door and was greeted by a young woman in her early twenties. "Hi my name is Alyssa. May I help you?"
"Yes, I came to visit my God daughters. My name is Dr. Temperance Brennan I'm listed on both of their emergency contact sheets."
"Okay, let me just check their sheets. What are their names?"
"Piper Temperance Hodgins and Ashley Faith Booth." Brennan said thinking of Ashley's middle name and all it meant to her for a brief moment as she waited on Alyssa. Then the moment was gone.
"Come in Ms. Brennan." Alyssa opened the door.
"It's Dr. Brennan." Brennan corrected as she scanned the room for the girls.
"Sorry Dr. Brennan. The girls are sitting at the table over there, we just served lunch and they are munching on some snacks." Alyssa pointed toward Ashley and Piper.
Brennan nodded and walked over to Ashley and Piper. Ashley turned around first hearing what had become familiar footsteps. "Auntie Bwen!" Ash got up quickly from her seat and winced. Brennan was engulfed in a hug by two little girls and though she didn't know why, she felt an overwhelming urge to cry. Though, she didn't. She hugged them back, released them and told them both to sit. Only Ashley held onto Brennan a little longer after she released her then sat down.
"You came back and visited us Auntie Bren!" Piper said.
Ashley popped an animal cracker in her mouth and smiled softly tilting her head, "I'm glad you came Auntie Bwen." Her voice was soothing.
"I'm glad I came too Ashley." Brennan said with a smile. She touched Ash's nose and Ashley crinkled it up and giggled lightly as Piper laughed loudly at her friend and Auntie.
"Me too! Me too! I'm glad too!" Piper said and Brennan smiled.
"Where is my daddy?" Ashley asked Brennan.
"He is still working he will be here in a few hours." Brennan said hoping she was correct.
"Is you all done wooking fow today?" Ashley asked and Brennan smiled as Piper sipped apple juice through a straw listening intently for the answer.
"Are you all done Wo-rrr-king fo-rr today? And no I'm not." Brennan said and Ashley nodded in understanding which was abnormal for a nearing three year old.
"Is my Daddy coming later?" Ashley wondered.
"A few more hours, right Auntie Bren?" Piper asked remembering what Brennan had said.
Brennan smiled, "Yes that is correct in a few more hours."
"Will you stay until he gets heyah?" Ashley wondered.
"He-rr-e. And I have to go back to work soon, but I can stay until you finish your snacks. Would that be a sufficient amount of time?" Brennan asked.
"What's ficcient?" Piper asked, "Cause I don't know that word."
"Su-ficcient means adequate or tolerable."Brenan explained.
"Nope don't know that one, cept I know the word tolerate because mommy says 'Piper I won't tolerate that!" Piper furrowed her brow, "But I don't know what it means except I'm pretty sure it means I'm in trouble." Piper said and Brennan smiled.
"Tolerate means to put up with and another word for sufficient is enough." Brennan said.
Piper started speaking with her mouth full of animal crackers as Ash munched on her own in silence. "I know that one! It means no more. Ashley watched as Piper pointed to Brennan and said, "Mommy says that's enough Piper Temperance Hodgins! It means all full too. But I don't get in trouble as much with daddy." Piper explained and Brennan smirked.
Ashley removed her mouth from her apple juice box and held it in her hand. "Then yep, snacks is sufficient." Ash said with a shy but bright smile knowing she got this word right when Brennan smiled at her.
Brennan noted the half eaten prepackaged peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. The girls were too caught up in Brennan to finish them. Plus they were little and half the prepackaged peanut butter and jelly plus animal crackers filled them up.
"Auntie Bren Ash said your mommy is an angel too?" Piper asked quietly.
Ashley looked to Brennan and held out her hands. Brennan pulled the little girl up onto her lap brushing her silky bangs out of her face as she nestled her head into Brennan's chest. Brennan didn't believe in angels and heaven. But Ashley did.
"Yeah, yes." Brennan said.
"Mommy said angels are good. Auntie Han and your mommy is angels, so that's good." Piper explained.
Brennan froze a moment and time stood still. Auntie Han? When did that happen? Hell she knew when it happened. She had left and Angela and Hannah had become good friends more because of the girls and convenience. Brennan let out a sigh she didn't know she was holding in.
"Auntie Bwen?" Ash leaned up juice box still in hand. Her voice pulled Brennan back to reality.
"Hhmm?"
"I want to get my stuff from my house befow we go to yous house." Ash said.
"B-e-f-o-rr-e and y-o-u-rr. We will see Ash." Brennan said and the little girl nodded. The tiny table they sat at had become silent. Thank goodness for Piper.
"Does Ash and Uncle Booth live with you now?" Piper asked directing her question at Brennan who inhaled.
Ashley turned looking at her Auntie as well, curiosity had won her over. "No, I'm just helping doctor Ashley's perforation until she is better."
"When will I be better?" Ashley asked and Brennan now out of habit brushed Ashley's bangs back again.
"Soon." Brennan answered.
"That's what daddy says." Ash said and Brennan nodded.
Ashley smiled, "My daddy, buwnt the pancakes all up and set the fyah awam off making bweaky." Ashley giggled as did Piper and Brennan exhaled glad the tension of the previous conversation had been broken.
"He did?" Piper asked incredulously with large eyes.
"Yep." Ash giggled, "Wight Auntie Bwen?"
"He did." Brennan smiled remembering Booth running around her kitchen. Brennan didn't notice she continued to play with Ashley's smooth locks as the three spoke and laughed of silly daily matters.
Cam and Booth rounded a corridor and walked up to the Jeffersonian daycare. Booth knocked and Alyssa answered the door. "Hi my name is Alyssa, can I help you?"
"I'm here to see my daughter. I'm Agent Seeley Booth her name is Ashley Faith Booth."
"Of course let me check her contact sheet." Alyssa said adding, "She is just finishing her snack."
Booth nodded and looked toward the lunch table. There was Bones, Ash in her lap stroking her hair as she spoke with Piper and shared some animal crackers with them. Booth couldn't help but hide a small smile. He was glad she had visited Ash. He knew she appreciated Brennan's presence. Cam looked to what Booth was staring so intently at and then she inhaled smiling one of her tight smiles at him.
Booth didn't look at her when he spoke, "She looks happy."
Cam didn't look at him, but used that serious voice Booth knew well, "Which one?"
Booth turned his head and looked at Cam his eyes meeting hers then drifting back to the woman with his daughter in her lap.
Cam had never really forgotten the night in a bar she stated and asked Seeley. "You're in love with Dr. Brennan." She never forgot that silent look he gave her. The look that said, 'obviously, and I always will.' Though, Cam was a good human being and felt awful for him and Ashley over the loss of Hannah.
While Angela never forgot the Brennan and Booth dynamic, she did grow impatient with it and lost hope even if she knew Bren never left his heart. Angela had become an ear for Hannah to vent too about their ups and downs. Angela had come to forgive the blond she once hated and their kids became best friends while they became good ones.
Now as Booth stare at Bones waiting for Alyssa to bring her contact sheet he remembered back to a certain late night conversation lying in bed with a nine month pregnant Hannah.
"Do you want to make Temperance her Godmother?" Hannah asked.
Booth sighed, "Yeah, she would like that."
Silence lingered and Booth thought the conversation was over. He should have known better. He was talking to a woman, two sentences was two too little.
"Seeley?" Her soft voice pierced the silence of the bedroom.
"Hhmm?"
"When we were apart… you…you and Temperance, you were together weren't you?" Hannah asked nearly remorseful. Booth tensed.
"No, we've always just been partners." Booth said having made up his mind long ago never to tell anyone of his and Bones liaison.
"Don't bullshit me Seeley." Hannah whispered almost apologetic and Booth was silent neither confirming nor denying. So, Hannah jumped to her own conclusion. "I'm sorry, I really am. I know you loved her. And I'm not stupid Seeley-"
"I never said you were." Booth said not wanting to argue. It was late.
"What I was going to say was if anything ever happened to me. I would be more than happy to make Temperance our daughters Godmother. If…if you were ever to get remarried, she is the only other woman I could see you marrying."
"Hannah." Booth needed this conversation to end.
"And she would make an excellent mother. I've seen her with Piper, she has a warm heart." Hannah said.
Booth nodded, "I will tell her tomorrow at work."
"Perfect. I'm sure she will be happy." Hannah said giving him a chaste kiss to his temple as Booth tried to force sleep upon his self.
He remembered that was the first and last time she ever brought Bones and him up. He often wondered if she thought Bones and him were ever together or not. It seemed she had pretty good gut instincts, though she never brought them up even in the worst of spats which made him think otherwise.
Ash crawled off Brennan's lap. "You have to go back to wook now?" she asked.
"Yes." Brennan replied.
"Will you come back again?" Piper wondered.
"I will try. Though, Booth, Angela and Hodgins should visit as well."
"Good." Piper said and Ashley agreed.
"See you later girls." Brennan turned but felt a little hand tug at her pant leg and looked down to Ash bending down.
"I'm happy that you came Auntie Bwen." Ashley said and Brennan smiled brushing her bangs out of her face.
"I'm glad I came too Ash." Brennan said, "See you later."
"See you later." Ash and Piper echoed as Brennan stood up only to lock eyes with Booth at the entry way of the daycare. Really? Brennan looked to Cam beside him and stopped for a millisecond gathering her composure before walking toward them both. Brennan smiled a forced smile as did Booth.
Cam smiled a tight smile of her own, "Dr. Brennan."
"Hello ."
Suddenly two little girl's heads turned around, "Daddy!" Ashley said making her way over to the trio of adults Piper along side of her.
"Hey Princess." Booth said kissing Ashley's forehead.
Booth bent down lifted Ash up Piper looked watched as Ash was raised up in the air by Booth. She wanted to be up in the air too. Though, her mommy said she was almost four and getting too big. But her Daddy still lifted her up so that was fun.
"Auntie Bwen visited us!" Ash informed Booth with a smile.
"But she has to go to work." Piper explained to Booth and Cam. Brennan was glad she did.
"I do. See you later girls." Brennan said. "Oh, Cam the remains should be in soon."
"Thank you Dr. Brennan." Cam said.
"Bye Booth."
"Bye Bones."Booth said as Brennan slipped out of the daycare door. Knowing there was no such thing as a 'good' bye.
Booth and Cam walked over to two small kid's chairs and sat down. Ash remained in Booth's lap as Piper sat Indian style on the floor. "Auntie Bwen visited for a sufficient amount of time." Ash said.
Cam shared a glance with Booth, "You can tell Brennan has been with them." She chuckled and Booth smiled.
"It means enough." Piper informed the adults.
"Oh." Said Cam, "Does it?"
"Yep." Ashley said who now wanted to be let down to the ground with Piper. Booth let her crawl out of his arms and Cam watched knowing he wanted nothing more than for Ash to lay back into his chest like she had Brennan's.
Though, Cam knew that even though Booth was Daddy, there was something about a woman that calmed and comforted a child. She knew the maternal side of her had come out a hell of a lot more than she was prepared for when she took in Michelle. Maybe it was the familiar built in pillow her chest made for a sleepy head, or the soft soothing voice, gentle touch and long familiar hair to grab onto as the little one drifted off on their chest.
"I told Pipah you buwnt the pancakes at Auntie Bwen's and set off the fiya awam." Ash giggled.
Cam raised an eyebrow at him shooting him another glance. "You are so silly Uncle Booth!" Piper said laughing.
"Daddy Auntie Bwen ate snacks with us." Ash said.
"Yep!" said Piper, "She ate some of our animal snacks." Piper laughed again.
"The giwaffe's have long heads." Ash said adding, "I ate them."
Piper chimed in, "Mines head broke off."
"Hhmm, that's nice Piper." Cam said.
"No it's not Cammie. Pipah, you shouldn't break giwaffes head off." Ashley informed everyone.
"You're right Ash, it's not nice." Cam said.
"But I didn't do it on purpose." Piper held her hand up, "Wait-I am not in trouble. I didn't do anything sufficient." Piper said remembering her knew word of the day.
Booth and Cam laughed. "Daddy, Auntie Bwen said maybe we can get woof-woof tonight." Ash said speaking of her stuffed animal dog. Booth thought about it a second. He needed to still get a lot more than the clothes than Angela had brought to the hospital for Ash and him. Booth had gone back to the apartment since then, saying he was going to the grocery store or something of that nature. Though, he forgot woof-woof.
"Yeah, yeah princess." Booth said, "We will try and get woof-woof tonight."
"That's good." Ash said.
Piper still looked confused, "So, I'm not in trouble?"
Cam and Booth smiled, "No, missy you aren't in trouble." Booth reassured the little girl.
Piper wiped her hand across her forehead, "Woo, that's good thing. My mommy would've been mad."
Booth leaned over to Cam, "She definitely has Gibbons in her."
"Yes. She is Angela's all the way. Though, she loves the bugs and dirt too." Cam added.
Booth chuckled thinking of Hannah and who Ash was more like. Who would she be more like now without Hannah? The girls were stuck in some deep meaningful meaningless conversation.
Cam and Booth were both staring at the girls, "She looks just like her Seeley."
It was if she had read his mind. "I know." Booth said and they sat in silence listening to Ash and Piper's mindless chatter. "She is intelligent and curious like her as well." Booth said quietly and Cam nodded.
"I have to get back to work, remains should be in." Cam said.
"Yeah, I will be there shortly." Booth said.
"Take your time." Cam smiled. "Bye Ash, goodbye Piper. I have to go back to work now."
"Bye Cammie!" Piper and Ash said at the same time each hugging one of Cam's legs. Cam looked down at the girls and then to Booth. He smiled and called the girls to him. "Bye!" the two said simultaneously.
As Cam walked the corridors to the anthropology department she exhaled. The Booth she saw today, it was as if she had seen a ghost. His haunted eyes constantly thinking of what he should do and would it be right? Cam sighed standing up a bit straighter as she rounded another corridor that brought her toward the anthropology department.
Cam knew whatever he had with Hannah, however pleasant she was. She would never be Bones. Comparing was a horrible thing to do in relationships because you can't compare one person to another person, the relationship will never work. Though, Booth didn't compare. Worse yet he had come to grips with the fact of the matter and chose to settle.
Though, the fact of the matter was he had a beautiful daughter. Cam knew he told himself he would revive the love he and Hannah had lost creating a wonderful happy family. She had known him long enough. That his actions did not go unpredicted to her. She watched as he erased the past, erased Brennan- in order to move forward. Watched as he convinced himself the woman who set the standard was forever unattainable.
Brennan was in her office checking her e-mail. She opened one from Sweets. Booth and she had an appointment with him tomorrow at ten a.m. He included in his e-mail that Booth already knew. He explained he ran into him at the bureau and she took it at face value.
When Booth joined the team Cam was in full work mode as was Brennan and the rest of the team. Booth walked into Bones' office to pick up some papers that needed her signature. He was still reeling from leaving Ashley again. It wasn't as bad this time. Ash didn't cling to him like she had before. Though, it was still hard on him. This whole week was hard.
"Oh, Booth." She said leaving his name hanging out in the open. He caught her off guard.
"Hey, Bones." He hadn't planned on running into her. She heard the poignant tone his voice held and she frowned.
"Is Ashley okay?" Brennan asked carefully.
Booth nodded, but Brennan could see the unshed tears he wouldn't allow fall in his eyes. "She said she wanted to get her woof-woof tonight." Booth said.
"Okay. What is a woof-woof?" Brennan asked and Booth smiled.
"Her stuffed dog." Booth explained.
Brennan nodded, "Booth?" her voice was a whisper.
He looked up into haunted dark blue eyes and looked away. "Don't Bones." Booth warned.
Brennan nodded and began to leave, but Booth grabbed her wrist. She turned abruptly and slowly all at once locking eyes with him. He wasn't strong enough for her to stay, but he couldn't let her go either. Booth looked down to the ground and in a sudden motion buried his head into her shoulder. For a moment all that was, was here and now.
"You once told me everything eventually. It will get better eventually." Brennan tried her voice was a soothing whisper.
Booth said nothing only clung to her. He wished so many things were different, but this was real life. You don't get to choose, you only choose how you react to the situations you are dealt.
Cam started to walk into Brennan's office and slunk quietly out of the doorway unnoticed. She shook her head as she walked back toward the platform. Booth and Brennan might have always had a difficult go of it but there was no denying the shower of sparks which once burned so bright and so big, was still glowing in both their eyes.
"Thanks Bones." Booth said not making an effort to release her from his grip. She held tight not allowing herself to bury her head in his shoulder like she wanted too.
"Of course Booth." Brennan said and they both became quiet not knowing if either could handle anymore words right now. Their eyes told each other too much.
So, she held him as he broke. The lighthouse in the middle of the storm, she guided him back to shore like a moth to a flame. Emotions ran high; Hannah's passing was recent as was Brennan's arrival. It was a turbulent time right now, and tranquil days were distant days. The waves were high, and the storm spun tornadoes from the hurricane it had turned into.
The thing about hurricanes is they originate usually off the coast of Africa and slowly, following warm currents, migrate toward the states. Funny how the states seemingly pulls the hurricane from one continent to another. Hurricanes continue to grow stronger until they reach their destination. Once they hit land they dissolve. There is no denying when a hurricane comes. The surf grows, the wind blows harder than you can imagine, and one can smell the salt water almost across the whole state.
While, there is surely to be calm after the storm, the initial hit is always a messy one. The destruction of the storms passing through makes its path evident for all to see. There is no hiding a hurricane of that magnitude no matter how hard one tried to deny it. A hurricane had formed in the ocean, and it was slowly on its way toward D.C. The path it took was uncharted, but the currents warmth, inviting.