Love... It's an amazing thing, isn't it? It can be warm, it can be cruel...
But if it sticks? Then it is true.
I remember the day well, Lavi, where we first became a 'couple'. November 7th, to be exact.
At first, I think it was a sort of game to you. I do not blame you for that; it was in your nature. In your very blood. You are a soon to be Bookman, after all. Relationships hinder your lives, from Bookman's point of view.
That is not the point right now, however. See, I remember, quite clearly. Pria? She had come to you, told you how I had my crush on you. You seemed to find it more amusing than anything. Then she asked you to be with me.
That's when you told her you like to keep your options open.
I acted, of course, as if that didn't bother me; that it was only Pria being herself, you being yourself, and it didn't matter anyway. It was a crush after all. It didn't matter, right?
Wrong. Deep down? It hurt. It really did... In fact, it all but completely burned my heart to the very core. I kept a straight face, though. Laughed, told Pria how I told her so, and the like.
That is... Until she mentioned that little 'bet'. Between herself, Jelena, and Kanda. That if you and I came together... Jelena would end up going out with Kanda. I bet those two knew nothing would happen, or at least figured it. But... Your interest had been perked, and there was no stopping that.
You agreed... Though I was horribly reluctant at that point. I figured that was it, all it was to you. A little bet, a game even. But... You soon coaxed me into agreeing. I definitely don't regret that day, Lavi. I can promise you that.
That night, you decided to make it... Well, official. … Well, alright, an official date, I suppose. We went out to dinner. I have to say, I felt quite shy, if that weren't too obvious. I was afraid I'd say something odd, be klutzy... I'm not too sure, really, but I felt nervous. That's what I was sure of.
How would this night end? Would it be the last, for us? Would you be interested in sticking with me..?
After our dinner, you and I... We went out on a nice, long walk. Thanks to my eye, I could see better in the darker environment, but having you beside me brought the most comfort. Is that a bad thing? I mean, considering we only just had our first date..?
Ah, if it's a bad thing? I don't think I want to be right, Lavi.
We laid down in the grass, after we got tired of walking. Speaking of tired, I was the one who fell asleep, first, wasn't I? I just dozed off, right there in the grass. I can't fully remember from there, but I think I opened my eyes after you had brought me back to the Order. You laid me down yet again, and let me go right back to sleep.
But now, Lavi? Ever since that day, I didn't like sleeping so much. Do you know why?
Well... It's because every moment my eyes remain closed... It's another moment not seeing you.