AN: I wanted to update this before tonight's episode but I failed.

After tonight's episode I think I can honestly say that I'm over the breakup as long as I don't watch the scene =) I have my great Twitter friends to thank for that! They are always there for me when I need to cheer up! They just know how to do that!

Okay so, here is another chapter. It took me longer than I wanted to but I hope you'll like it. Feel free to let me know what you think.

The last part of the fic might not make sense to you, don't worry it doesn't make sense to me either! LOL

Oh probably one more chapter after this one and I'll make it a total Huddy loving one!

I hope you enjoy it!

Previously:

Cuddy had turned on the tv and her and Rachel were currently watching some cartoons.

'Mommy?' Rachel asked.

'Yes sweetie?' Cuddy replied and looked at her.

'Hows save me?' she asked.

'Yes he did honey!' Cuddy told her.

Rachel turned back to the cartoons.

'Mommy?' she asked again after a few seconds of watching.

'Yes sweetie?' Cuddy adressed her.

'Can House be my daddy?' she asked Cuddy with big pleading eyes.

Cuddy did not know how to respond to that one. At the same time she heard a thud coming at the door. She turned around and saw House standing there looking utterly shocked, bag of food at his feet.

'House … ' she started, but stopped as she saw the look of shock on his face. He took a step backwards his eyes still focused on Cuddy and Rachel.

'I … I have to go!' He quickly stated, then turned around and left the room.

Cuddy watched him leave but didn't try to stop him. She knew he had to get over the shock by himself. She sighed and got up to pick up the bag he had dropped. She turned back to Rachel. The girl looked upset. She walked back to the bed and sat down on the chair next to it again.

'Is Hows mad at me mommy?' the toddler asked. Her bottom lip was sticking out and her eyes were teary.

Cuddy shook her head then stroked the hair out of Rachel's eyes.

'No honey, he's not mad. He just had to check on a patient.' She forced out. She hated lying but this was for the best.

The girl seemed satisfied with the answer and was quiet for a little while till she said. 'I'm still hungry mommy.'

Cuddy let out a laugh and quickly opened the bag giving Rachel something to eat. She sat back and watched the girl while her thoughts were on House.

House climbed up on the ledge and carefully sat down. He looked out over the property of PPTH then down, but careful to not lean forward to hard. People were just going about their day as always, not paying attention to anything or anyone but themselves.

He heard the door to the roof open close and then footsteps coming towards him. He didn't look up, expecting Wilson next to him.

"Are you going to jump?" he heard a female voice ask him.

He looked to his left and eyed the young woman.

'What does it look like?' He asked her, a grin on his face as the young woman grinned back at him.

"You look like an old fool sitting on the ledge of a hospital roof' she told him.

He couldn't help but laugh out loud at her reply. They were quiet for a few minutes, both taking in the amazing view.

'So what brings you back here?' House asked her.

'I missed your grumpy old ass.' she retorted, then seriously she added 'and I missed the hospital. I miss being a doctor.'

'Well you could always come back. Besides I'm still looking for a female doctor on the team. Your old spot is there if you want he.' He told her seriously.

Thirteen turned to him and smiled.

'Thanks but I'm of no use anymore.' she told him and held up both her hands as they shivered slightly 'The tremors are getting worse.'

He looked at her hands then at her face. 'You could still diagnose and do labs if you don't feel comfortable with the patients.'

'I'll think about it.' she told him then grinned. 'So tell me House what are you doing up here? Trouble with Cuddy?'

House rolled his eyes at her. 'No.'

'So it's a patient then.' Thirteen asked before climbing up on the ledge to sit next to him.

'Stop trying to analyze me woman.' He told her but can't help but grin.

'It would be easier if you just told me you know. Or I could just keep analyzing.' she said and looked at him.

House sighed. 'It's our kid.' He mumbled.

Thirteen frowned. 'Your … kid?' she asked him. 'I haven't been gone that long … Cuddy's pregnant?'

'What? No!' House practically yelled a look of total shock on his face, just like before when he heard Rachel ask if he could be her daddy.

Thirteen held up both hands to apologize. 'Sorry but I'm lost now.'

'I meant Rachel.' House said then looked down at the people moving around. Some had even stopped to look up at them when they had noticed someone was sitting on the ledge of the roof.

Before thirteen could say anything he asked. 'How long do you think it will take before they send someone to come up here and ask us not to jump?'

Thirteen chuckled. 'Probably not long, so stop changing the subject.'

House couldn't help but smile at that. Thirteen nudged his shoulder with her own.

He rolled his eyes again. 'Rachel was admitted 2 nights ago. Poisoned.' he started.

Thirteen frowned at him. 'Don't ask, it was meant for me.' House continued. 'Anyway the kid asked Cuddy if I could be her dad.'

Silence settled over them which unnerved House a little.

'What?' he asked thirteen.

She shrugged. 'You obviously already think about her as yours, so what's the problem?' she asked him.

It was House's turn to shrug. 'It … it would make it real.' He finally told her.

Thirteen looked confused. 'Isn't that a good thing?' she asked.

House sighed. 'Maybe for someone who won't screw up a good relationship.'

'You think you're gonna screw up?' Thirteen asked and looked at him.

He nodded. 'I already did.' he whispered.

'How so?' She asked. 'From what I heard you guys where doing fine and it's obvious Rachel loves you.'

House quickly put his hand into his coat pocket and pulled out a familiar orange pill bottle.

'Oh' Thirteen looked surprised while House looked slightly ashamed. 'How many did you take?'

'Just one.' he told her.

'Why did you take them.' she asked.

House looked at her and frowned. 'Did you change specialty when you were gone? You sound like a shrink.'

Thirteen didn't reply but waited until he would answer her question.

House sighed again. 'Damn you are annoying you know what forget about the job, you can't have it back.' he told her but when he noticed she wasn't dropping it he told her.

'I was in pain. And I was scared.'

'The almighty Gregory House was scared?' Thirteen asked him a look of disbelief on her face.

'Yes I was!' House said defensively. 'Is there something wrong with that?' he asked.

Thirteen quickly shook her head. 'No of course not. You just don't seem like the type to … I don't know, get scared at all.'

'Well that changes when the person you love and trust can make you or break you.' He mumbled.

'I think you need to talk to Cuddy about this.' Thirteen told him.

He shook his head. 'I can't! She'll dump my sorry ass and fire me.'

'I honestly don't believe that.' Thirteen said.

'Then you obviously don't know Cuddy.' he told her, before carefully turning around and getting of the ledge. Thirteen did the same.

'How well do you know her House?' she asked him. 'If you truly know her and love her you tell her.' With that thirteen walked towards the exit that led them to the stairway and into the hospital.

He watched them from the door. Cuddy was reading a bedtime story to Rachel, trying to get the toddler to sleep. But the toddler was fighting her. He had to smile at that.

Opening the door he walked into the room making Cuddy and Rachel look at him. Rachel beamed at him and he gave her a smile back before turning to Cuddy.

'Can I talk to you?' he asked her.

She eyed him for a moment then turned to look at Rachel. 'We'll be right back sweetie okay.'

The little girl nodded her head and they walked out of the room.

'What is it?' she asked him. She didn't want to sound angry but she couldn't help herself.

'Uhm maybe we should go to your office.' House told her. 'I don't wanna do this in the hallway.' he said and looked around.

Cuddy narrowed her eyes. 'Are you breaking up with me?' she asked him, her tone deadly serious.

House's eyes widened at the tone of her voice. 'No. But you might be breaking up with me after we talk.' he told her quietly.

Cuddy sat down on the couch but House remained standing. He was leaning on his cane and intensely looking at her. Cuddy moved her hands over her face rubbing her eyes. She was tired, House could tell and he felt bad that he didn't wait till after they would have been home.

'You're tired. Maybe we should …' he started but she held up her hand making him stop whatever he was going to say.

'We're here and you wanted to talk, so talk.' she told him.

He sighed and moved his hand into the pocked of his coat again. His eyes never left hers as he pulled out the familiar orange pill bottle. Only when he held it out to her did her eyes widen in shock then they narrowed in anger.

'You took Vicodin?' she asked him.

He nodded then hung his head.

'How many?' she asked and snatched the pill bottle out of his hand.

'One.' he said before looking her straight in the eyes. Her eyes wear teary and she moved a hand over them to wipe before the tears could even fall.

'Why House?'

He shrugged. 'I was in pain. And scared.' he truthfully told her, thinking that was what she deserved right now.

'So you suddenly decided you needed to go back on Vicodin?' She asked him standing up and angrily walking past him towards the door. Before she opened it he spoke up.

'Do you know what it feels like to need a person so badly that you're scared every time you screw something up?' he asked her. 'What it feels like to trust someone so much that you're scared they'll break your heart.'

He turned around to look at her.

'I do Cuddy. Every morning I wake up and promise myself to not do anything stupid to screw this up. I trust you so much that I'm scared that one day you'll see that I'm not good enough for you and you'll dump my sorry ass for someone who does deserve you. I was scared that if I couldn't help Rachel you'd dump me cause I couldn't help her. That's why I took the Vicodin. I was scared of screwing this up with you and I thought that taking Vicodin could help me.'

She stepped away from the door and a little closer to him.

'Did it help?' she asked him.

He shrugged. 'Don't know I took some Ipecac right after I swallowed it, cause I figured you're worth the pain and being scared.'

She let out something that resembled a sob and a chuckle before walking over to him.

'You're an idiot House!' she scolded him. 'Don't you ever for one second think that you're not good enough for me or that I'm not scared of this. I am! But I know we can work this out.'

She caressed his cheek and leaned up to kiss his cheek. 'I love you, you old fool! Don't you ever think otherwise.'

'Old? Who are you calling old.' He asked her before taking her hand in his and walking out of her office.

Rachel was still awake when they arrived back into her room. She smiled at them and held out her book towards House.

'You want me to read you a story?' he asked her and the toddler eagerly nodded her head.

He looked at Cuddy who just smiled at him and then got comfortable on the extra bed in the room.

'Okay.' he said and went to sit down into one of the chairs.

'That's not how you do it Hows.' Rachel scolded him.

'It's not?' he asked her.

She shook her head and patted the bed next to where she was lying. He looked helplessly at Cuddy who just chuckled and shrugged.

House rolled her eyes at her but did as the toddler asked of him. He got on the bed next to her and looked at her as she snuggled against his side. He looked back over at Cuddy who was beaming. He just focused his attention back on the little girl.

'Okay you ready?' he asked and the girl nodded her head.

5 minutes into the story and Rachel was still wide awake. Her mother however had drifted off into a peaceful sleep. House looked down at Rachel while she looked up at him.

'Why are you not asleep?' he quietly asked her.

She just smiled at him and he couldn't help but smile back at her. He resumed his reading but she stopped him almost as soon as he had started.

'Hows?' she asked, looking up at him.

'Yes sweetie?' he replied looking down at her.

'Can I call you my daddy?' she asked, her big eyes looking straight at him.

'Do you want me to be your daddy?' he asked her, not really sure about how to deal with this.

The girl nodded her head and House couldn't help but smile down at her.

'Then yeah, you can call me daddy.' he said.

The girl moved her little arms around his waist and hugged him. He put a hand on her back, patting it, still not familiar with this kind of affection with and from the toddler.

'I love you daddy.' she told him after a minute.

House smiled slightly. 'I love you too kid. Now how about we get some sleep?'

The girl nodded again and snuggled closer to House who got comfortable on the hospital bed.

He turned his head to give one last look at Cuddy when he noticed she was awake and beaming at him.

'Not a word Cuddy, not a word.' He told her before smiling at her and closing his eyes.