The Two L's: Love, and Lust

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight!!!!!!!!!!

Summary: A Jared and Kim imprint story- Kim has been going to school with Jared Till for as long as she can remember. All of a sudden he leaves when he comes back he suddenly can't stop looking at her. She must now deal with a hormonal teenage wolf boy on her heals. Always staring at her with lust and more importantly love in his black eyes.

My Kim is a little different than everyone else's I don't see her as some weak dork I see her more as a teenage girl who as a crush on a boy not some obsessed person who has been stalking him for like 12 years M for later chapters

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Also thank you too all the people who reviewed and story altered me. Everyone else screw you… just kidding I love all of you with allllll my wittle heart.

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"I'll walk you home… if that's ok." He said looking at me as if this one answer could make or break him… I'm watching to many ABC movies. I smiled at him not wanting to make him sad.

"Sure." I said. He smiled again and my heart sped up. He laughed lightly. His laugh caused my bones to slightly melt. We turned in the direction of my house and started walking.

I didn't even notice he was still holding my hand securely in his.

Chapter Four: I Hate being confused, It confuses me. - Kim's POV

Jared,

Jared,

Jared,

Jared,

Jared,

His name keeps replaying in my head over and over again as I lay in my soft bed. I groaned and turned over on my side staring at my alarm clock. Only 11 p.m. you have got to be kidding me! I almost screamed out except I remembered my parents were home so…that wouldn't be the best thing to do.

My let my mind drift back to when Jared dropped me off. The whole way to my house he never said a word to me. The whole time he was looking at my face, and holding my hand. He was so… warm. No I don't mean warm I mean burn baby burn. I mean so hot that I am surprised I didn't have a heat stroke by just looking at him.

The weird thing was when he let go I felt so… cold. I remember how I just wanted to grab his hand again to stop the unnaturalness that made me feel so bizarre by his warmth being gone. I remember the sadness that engulfed his dark eyes as I walked away leaving him alone. I hated to see him sad, it made me sad.

When I had gone inside I just sat on the couch. I didn't move until I heard a loud pounding on my door. When I had opened it I wasn't surprised to see Amanda, Nicks, and Natalie. I recall the look at Natalie's face as Nicks and Amanda bombarded me with questions about what had happened. Her face had longing, and need. It had passion and desire all at the same time. It gave me chills knowing fully well that my face had mirrored hers.

What the hell was happening! First of all Paul hadn't even noticed Nat before, then he goes missing and comes back looking like he had been pumping hard steroids. Then all of a sudden he is holding her and telling her at she smells nice. Then Jared, he only paid attention to me when I was in elementary, now he was holding my hand, and having heart attacks when I leave him.

This is some crazy shit.

I gave off a sigh of frustration and sat up in my bed kicking off my sheets, throwing them on the ground. I jumped out of bed making sure to break out the ninja moves not wanting to make noise. I walked over to my dresser, and put on some sweats I then pulled a light sweater over my tank top. I turned around, squinting my eyes, thinking I will suddenly have night vision and be able to find my shoes. I moved to the right and of course rammed my big toe into the dresser… I hate when that happens.

I threw my hand over my mouth trying to stop the string of not very appropriate words that followed the throbbing. Once I had stopped I brought down my hand but the tiny throbbing was still there.

"Damn it, damn it, damn it." I whispered to myself over and over again until I finally found my running shoes… that haven't been used for running in about five years, but whatever.

I put them on trying to keep myself steady. When they were on I tiptoed my way over to my window and lifted it up feeling the cool night air on my skin. Right outside my window was a large tree. It curled its way up until one thick branch was right out side my window. It has been very useful when I needed to sneak out… no you naughty people not for that reason. Some of you have such dirty minds.

I normally only snuck out if one of the girls needed me. Or for times when I just needed to get out and take a walk. This was a time for a walk. I put my leg out. Making sure my foot was firmly on the branch. I took a deep breath and threw myself on to it. I rapped my legs and arms around my branch feeling the rough bark through my clothes.

I scooted myself down the branch onto the one below it. I did that the whole way down until… well let's just say I don't have the most hand-eye coordination. In my defense it had rained the night before so it was slippery.

"Ow!" I called out. I stood up and rubbed my butt. "That's going to leave a bruise." I mumbled. My butt still stinging I made my way down the sidewalk pulling my sweater tighter to my body. I breathed in deep taking in the fresh air. I started humming to my self as I walked a little further.

Once I was far enough from my house… but not too far of course. I was enough away from the street so that cars wouldn't see me. I lay on the hard sidewalk. I know that might be weird but even when I was younger the cold cement always felt good against my skin.

I pulled up my tank top in the back exposing it and rolling over making me lift slightly from the cold contact. I suddenly felt the sleepiness over take my body and my eyes began to flutter closed.

"Must. Stay. Awake." I said my voice muffled by the tiredness. It was no use I was going to fall asleep. I was going to sleep here on the cold ground with my tank top pulled up in the back. I was going to be the talk of the town tomorrow… that was until…

"Kim Connweller!" I heard a deep voice yell from a little ways away. I Jumped up and pulled my top down and turned to where the voice had come from. I turned to see a huge man walking toward me. The first thought that came to my mind was dad, and oh shit, and of course I'm died. So in order it would be

Daddy! Oh Shit! I'm Dead, I'm Dead.

That was until the figure came closer and I realized that he was too tall to be my dad. The next thing was he wasn't wearing a shirt. His pants were ripped at the knee down. The last was I felt a familiar pull towards him. Not longer later Jared's furious face came into view. I smiled up at him until I saw the cold rage in his eyes. I swallowed and gave him a timid smile. I looked behind him when I saw two other shadows. I looked and there before me was Paul and Sam both wearing the same outfit… or lack there of, like Jared.

Sam Uley was a tall man. Like Paul and Jared he stood at a massive height of 6'8''. He had thick muscled legs and arms but his tall height evened it out like it did to Paul and Jared. His hair was chopped short and it stuck out everywhere giving him a younger look to his hard face. His eyes were always so serious. Like he harbored some deep guilty that was buried deep in his tall form.

He was looking at me with a sight smile on his face, which I didn't return for two reasons. One, Sam scared me. He went missing for two weeks, when he came back he broke up with his girlfriend Leah and started to date her cousin… bastard, if that was me, I would have cut it off. I hope you know what I mean when I say it… you know… his ding-dong.

Second reason, Jared was standing in front of me and I couldn't remove my eyes from his angry ones. I held my ground steady and looked at him with even eyes. His solid black brow was crinkled in frustration as he looked at me. I saw him become even angrier as he looked me p and down noticing the things I was wearing.

"What are you doing out here! It is cold and you can get sick with all kinds of diseases!" He started waving his arms around frantically. "What if there was some pervert who saw you here in just… just… this lack of clothing and decided to force himself on you!" His eyes were bulging out of his head, and his skin became darker as he turned red. "Or someone kidnapped you! You don't know the dangers out there Kim! You can't just be so reckless." He said his breathing heavy.

I glared at him and grind my teeth together. How dare he tell me what I can, and cannot do! I brought my finger up and poked his chest hard… which caused me to hold a wince of pain. I forgot how hard his chest was. So inside I took a step forward feeling his heat surround me.

"Listen here. I am perfectly capably of taking care of myself. I don't need you to tell me what is, and is not dangerous. Besides I don't even know you that well the only time we talked was in Elementary school! Second I do this all the time…" I trailed off as Jared's form began to shake rapidly. Sam and Paul took a step forward. Sam placed a warning hand on his shoulder but Jared shook it off with irritation. Jared lifted a long finger… I wonder… Not the time.

"Look here. It is my job to protect you. If you don't like it well then to fucking bad! I am here to stay so just get use to it!" He said waving his finger in my face. I opened my mouth to yell at him until he took a step forward. "I am taking you home." I took a large step back and glared at him.

"I will go home when I want to!" I yelled at him. I know I was acting like a child but... I'll be damned if I let him control me like this. He opened his mouth again but I turned around and took off running down the sidewalk. I heard him growl and take off running after me.

"Jared!" I heard yell Sam yell from behind me. I heard Jared's heavy footsteps gaining fast on me so I went faster. Then the horror movie moment happened. You know the moment when the girl who is being chased by the murder trips and inside of getting up starts crawling. Well, that is what happened. I tripped over my feet and I plummeted to the ground.

"Nooooooo!!!" I yelled as I brought my hands in front of me to lessen the hurt. I fell on to my stomach and got up to my hands and knees. I could hear Jared behind me, so I started to crawl it wasn't long before Jared's firm arms wrapped around my waist and picked me up. I started to kick but all he did was sigh at me.

"Put me down right now you over grown baboon!" I yelled at him trying to scratch his hard arms. It did nothing to him, except making he made a small rumbaing in his chest that sounded very close to… pleasure? So big boy likes it rough. I felt my face heat up and I folded my arms over my chest.

My back was to his front as he carried me back to where I had been a few seconds ago. It wasn't long before Sam and Paul were back in view. I felt my face heat more and I glared harder as Paul's loud laughing reached my ears.

"You think this is funny! Let's see if you are laughing when I get put down I am kicking nice and low… if you catch my drift!" I said struggling in Jared's arms. Paul stopped laughing and glared at me. Sam however was trying to cover up his laughter. I felt Jared's laughter in his chest and it made my entire body vibrate. I sighed and put my head against him. "Put me down Jared." I said almost begging him. I felt his body freeze and suddenly I was turned around and I was pressed tight against his body.

"Say it again… say my name again…" He whispered in my ear. I snorted at him. "Sop being stupid Jared!" I yelled into his chest. He didn't say anything as he squeezed me tighter to him as I said his name. I heard more laughter behind me.

"Jared—" Sam started but he was cut off by Jared's annoyed voice.

"I don't like the way you say it… so don't." he said. I could hear the glare on his face. Sam gave off a frustrated sigh, while Paul's hyena laugh was still in the background. God does that boy ever shut-up!

"Jared put her down… and she can come to Emily's if she wants to. She has been dying to meet her anyway." He said. "Paul stop laughing… how would you feel if you saw Natalie out here." Paul's laughing had stopped immediately but I still could see from my face being in Jared's hard chest. I could feel the sweat starting to form as he held me. It wasn't until Jared sighed and put me down and the cool air hit my face did I register what Sam had said.

Jared and Paul had been talking about us? Now why would they be doing that? Natalie had said this morning after school that she hadn't seen him since he had run out of the school like a crazy maniac. I shook my head clearing the confusing thoughts. I turned to Jared as he grabbed my hand.

"Do you want to come and meet Emily?" He said with hope in his eyes. I ignored the tug in my chest and glared at him.

"I thought you were taking me home?" I said raising an eyebrow at him. I saw his face fall and I felt immensely guilty for causing it. "I mean… sure why not," I said smiling at him. His face light up with the bright smile that I had liked so much about him. I smiled at him liking how his smile made his face seem so much younger when now he could easily pass for 23 or 24.

"Your really like her… she is so nice and she makes great food." He said rubbing his stomach at the mention of food. I snorted and rolled my eyes smiling nonetheless. I looked over to Paul to see his face was troubled. I felt my eyebrows pull together in confusion. Then he looked up and me and I saw the battle on whether to ask me something or not. I saw a defeated look come over as he opened his mouth.

"How is Natalie? I mean is she angry with me for leaving school? Will she talk to me again? Is she dating anyone? If so who is he and I'll kill him! No I won't I don't want to make her sad." Paul said running his hands through his short hair. He talked so face that I swear it took five minutes before my brain could register what he had said.

"Paul, wait until we get to Em's." Sam said with a stern voice. I saw Paul's head drop as if submitting to Sam. I swear this just keeps getting weirder and weirder. Next thing you know Carrot Top is going to pop out of the bushes and start doing the thriller dance. I chuckled at the thought and Paul looked up and glared at me causing Jared to let a low growl. Ok… where the hell is Carrot Top?

Before I could ask why Jared was so weird I was picked up by my elbow and thrown on to Jared's tall back. I looked down… long way to fall. He started to hum a song as he walked down the sidewalk following Sam and Paul who were walking in front of us. I placed my chin on his shoulder getting comfortable not even blushing at the fact that his large hands were on my thighs.

"Let's play a game." Jared said. I sighed and nodded my head. "Ok let's play… have you ever… except you have to give the other a kiss if you have done it." He said. I could hear the smile on his voice. I swear to god I heard Paul and Sam chuckling too. I blushed but nodded my head nonetheless. I could feel Jared's smile. "Oh and only I an ask for right now." He said at that I lifted my head.

"That is cheating! That is not how the game is played it goes from one person to the next!" I said. Jared shrugged his large shoulders. I sighed and grunted at him. "Fine." I said with no grace. He laughed and I couldn't stop my smile at his joy.

"Ok, I have never… gotten drunk." He said lifting his head with pride. I blushed as I placed a small kiss on his cheek. He stopped in shock and then started laughing making me shake violently and having to hold onto him tighter. "Didn't expect that… ok I have never worn girls clothes." He said smiling. I mumbled a cheater as I kissed his cheek again.

"Ok I have never… gotten a period." He said. I blushed a deep scarlet as I kissed him with stiff lips.

"You can't do that. You are saying stuff that you know is true!" I said. He shrugged his shoulders again and kept walking. I sighed and he smiled knowing I was defeated. Suddenly I saw his face become serious.

"I have never had sex." He said. I froze on his back. I then became angry with him. He had no right to ask me such questions. I didn't know him that well. So me being Miss. Bright decided to mess with him. I placed my mouth like I was going to kiss him and I felt his body slightly shake. I then smiled and placed my mouth next to his ear.

"Neither have I." I whispered to him. I felt his body relax and he laughed. He started walking catching up to where Sam and Paul were. That was the way it was for the next few minutes as we made our way to Emily Young's house. To be honesty this was the first time I would be seeing and meeting Emily.

I have heard about her but after the whole Leah thing she mostly kept to herself. Jared got a few more kisses until I saw Sam and Paul turn to the house, which I was assuming, was Emily's… I know, I know, I am the smartest and most logical person you will ever meet. Bow down to my amazingness.

The house was like every other house on the Res. It was tiny with a small porch in the front. There was a small garden under a window that had the curtain drawn, but you could still see the small light coming from inside. The house was painted a dark brown that I could see even in the dark. I breathed in the nice aroma as we got to the door. That smelled amazing! Sam, Paul, and Jared with me still on his back burst threw the door.

Paul walked over to the couch and plopped down, grabbing the remote and turning on the TV. "Sam!" I heard a female voice yell. I saw Sam's face light up which made the seriousness and the dark glow about him disappear. He bound across the room and engulfed the woman in a huge hug before I could get a good look at her. Jared put me down and grabbed my hand and put his mouth to my ear making his hot breath blow across it. I shivered.

"Don't stare." He said. I looked up at him in confusion until Sam moved and I turned my head back too see Emily. I felt my face freeze as I took in her face. She had a bright smile on her. Her hair was straight and thick as it fell down her petite back reaching her elbows. She must be about my height and her body was much better then mine. That wasn't why I was staring though. It was the three deep red marks coming down the right side of her face and across her ruined mouth. Me being the smart one I am (Note the sarcasm please) I opened my mouth before speaking.

"What happened?" I asked. Jared froze next to me, I saw Paul from the corner of my eye freeze too. Sam's eyes went dark and he put an arm around Emily's small waist, who was also shocked at my outburst. " I am so, so—" I was cut off by Emily's cheerful laugh.

"It is ok. You are actually the first person to ask out right instead off beating around the bush. I was mulled by a bear… and this happened." She said smiling at me. I smiled at her and shrugged my shoulders trying to lighten the mood from my rudeness.

"Well you are still hot." I said before blushing a deep red. Emily's face was also a bright red as she looked at the floor. "That didn't come out right… I mean half the guys around town are always saying that you have an amazing body… and most of the girls are jealous of it, and your hair, and…" I blushed redder as I looked down closing my eyes hoping the floor would swallow me up. I looked up surprised to hear two loud roars of laughter. I turned to Jared who had tears coming out of his eyes and holding his side. Paul was on the floor rolling around his long legs out in front of him.

I turned when I heard another slow building laugh. It was Sam, his mouth was turned up and his shoulders were shaking from repressed laugher. Emily sighed at him. "Go ahead." She said rolling her eyes. Sam burst out laughing all three of the laughs filling the small house. I sighed looking too Emily who was also giggling. Fantastic the first time I meet Sam and Emily and I make a complete fool of myself.

"Well this is just a disaster." I said shaking my head. I looked up to Emily who was smiling at me. She walked over and grabbed my hand.

"Come on into the kitchen with me and get something to eat." She said. I smiled I liked Emily she was nice. At the mention of food the laughing stopped and Jared gripped my hand too dragging me, and Emily who was holding my other hand, into the kitchen. Emily let go of my hand as Jared dragged me over to the small table pulling out a chair and flopping down and pulling me into his lap. I was about to get up until his hot strong arms wrapped around me.

"You will lllloooovvvveee Em's cooking." Jared said looking longingly at the plate of cookies on the counter. "Do you cook?" Jared asked with curiosity. I grmiced.

"I can make boxed mac and cheese, pop tarts, cereal, and cakes also from the box." I said. Jared laughed and I turned to look at his bright face.

"That's good because I love Macaroni… besides all I can make is a PB & J sandwich." He said chuckling. I smiled and rolled my eyes. Emily placed the cookies on the table all three of the boys grabbing five at a time and shoving them into their mouths… gross.

"Kim you can't believe how nice it is having another girl around to talk about things… this whole wolf thing can get so…" She trailed off as Jared's cookies came out of his mouth and splattered all over the table. "Jared! That is so gross get a napkin and clean it up!" Emily yelled covering her mouth. I wasn't paying attention at what was being said anymore.

"Wolves? What are you talking about?" I asked looking around the table. Jared placed a hand on my stomach but I stood up and turned to look at him. "Jared Till what is she talking about?" I said glaring at him. Jared looked down not meeting my eyes. "Look at me." I said with a sternness I learned from my mother. Jared winced and looked up slowing looking like a small child.

"Kim I think that we better get you home." Sam said standing up. I turned to him and glared. "It is getting late and I think that you should get home before your parents wake up." He said smiling at me. He walked over to me and placed a hand on my shoulder. God he was so warm too! Is it a Quileute thing? He steered me toward the door. I was tempted to yank away but I suddenly felt to tired to argue with Sam. The last look on Jared's face as I walked away was longing, and Emily's was regret, and Paul's pure amusment.

I will found out what is going on… this means war Jared Till.

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A/N Hey everyone! I hoped you liked this chapter. I had a lot of fun writing this one. The reason Emily said that was because she didn't know Kim didn't know… I hope that made sense. Also thank you everyone for the reviews I really love reading them weather they are bad or good. The next chapter you get the girls, and some Natalie Paul, and some other juicy things.

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These are the songs I listened to as I wrote this!

Lindsay Lohan- Daughter to Father

Maria Mena- Nevermind Me

Maria Mena- Our Battles

Maria Mena- Belly Up

Joss Stone- You Had Me

Black Eyed Peas- Where Is the Love

The Decemberists- Sixteen Military Wives

The Decemberists- July, July!