I don't own Twilight. I would personally like to thank the person responsible for the HQ video of Isle Esme. "Don't take too long, Mrs. Cullen." Me = Dead
This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.
There will be alternate POV's every day. Jasper will be first and is much more talkative. Edward not so much….. for now.
Chapter 15 - Talk
J-
The roads out here are not paved and are pretty rough. Edward doesn't seem to mind as we bounce along. His hand is still in mine, and I slowly move so I can lace my fingers with his. He glances over briefly, before turning his face back to the road. The smile I got when I reached for his hand is still fixed on his face. Seeing him happy, makes me happy, too. I look down at his hand in mine. It's hard to tell where his starts and mine begins. His dad said he played the piano, and I can't help but long for him to play for me. His hands look like they would be perfect for it. I hate to think of what a summer of working at the farm will do to them. They're so soft and smooth right now. I'll have to make sure he wears gloves and doesn't do anything too strenuous. I don't want him hurt in any way.
I break my gaze from our hands and look to the road ahead. We're getting close to the turn off to the highway that will bring us into town and his house. I need to stop being a pussy and talk to him. I want to be honest with him. I don't think he would be upset with me for not knowing how to handle all of this. There's only one way to find out. Taking a deep breath, I start.
"Edward, I need to talk to you, and I'd like to get it all out before I lose my nerve."
"Go ahead, Jasper. I really want to hear what you have to say," he says as he squeezes my hand tight. It gives me the courage I need.
"I'm going to be honest with you. I have no idea what to make of this. Until this morning, I thought I was a straight guy who had just never found the right girl. Then you come walking into the barn and completely change my life."
I can tell he's looking at me from the corner of my eye. I need to get through this, and I don't think I can while driving. I slowly pull over to the side of the deserted road and put the truck in park. Keeping a hold of his hand, I turn toward him.
"Edward, I have never felt anything like this before. Have you? Do you know what this is?" I ask him hoping he knows what to do and really fucking hoping he's never felt like this about anyone else before.
"I've known I was gay for a very long time. I'm not surprised that I'm attracted to you, Jasper, because you're fucking gorgeous, but what I am surprised about is the intensity. I've never felt anything like this either." He seems scared, but determined as he tells me this. He's so brave and I wish I could be, too.
"I want to be with you more than anything, but I can't be an experiment or a fling. It would crush me if that's all you wanted from me. I don't think I can do this if that's all you want. I honestly have no problem taking things slow physically. Could we just try? Could you just give me a chance to be your friend and maybe eventually something more?"
I realize for all my determination to get this off my chest, I haven't said much. It's like Edward knew exactly what to say to make me okay with everything I'm feeling. I don't know what my family will say. I don't even want to think about what the guys working at the farm or at school will think. I know it won't be good. Sitting here with Edward, though, I know I don't care. Fuck them all. I'm not going to lose this before it even begins. I can't.
I slowly lean over and, with the hand that he's not holding, touch his cheek lightly. His little bit of scruff rubs against my hand, and I don't think I've ever felt anything more perfect in my life. I know I'm going to need to take this slow, but I can't help but bring my lips to where my hand was and kiss him. I love the feel of him on my lips. I know now, I won't be able to stand to be without it ever again.
E-
His blue eyes are so fucking beautiful staring into mine. My cheek is burning where is lips just left, and I know he's waiting to see my reaction. I'm so fucking proud of him for being so brave. He didn't know he was gay until he saw me? Damn, I didn't know I was that good. Spontaneously turning straight boys gay should be my new super power! No, I don't think it has anything to do with me. I think it has something to do with us. The connection between us is something special. Just his lips on my face has left me speechless. As long as he's serious about this, I am going to do everything I can to make him mine. First, though, I need to let him know he didn't cross any lines I'm not ready to drive over headfirst.
"That was the best kiss of my life, Jasper." His smile makes my heart stop. So fucking perfect.
Well, I hope it was everything you were hoping for. I know this might be going a bit slow in the lemon department, but believe me, they will come. (cough cough) I just felt like these two need to take their time. I won't make you wait too long, don't worry!
Please let me know what you think. If you have any advice, I would be happy to hear it.
See you tomorrow!