Edward was passed out draped over my body and I was a hot and sweaty mess. I was panting in need of relief as sweat rolled off forehead.

Between his hot body against mine, the covers and the lack of a/c flowing due to the power outage, I was burning up.

I carefully lifted Edward's arms off my stomach and toss the covers off me, heading to my bathroom with my cell phone in hand.

I left Alice a quick text to make sure she was alright and notify her Edward was at my house safe and sound.

It was still pouring outside, so I wasn't worried about Alice bursting through my bedroom door anytime soon to patch things up with Edward. However, it wasn't totally out of character for her to do something like that either.

Something told me with the way the weather was looking; it was going to be a long wet and rainy day.

For once, I was grateful for the nasty weather. It meant I would have more time with Edward without interruptions.

My parents weren't due home till hours later. Edward and I had the place to ourselves to do as we pleased.

I glanced over at Edward's sleeping form; he didn't look like he would be waking up anytime soon. I used the time to my advantage and took it upon myself to take a quick cold shower to cool my heated skin down.

Once I was refreshed, and clothed I grabbed a clean shirt and pair of pants from my dresser for Edward when he awoke.

It was starting to get dark outside; the daylight was slowly leaving my room. I went downstairs to the living room where we kept a china cabinet, which housed both expensive dishes as well as some candles. I grabbed a handful of them and a lighter placing a couple in the kitchen before making my way back to my room and lighting a few in there as well.

It wasn't long till Edward started to shift in my bed, becoming aware he was alone and before I knew it he's eyes blinked open and a look of confuse came across his face as he searched for me.

When his eyes met mine, his anxiety calmed and he sat up.

"What's going on?" He asked noticing the glow of the candles in my room.

"The powers still out and it's getting dark outside." I replied, as I lit the last candle before taking a seat on the edge of the bed.

"How long did I sleep for?" He asked, stretching his arms out.

"Not too long, an hour or so. Umm… I laid out a set of clothes for you over there, until your wet ones can be dried." I stated, pointing out the stack of clothing on the nightstand.

"Thanks." Edward lightly bushed remembering he was naked under the sheets.

He turned to his side and quickly slide the boxer shorts on but held off on putting anything else on for the time being. I could imagine he was probably a little overheated now himself.

"So… do you want to talk about it? I mean… why you felt the need to escape… to think?" I asked carefully, as I observed his body language not wanting to push Edward too hard or too fast.

He turned back to face me and sighed before running a hand through his ruffled hair to calm himself.

"Alice Knows… about me. She confronted me last night. I wasn't expecting it and it freaked me out. I wasn't ready to tell anyone about me yet. I mean… I was just realizing this about me and still trying to get comfortable about it and to have her flat out say she knew scared me.

I know Alice would never hurt me and tell people if I didn't want her to… it's just… I guess I was in denial about me… even though I jerked off to you that one time and never found girls appealing, I just I never added it all up, I never really thought about it.

Even when you asked if I was gay and even after everything we have done together, I just figured it was experimenting or just plain horniess, I guess it all never really clicked that I was really gay till Alice came out and said she knew about me.

It shocked and scared me how she could know this and I myself who is going through this didn't even know I was gay till I was told I was. I'm not even sure if that makes any sense?" He confessed.

"It makes perfect sense Edward. I know that feeling of being in denial and scared and questioning yourself and wondering how you never realized that you felt this way before. You're not alone. We all go through it one time or another."

Edward nodded but kept quiet as though he was thinking of something at that very moment.

"I hope you don't take this as I pushy question, but I need to know something, How do you feel about me… I mean the idea of us?"

"I like you jasper, very much but I'm not sure if I'm ready for anything more than what we have at the moment, to be honest." He replied, biting his lower lip in nervousness.

I felt the air leave my chest and pain replace it, I felt completely crushed in a matter of seconds.

"And what is it that you think we have?"

"Well… a friendship and….umm…other stuff." He struggled and turned bright red.

"You mean friends with benefits?"

"Well… yeah. Is that okay?" He asked unsure.

I'm sure my disappointment was showing through.

"Honestly Edward, I like you more than that and I want more than that. However, I rather have something than nothing with you. So if that's what it takes to be with you, then, I'll agree to it. But only if there is a possibility for us to be more one day."

"Ok."