"You're not in trouble, are you?" Kexi asked, voice filled with concern
Fira shook her head, "It's a personal thing,"
"Oh,"
"Yeah…"
Kexi quirked an eyebrow
"And you're coming to me about it?" She shook her head, "Kid you must be really desperate…"
Fira thought about turning the comm off… this was a stupid idea…
"Alright kid, spill."
There was a pause that seemed to drag on far too long whilst Fira tried to put her thoughts in order. Actually telling someone about this was going to be harder than she thought.
"Well, you know I picked that job up on Ord, right?"
"Yeah, and how it went sideways,"
That's putting it mildly
"Well…"
She cursed herself for a moment, why was this proving so hard?
"C'mon kid, this is clearly tying you in knots,"
She closed her eyes that seemed to help. Part of her was chiding her still, she was an adult, not a child, this should be easy enough to talk through…
"This guy came with me from Ord, I didn't expect him to stick around after I got my ship back, but he did."
She saw Kexi nod encouraging her to continue. ""He's kind of a goof in all honesty; he's a real farmboy, names his guns and has all these silly ideas about how he has to protect the womanfolk…"
Fira paused.
"And we've been through a lot; he's stuck by me the whole time, even after a few times I swear anyone else would have run away…"
And maybe a few times I nearly pushed him away…
She could have sworn Kexi sighed, "I'm guessing you two are together?"
"Yes…" She fidgeted slightly, "I mean it took a while… He was really skittish,"
"Skittish?"
"Yeah… on Taris I did something that was really kind of dumb but it did help a lot of people in the long run," Fira swore her arms started to hurt at the memory, "But afterwards I was so freaked out over it that I just clung to him, I don't think either of us knew what to do."
"Right... there's more to this…"
"And well, when we were done there both of us drank a bit too much…"
"Oh kid…" Concern flared up in the Mirlian's voice.
"Here's the thing, nothing happened, he nearly kissed me, I think I wanted him to, but somehow he caught himself just in time, gave me this whole spiel about me 'derservin' better"
Fira mentally winced, it wasn't one of her better moments.
"To be fair, I don't think either of us was in a good place right then…" The smuggler laughed nervously.
"I'm guessing though you two worked things out…"
"Yeah, you don't mind me leaving it at that?"
"And, so what's the problem, kid?"
"Well…" Fira sighed, "I think this is getting more serious,"
"And that's a bad thing?"
"Well… I just don't know what to do… I'm not sure if…"
She did hear Kexi sigh that time.
"Fira," Kexi sounded unusually serious right now, "Please be honest with this guy, it's not fair to lead him on..."
"Well…"
"What?"
"I don't know. Things have been weird, and everything keeps going sideways right now…"
"That's life,"
Fira sighed, and placed a hand to her head. There was an uncomfortable pause that seemed to drag for far too long. She knew Kexi was right though.
Still she didn't want to admit it.
"Fira…"
"I…"
"Look let me ask you one thing,"
"Okay…"
"Do you want this thing to go somewhere?"
"I… I think I do" She sighed, "I guess with everything going on, I panicked a bit, lot of stuff's changed around…" Fira shook her head a moment, "I'm being silly, aren't I?"
"Nope, you're being human. And now we've got that sorted, listen to me, you don't have to take my advice, just listen,"
Fira wished there wasn't this large distance between them right now; it would make this whole conversation a lot easier. Or she hoped it would anyway.
"Just take this one day at a time, don't rush yourself."
"Is that it?"
"Yeah, you know I'm not actually as wise as you think I am, not quite old enough for that yet."
"I know…" Fira smiled.
"Unless you want me to give you some long winded spiel? I can give you a good one if you want…"
"No, I'm good. Thanks. "
"Anytime kid, now just look after yourself, and I'm here, not sure what good I'll be but I'm here."
"You've helped, trust me,"
Fira watched as the comm faded out. She wouldn't say she felt 'better' maybe slightly less burdened maybe.
One day at a time, I think I can manage that.
She left her cabin, leaving the holocomm on the bed.
She found Corso at the techtable, tinkering with something. She sidled up behind him before hugging him. "Hey," She said against his ear.
She heard him chuckle, "Nice to see you too,"
For a little while she just stood there, letting the 'nice' feeling wash over her for a while. This was good.
"You seem happier."
"Yeah? Well that's because you're here," She hugged him a little tighter to prove her point.
One day at a time.