Second chapter yaaaaay hope u like it!:D

It's been a week now since I told Camille and James the fact that I'm gay. And James is a pain in the ass with nagging that I should tell Kendall and come out to the world. But I think I just can't do it, it's too difficult you know.

So today I told myself ''Okee Logan, now is the day to tell Kendall!'' still not sure about how or when I'm going to tell him but it will be today. So I walked out of apartment 2J to mentally prepare myself for later today but of course Kendall was just about to go inside.

''Hey Logan, you're going outside?'' he asked.

''Well euhm…. Yeah I think so''

''Ow well I just thought… Logan's still in the apartment maybe we can hang together and play some videogames''

I hesitated and just opened the door again and walked it with Kendall behind me.

He put the TV on and did the videogame inside the console while I was getting something to drink.

''Kendall what do you want?'' I asked

''Give me whatever you're taking''

''So Pepsi it is'' I said while pouring some in 2 glasses.

''So which game are we going to do?'' I asked.

''Ow well I thought we could do Call of Duty zombie mode''

''Okeee sounds like fun it has been ages since we played that for the last time'' thinking back.

''Yeah I know that's why we're going to play it today'' he said with a smile.

After gaming for like 2 hours I finally found the courage to tell Kendall.

''Kendall I have something really important to say'' I said while looking at my hands which were shaking.

''Yeah what is it buddy?'' he said with concern in his voice.

''Well… please don't hate me for this… but…. I'm.. Gay'' I said while looking in his eyes.

He just looked at me whit disgust. And told me ''I don't want to know you anymore!''

Right at that moment James and Carlos came in.

''What's happening here?'' Carlos asked while James was looking shocked after what he heard.

I just sat there on the couch with tears in my eyes.

''Logan are you alright?'' Carlos came to me and tried to let me feel better but it didn't work.

''You're gay? Why didn't you tell me sooner so I knew I wouldn't be your friend?'' Kendall yelled.

''WTF dude, its Logan he's your best friend!'' said James to try and calm him down.

After hearing Kendall saying that, I wouldn't be in the same room anymore so I ran to my room and James ran after me.

''Get out of my room you filthy Gay!'' Kendall yelled. I heard Carlos crying because our group had just fallen apart.

''Logan are you alright?'' James said while rubbing my back.

''please leave me alone'' I said crying and sobbing '' I don't want any of you see me like this''

''I'm not letting him go away with this'' James said while walking angrily to the door where Kendall was kicking at.

James pulled the door open with a great amount of anger and punched Kendall on his jaw.

''You need to calm down, can't you see how hard it is for him?'' James yelled at Kendall.

Kendall just stood there with anger towards James and with disgust towards me.

''I want him out of my room tonight!'' he said while walking out of apartment 2J.

I pushed James out of my room and locked it.

''Logan let me in!''

''NO! Leave me alone''

''Logan open up! Please'' Carlos cried.

''GO! AWAY!'' I yelled.

''Carlos come here, he needs to calm down'' I heard James saying.

*Finally they're gone* I thought.

I got back to my bed and took a razor blade in my hand. I always had one near my bed because I felt down a lot. But this time it would be different. Because this time it won't be for cutting myself but for suicide! I placed the razorblade on my wrist it sliced over it. But I was to scared to actually let blood come out of it. So I placed it again and sliced it.

Sooooo what do you guys think? And sorry for the Kendall fans out there I just wanted to someone from the band hate Logan. And James can't be it it's a Jagan story and Carlos is just too cute to hate people for such things. Revieuw please