Two lovers
Three souls
A new beginning...
One of the most important things in my life has so recently been discovered. I didn't have suspicions, at first. Not a single clue had really been shown to me.
That month, though, I had missed my period, but... I figured it could have been stress delaying it. I waited another week or so, until I decided to figure out for myself.
I was ready to test, to check my suspicions, but... I was nervous, as usual. I sat alone in my room for the longest time, just thinking. The more I thought about it, the more nervous I would become. Deep down, I wanted the test to be positive, but so many things could hinder...
No. That is not the point of this entry. Finally, I choked back my nerves, got out of my bed, slipped into the bathroom, and did the deed I've neglected to do for about a week. It took me some time to finally look at my result, however... After some mental preparation, I glanced down to see for myself.
My breath instantly got caught in my throat.
Lavi... That was the day I had found out I was pregnant. I knew I had to tell you, but I was not sure in the slightest when or how I could. I figured... Tomorrow. December 25th... Christmas. Not exactly the type of gift you were expecting, I'm sure. I just hoped you'd be as happy as I was.
I felt as if I was walking among the clouds...
Though, as the day slowly began to pass... I began to think deeper, and became worried. After all, this Earth is ridden with Akuma. It's a dangerous world for us, let alone a newborn child... And then, add in the fact we couldn't hardly have even our relationship...
… Would this baby be bad for us?
That thought lasted hardly a moment, before I shook it away. How could I ever even think such a thing about OUR child? Nothing was its fault. Nothing.
I stayed up with you, that night. At the very strike of Midnight, I sat you down to tell you. I was very hesitant, at first... I think I somewhat beat around the bush, a little bit. I wasn't too sure just how to reveal the news to you.
Finally, I gave in and said it, outright. Lavi, I'm pregnant.
At first, you thought Jelena put me up to it. You thought it was all a joke, which... Which got to me, a little. I don't know why, it just made me more scared, for some... odd reason. More... Desperate.
You changed the subject, but I changed it right back. Yet, you refused to believe it, still. I took you by the hand, then, stared right into your eyes, and told you again... I think that's when it finally sunk in, completely. You looked completely shocked... Shocked being an understatement.
At first... Well, I thought I really scared you, or something. You started rocking, back and forth... Repeating that you were going to be a father. I remember that, quite well. Then, you just... Laid back, on the bed. I was worried you had fainted...
But, then? You jumped right up, exclaiming your new-found status. 'Father'. You were going to be a father.
Lavi, you seemed so happy. And, despite my buried fears... That day... That day was the day everything felt right with the world. Lavi... You smiled at me, then. Oh, what a bright, handsome smile that was...
We hugged, kissed... And as I nuzzled your cheek, I couldn't help but tear up...
Papa rabbit and Mama kitty... Some of the best words I could ever hope to hear, one day, from our child.
Mama. Papa.
Lavi, you gave me purpose. I may not be a fighter, but now... Now, I'll have a job I can hopefully do well. But, that's not the most important thing...
Lavi. You gave me hope. Hope... For a bigger, brighter, and beautiful future.