...

"Ab?" Kit rotated the chair. "Did you try?" I looked away, unable to even look in their general direction. I blinked away tears as best as I could. I pulled my sleeve up before Kit pushed it back down when he grabbed my wrist. The sting on tears was ever-present. I glanced up at Kit and Sol. They both looked upset at the scar.

I ripped my arm away and said, "I knew I should have cut deeper!"

"Ab, don't say stuff like that!" Sol shouted.

I looked him in the eyes, "It would have solved a lot of problems, though. My Lusus wouldn't have to stay here. Kankri would never had to deal with my [crap]! Even you guys wouldn't have to even be here." I wiped the tears away. I sighed, "I know you don't like me. Either of you."

"That where you're wrong, Ab.."

I cut Sol off, "NO! I read your thoughts. You don't like me at all. You never have. You never will. You were just pretending. At first, I brushed it aside, thinking, 'Oh, you know. He just needs to warm up to me.' but I was mistaken. YOU NEVER LIKED ME, SOL!" I turned back to my computer, having a mental break down. I typed to Kani about my problem, which something like this,

"-darkCleric [DC] began pestering onceHopeful [OH] at 14:02-

DC: I'm leaving.

OH: Where t9?

DC: Away from everyone.

DC: Hopefully, away from them once and for all.

OH: Where t9 exactly?

DC: I don't know.

DC: I'm going deeper this time, though.

OH: Deeper?

OH: What d9 y9u mean?

OH: Are y9u impling the certain thing y9u sw9re y9u w9uld never menti9n again?

DC: Yes.

DC: I'm sick and tired of all the crap everyone gives me.

DC: And all the crap the gave me.

OH: They 9nly gave y9u 'crap' 6ecause they didn't kn9w if y9u w9uld 6e useful 9r n9t.

OH: Even if y9u were three sweeps 9ld.

OH: And h9w they didn't find 9ut y9ur bl99d c9l9ur is 6ey9nd me.

DC: I've only ever worn plain black shirts and pants.

OH: Alth9ugh, I've seen y9u in different.

DC: Or occasionally, skirts.

DC: That wasn't the point of this conversation.

OH: And what wo9uld that 6e?

DC: leaving everyone

DC: making everyone happy

DC: giving you a break from me

DC: to give everyone a break from me

DC: once and for all

OH: If y9u think I'll just sit here and d9 n9thing, well, y9u mistaken.

OH: I'll 6e 9ver in a m9ment.

-onceHopeful [OH] ceased pestering darkCleric [DC] at 14:16-

DC: dont come". I waited for Sol or Kit to say something, but they seemed baffled at my problems. We sat in silence for about ten minutes, half the time it would normal take for Kani to come. I heard the door swing open and close. Footsteps sounded as well as some grumbling.

"Anabel? Where are you?" Kani called.

"At my computer," I shouted back. After some time, Kani showed his face to the gap between the book wall and the real wall.

"Anabel, you can't truly..." he stopped when he saw Kit.

"Who the [freak] are you?" Kit asked, backing up a bit, closer to me.

"I've never hear such language from one of Anabel's friends, besides Mituna. As you know, he has a bit of a mental incompetence." Kani turned to me, "Anabel, I am here to refrain you from harming yourself in any way."

"I'm sorry, Kani. But I don't want to talk to anyone now," I said as I pushed past him at the opening and went to my corner. My corner was the most difficult spot to get to. I had stored my fantasy drawings and story. Most of them were shipping pairs of Kani and me. I smiled as I flipped through one of the books. I skimmed it, then put it back down on the table, next to my most recent drawing of Kani and me as a couple. I frown, thinking that I wouldn't have any matespritship with him at all.

I sat down in my chair that sucked me in a bit. I pulled the knife out of the wall, the one that I used the first time. I dragged the tip across my left forearm. It wasn't enough to cause serious bleeding, but enough to have me fade away from existence. I dropped my arm over the side of the chair and put the knife back into the wall. I didn't make a move to wipe the red tears that fell from my chin or the blood that fell from my fingertips. As I relaxed, I started humming an indistinguishable tune. I released all the pain from my heart and all the problems from my mind. I leaned my head back as I closed my eyes. The tune was catchy, so catchy that I made lyrics to go along with it.

I sang softly at first, getting loud as I sang,
"I wish I had it
I wish I could
It was the only thing
I ever needed
You could have given it
You should have given it
A chance Just one more time
If you only had given
Given me a chance
A chance to prove my worth".

I paused. I hummed some more of the tune, thinking of proper lyrics, and repeated the chorus after a minute, softer than the first time,
"I wish I had it
I wish I could
It was the only thing
I ever needed
You could have given it
You should have given it
A chance Just one more time
If you only had given
Given me a chance
A chance to prove my worth".

When it ended, I muttered, "Now I have the courage. I finally have the courage to end it all." I opened my eyes to see Kani, Kit and Sol find me. I smiled weakly, "Now it's all over." I closed my eyes as everything turned to black.

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