My alarm went off informing me it was a start of a new day. For me however, it was just a really long continuation of the awkwardness yesterday night left off on.

I had zero sleep, zero answers to how the day would go or how Edward was after what went down last night and I had a full day of school to face.

I rolled out of bed, picking out an outfit to wear for school. I didn't care that my color choice didn't exactly match or that my shirt was wrinkled. I didn't even care that when I looked at myself in the mirror I looked like the walking dead with dark circles under my eyes and my hair a mess.

My main concern at the moment was to make sure Edward was okay, that we were okay.

My first half of classes went by in one long blur. I waited anxiously at lunch for Edward but he never came through the cafeteria doors.

Where is he?

I was on the verge of a panic when Alice appeared, a look of concern flashed on her face when she saw me. She slowly approached my table before quietly taking a seat.

"You look like hell Jazz, didn't you sleep?"

"Where is he?" I asked, ignoring her previous question.

Alice bit her bottom lip, hesitant to speak, so unlike her.

"Edward is here today; umm… he just wanted some time to himself for a bit. He decided to eat lunch elsewhere." She voiced carefully, trying not to upset me.

"Alice, what did you say to him last night?"

"I told you. I said I knew of you being gay and I would be fine if he was too and I would support and love him no matter what. He freaked out at first, denying everything…"

I felt a painful tug at my heart at the news and I tensed up.

"Then I found the soccer shorts, your soccer shorts." She stated, giving me a knowing look.

"I was more determined to get him to confess at that moment and maybe I was a little heavy on him but he needed a serious wake up call, you both did."

I let out an exhale of breath trying to calm my nerves.

"What happened after that Alice?"

"I asked Edward to explain the shorts, he tried to play it off at first saying he was thinking of trying out for the team but I know Edward, he is not a sports guy and I also knew they were your soccer shorts and I told him that. He got silent after that and then so did I. we just kind of stared at each other both knowing the truth behind the lies and I gave him a hug and then he said He had to get to bed. I'm sure he had a lot on his mind, and that was the end of it."

"Is he mad at me? Does he think I told you about him, is that why he is not here right now?" I asked eagerly.

"No, Jazz. I never led him to believe you said or knew anything. He knows I'm a naturally inquisitive, smart person. I think he just figured I found out or assumed, plus, the shorts were a good indication of Edward being gay. By the way, why did Edward have your shorts? I didn't realize things were so physical between you two."

"It's nothing, I have something of his and I gave him them to have something of mine. It was just a stupid, sentiment thing."

"Soccer shorts are sentiment?" Alice question, raising an eyebrow at me.

"Never mind Alice."

"Jazz, I don't mean to pry but… are you guys have sex?"

"Alice, come on." I voiced annoyed and clearly uncomfortable talking to her about my sexually adventures with her brother.

"I'm serious Jasper, are you guys having sex? I hope not. I mean…you two aren't even an official couple right? Don't you want to have it mean something when you have sex the first time? I just don't want Edward to lose his virginity only to regret something like that later down the road, you know?"

"Alice, please. I don't need a lecture right now. I know what you're saying, just don't go there, okay?" I warned.

She gave me a skeptical look but kept quiet.

"We haven't gotten that far and yes, sex should mean something when being had. Okay? I have no intentions of hurting Edward or myself."

"Okay, good to know."

The rest of lunch was quiet between Alice and me. I glanced out the window as it started to rain. It was dark and ugly outside. It looked absolutely miserable, much like how my day was going.