To: Livinitupjw
From: Soulfulbookgeek123
Subject: school, the kiss
Can we talk now?
I couldn't help but sigh as I read Edward's instant message. I wasn't sure if it was out of relief or stress. Maybe a little bit of both.
Apart of me was glad Edward didn't just do as I said and dropped the subject. It just showed how far he has come and the confidence he has gained.
Another part of me was a bit stressed he wanted to talk about it. I had a feeling this conversation would come up sooner or later and not end the way I wanted. I was avoiding it a bit. I knew it was wrong but I didn't want to hear those words come from Edward's lips, that he wanted to end things and have us just be friends.
I never felt so stuck on someone, so afraid to lose what I had or thought I had with someone, like I was with Edward. It was scary to think you knew yourself so well only to have someone come in your world and show you differently.
That's what Edward did to me. Not only did I find myself drawn to him but he made me questioned my life and the choices I made and about who I really was and who I wanted to be.
He was my mine in my eyes and I was his.
No one ever affected me, left such a huge impact in my life the way Edward did, I just worried the feeling was not mutual.
However, I had to face the music, sooner or later.
To: Soulfulbookgeek123
From: Livinitupjw
Subject: Okay
Why don't you come over? I don't want to talk about this over the computer.
To: Livinitupjw
From: Soulfulbookgeek123
Subject: RE: Okay
Ok, be there shortly.
I tried to keep myself calm before Edward came over, knowing just the sight of him would distract me, one word off his sweet lips both soothed me and excited me all at the same time.
It was difficult not knowing which way I would act around Edward, and for that, he was as dangerous for my being as I was for his.
My breath caught in my chest as I heard the sound of my bedroom door creak open and the sight of Edward walking through.
"So do you want a start or should I?" He asked nervously.
I patted a spot on my bed for him to join me. The old Edward, that would have been hesitate and question if he could trust me, was gone and now a confident Edward without a doubt in his mind, not waiting a moment, moved over to the opposite side of the bed and laid next to me.
I remained silent and leaned into him putting us chest to chest and catching him off guard. I wrapped an arm around his waist and rested my chin on his shoulder cuddling up against him.
Edward sighed in the embrace almost as if relieved and brought an arm to lay on my upper back before moving it to my hair, playing with the somewhat curly ends.
I felt at peace in Edward's hold. As if all was as it should be yet again.
His gently caress of his fingers in my hair comfort me to the point of having a hard time staying awake.
"I'm sorry." I muffled into his skin before sleep took over.
Note: Sorry for the wait, updates will probably be longer apart now. I have another story I'm working on, well fixing at the moment in order to TRY and get published. I hoping I can. So my off time will go to that story before this one. Thanks for reading and leave some reviews. ;)