Harry painfully rolled onto his side. It was the middle of the night and he had reawakened and his pain killer had worn off. Harry looked around his surroundings. He decided after a few minutes that he would like to go on a walk. He needed to clear his mind and think for a little bit. Besides who would know he left? Everyone was sound asleep in their beds. Well almost everyone.

Harry pulled the blankets back from over him. It was then that he realized for the first time that his burnt hand was healed. As he swung his legs over the bed he took his time standing up. Pain medicine always made him feel a little woozy when first standing up. But after a few seconds he began to feel fine and made his way to the door.

Harry walked against the wall as he made his way down the hallway. He really didn't know what to think about his current situation. He didn't want to be with Lucius Malfoy and Severus Snape. None-the-less mates. He couldn't even think about love at a time like this. What with the Dark Lord. Speaking of which, wouldn't Malfoy and Snape be in trouble for being with him? Or would they sacrifice him like a lamb to the slaughter?

Harry eventually made it to a set of doors that led out to a balcony. Students were forbidden to go onto it. But when did Harry ever pay any heed to anything forbidden?

He sat down in front of the banister, his legs dangling through the bars.

He closed his eyes and sighed as he felt the cool breeze blow through his tresses. He really needed this.

He really didn't want to be with either man. But what was he to do? Sometimes he just wished he had some control over his own life. And Merlin, to know they would HAVE to touch him terrified him. He had never been very good with people touching him. But with what his Uncle had done to him, just the idea of something like that made him want to vomit.

"Still disobeying rules I see."

Harry quickly turned around to see a smirking Severus Snape. He turned back away from the man and stared in front of him.

"I needed some air."

"You shouldn't be out here. Your already injured."

"Yes injured not sick. What do you want?"

"Poppy woke to you gone and quickly fire called me and Lucius."

Harry rolled his eyes.

"I'm fine. I need some time to myself." Harry said, trying to get the man leave.

Snape let out a snarky laugh.

"Sorry but I don't think I can let that happen."

"Of course not." Harry angrily said.

"It's for your safety."

"Like hell. I can take care of myself."

"Is that so? So what was happening with your Uncle, were you taking care of your self then?" Severus angrily yelled.

That was when Lucius walked through the doorway, hearing what Severus had said.

"Severus!" He sternly said.

Severus flinched. Lucius rarely raised his voice. And you know you'd done something bad when he did.

Severus dared himself to look down at Harry. The look of hurt that was on his face was intense.

Harry got to his feet.

"You know what? I have had to live with that wretch of a man for most of my life. I grew up with him and the rest of my family starving me, treating me like crap, and plan acting like I didn't exist. As a child my Uncle would beat me and my Aunt wouldn't do a thing. And then my Uncle got caught with his mistress and my Aunt and cousin left. I had no one to turn to for help."

Severus began to open his mouth to say something but Harry cut him off.

"And no, I couldn't turn to Dumbledore. I tried that. I tried several times. And each time he told me I needed to stay with them. I am so fucking tired of fighting. It was just so much easier to give up. Because I knew that after this summer I wouldn't have to go back. And that thought was what got me through each day and night of torture." Several tears quickly streamed down Harrys face before he quickly sweep them away with his hand.

"All I wanted to do was take some time to think. To just relax. Because for me, that doesn't happen a lot." Harry angrily said. "And you ruined it."

Lucius walked around Severus and looped his arm under Harrys.

"Come Harry I'll help you back to your bed." Lucius calmly said. Harry silently accepted. He was exhausted. His argument with Severus had taken a lot out of him. And he felt like he might fall over any minute.

Severus stood there frozen. Harry's words running through his mind.

Harry slowly opened his eyes to the burning light that was the sun. He went to reach for his glasses, but they were already being handed to him, by Lucius.

"Uh, Thanks."

"How are you feeling?"

"Better I suppose."

"It's lunch time now would you like something to eat?"

"I guess." Harry said as he thought to himself how weird this was.

Lucius snapped his fingers and a house elf appeared with a tray of toast, a slice of Ham and some eggs.

Harry only took a few bites of everything before he was full. His stomach wasn't adjusted to a lot of food quite yet.

For a while they merely sat in silence.

"Where is he?"

"Working on a potion. It's what he does when he is upset or stressed about something. He shouldn't have talked to you like that. But I will not apologize for him. It is not my place to."

"I understand. And I wouldn't want you to."

"I know you wouldn't"

Later that day Harry had been released from the hospital wing . He had been taken to a room beside Severus'. He wasn't completely healed. Plus Severus and Lucius wanted him near them.

After putting all his belongings away Harry curled up on the couch with a blanket. He sat staring off into the small fire he had lit in the fireplace. Even in the summer the Dungeons were slightly cold.

Harry was so lost in thought that he didn't hear the knocks on his door. So when Severus came barging in he was shocked.

"What do you think you are doing? Get out. Don't you have any respect for peoples privacy?" Harry angrily said without getting off of the couch.

"I had knocked several times. but when you had not answered I had become worried."

"Oh. Well what is it you want?"

"I wanted to apologize. I know that I had no right to say what I had. And Lucius chewed me out for it. But that isn't why I'm here to apologize."

"Good because I wouldn't have accepted." Harry said as he crossed his arms angrily over his chest.

"Damn it Harry. Please stop being so difficult. I'm trying very hard right now. This isn't something that is easy for me."

Harry sighed. He knew he was being difficult.

"When I was a child my Father use to beat me and my Mother. He was a Muggle. I know in some way how you feel. And I shouldn't have said those things. I just have a hard time controlling myself around you. I don't know why. But I am sorry. I was sorry as soon as the words left my mouth."

Severus went silent. Harry slowly got up off the couch. He walked over to Severus and stood before him.

"I accept your apology." Harry said as he as held his hand toward Severus.

Severus took it. And at first he just shook his hand. But then he began to run his hands up and down Harry's arm.

"I'm sorry. I can't help it. It's been so long since I touched you." Severus brought Harry's hand up to his nose and took in the scent of him. He brought his hand to his lips and just held it there for a few seconds.

"I must be going. Thank you for accepting my apology." He said as he gently let Harrys hand down and out of his touch. And with that he left.

I'm so sorry everyone for the terribly long wait. I moved to Tennessee for 6 months and didn't have my own computer so... I tried to on other peoples but just never happened. I also apologize about not having more Lucius/ Harry moments. I promise I will put more in the next chapter. I really wanted to make this a longer chapter but it just wasn't happening. Please review, review, review! I need the writing inspiration. And if you have anything you want to see happen don't be afraid to tell me because I'm not sure what is going to happen with this story. lol. Thank you!