I don't own Twilight. I am getting excited to go see Twilight on Tuesday. New BD scene with Rob playing the piano? Yes, please!

This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.

There will be alternate POV's every day. Jasper will be first and is much more talkative. Edward not so much….. for now.

Chapter 20 - Nickname

J-

Edward, I want all my firsts to be with you, too. I've kissed a few girls, but they really don't count since it was very awkward and definitely disgusting. I want you to be my first real kiss, my first real everything. -J

Edward saying he wanted all his firsts to be with me made me so fucking happy. I know he's been aware of his sexuality for a while, so I've been trying not to think about how experienced he was. I don't begrudge him any men he was with before he even met me, but it's still hard to take. That jealous part of me I didn't know existed growls at the thought of anyone even thinking about touching him. I don't want to embarrass him by asking for details, but it sounds like he isn't too far ahead of me with the physical stuff. Of course all of my limited experience has been with girls. They were soft and smelled liked flowers. They wore nasty lip gloss and giggled. I understand now why that never got me excited or kept my interest. I want a nice, tall, hard body. I need big hands that feel right in mine. I want to hear a deep voice that sends chills down my back. Edward had all those things and more. He is what I want without a doubt.

My phone beeps at me with Edward's reply.

I'm so glad you feel that way, too. I know this is new and scary for you, baby, but we'll go slow. We have all summer in that hot barn to figure things out! ;) btw, what does LOYL stand for in my contacts list? - E

I'm glad he doesn't mind going slow. Although, after our conversation tonight, I don't know if I'm going to be capable of not grabbing him and kissing the hell out him the moment he steps in the barn tomorrow morning. I don't want to rush into anything, but I think we've established that we both want more out of this than just cheap thrills. Will kissing a guy be different then kissing a girl? What if I'm terrible at it? I just need to figure out how to please him.

I look down at my phone and smile as I type an answer to the question he asked.

LOYL means Love Of Your Life. I hope you don't mind me saying that. I was just being stupid. You can change it if you want to. - J

Maybe it was too soon to write something like that, but I've been going with my heart and not my head all day. Hopefully my luck will hold out. With him putting "YOURS" as his name, I don't think I was too far off the mark.

This is just so exciting. All these new feelings rushing through me have me so wound up. I know I won't be able to sleep tonight. It's like a whole new world has been opened up, and I'm afraid if I close my eyes it will all disappear. I wasn't unhappy before, but I have never felt this kind of joy before today. Before Edward.

I check the new message from him with my breath held.

I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. LOYL sums up what you mean to me very nicely. I did kind of have a nickname in my head for you, but I think I'll just keep that one to myself. - yours

I let out the breath I was holding with relief and laugh. A nickname for me already? Oh, I have got to know what it is.

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E-

Love Of Your Life? Wow, I could not have picked a better name for him. I can't believe he might be feeling for me what I feel for him. My face is hurting because I can't stop smiling. Best day ever!

I was going to replace LOYL with Fuck Hot Farm Boy or FHFB, but I think I'll keep that one to myself. Maybe I shouldn't have mentioned that I have nickname for him in my head. After reading his reply, now I know I shouldn't have mentioned it.

Baby, tell me what my nickname is. Please…. I'm begging you here. I'm just in my boxers, on my knees, begging for you to tell me. I'll do anything you ask….

Oh hell, I can't take him begging me. I imagine he's got those fuckable lips all pouting. Damn, I wish I could be in his room right now. I bet he could get it out of me for sure if I was.

Sorry, but you're going to have to do better than that to get it out of me. Think you could find some way to convince me?

Looking at the clock I see it's gotten pretty late. The morning is going to come fast, and I'll need my rest so I can do a good job. I send him another quick text.

Jasper, I think I better get to bed. I don't want to be too tired when I show up for work in the morning. I can't wait to see you. Just being near you makes me so happy, even if I am getting all hot and sweaty. Hmmm, I like the sound of getting all hot and sweaty with you! - E

8 AM can't come fast enough.

I think the boys have really established a nice foundation. Now we'll just have to see if they can work together and not get distracted. :)

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