I don't own Twilight. Rob talking about thrusting and wearing a G-string that was too small for him was not good for my heart. OMFG!

This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.

There will be alternate POV's every day. Jasper will be first and is much more talkative, but Edward is starting to talk a bit more!

Chapter 25 - Freak

J-

He's here. He's finally here and is right behind me. I can feel his eyes on me and a shiver runs through my body. How can it always feel this amazing when he's near me? If I had any reservations about this before, they're all gone now. Nothing that makes me feel this happy, this blissful, can be wrong. I'm meant to be with Edward.

I know not everyone will understand it. I think my parents will be cool, because they'll just want me to be with someone that treats me right and loves me. So what, if that happens to be with Edward and not Alice, or Bella, or one of the other girls in this town?

It's not that the people around here are stupid or cruel. I think living in the Midwest just makes us all a bit more conservative. People are just scared of the unknown and seeing two men together is not something you see here everyday. I wish things could be different, but for now, we're going to have to keep this a secret. That means we're going to have to be smart about this and not let our dicks do all of our thinking for us. It would be so easy to just let myself be dazzled by Edward and forget what we have to lose. I'm going to have to be strong and try to keep my hands to myself while we're here at work. Not that I won't try and sneak a little from time to time, but I can't allow us to get carried away. Anyone could walk in that barn at any time during the day. I don't care so much what they'd think about me, but I can't let Edward be hurt.

I walk in the barn and turn to watch Edward walk as he follows me in. Why does he have to look so damn beautiful? Hair, jaw, hands, body, all just like they were made for me. It's like he came into my life right when I needed him most. Who knows how long I would have went without knowing my true self. Would I have buckled under the pressure and actually gotten married? Had kids? Just thinking about that life scare the hell out of me, because I know deep down I would have never been happy. I would have been miserable and always missing something. Now I have that something right here in front of me.

"Well Edward, welcome to Cullen Farm. This lovely structure will be where you'll be spending the majority of your time this summer. I can tell you're impressed." I laugh seeing the look on his face. I can tell Edward isn't used to getting dirty and definitely not used to being in old, smelly barns like this. He looks to damn cute with his nose all wrinkled up like that.

"This is quite a place you've got here, Jasper. How old is it?" It's kind of cool he wants to know about the farm. I kind of makes me fall even harder for him.

"Well, this used to be my grandpa's farm before he died and left it to my dad. He was born and raised here. I guess this old barn has been here since the beginning. We've had make upgrades of course and had to do a lot of repairs, but I don't think my dad would everbe able to tear it down and build all new."

Edward has his hands in his jeans and is looking all around. It's fascinating to watch him while he takes it all in. I'm sure this is quite a shock compared to what he was used to in Chicago. I hope he doesn't get bored of all this quick. I hope he doesn't get bored with me quick.

I don't want things to get awkward, but can feel that they are. It's like we don't know how to act around each other. Everything was so easy on the phone, but now that he's here and we have to keep our distance, I realize just how hard that's going to be . I know we're here to work, so we're just going to have to figure out how to do that without things getting weird. I can feel the tension and know I'm going to have to do something about it or we aren't going to get anything done today.

"Well, this is the main floor. Horse stalls and hay storage are over there, and we store some of the heavy equipment in here from time to time." He's nodding that he understands me. I know he'll pick all this up fast.

"Why don't I take you up to the loft and show you around." I give him a meaningful look, and I can tell he's trying not to smile.

"Sure, Jasper. I would love to see what goes on up there." Damn him. Why does he have to be so fucking sexy?

I walk over to the ladder that leads up to the loft and gesture with my hand toward it.

"Go ahead on up. I follow behind you."

"Okay. You won't be checking out my ass will you?" He winks and starts up the ladder. I follow him up with my eyes and groan. That ass is fucking perfection.

It's hard to climb this thing when you're hard as steel.

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E-

I get to the top of the ladder pretty quickly. I have definitely lived a sheltered life after seeing the conditions Jasper has had to work in all these years. I feel like such a pussy standing here. I'm not afraid to work hard or get dirty, I just have never really had to before. In Chicago, Dad was always at work late or away or business trips. That left my mom to raise me. I have such a strong bond with her, and she only ever wanted what was best for me. So while other boys were out playing football or building tree houses with their dads on the weekends, I was home with mom, playing the piano, and helping her bake. So really it's his fault I'm not manly enough for him. He's the reason I don't play sports or know how to do anything mechanical. God, I feel like such a loser.

Jasper gets to the top and swings his leg over. He sees my face, and I know he can tell something is upsetting me. The connection we have is too strong for him not to notice.

He walks me over to the far corner of the loft. There's a huge opening at the front of the barn I'm sure they use to load hay in through, but we're backed far enough away from it so no one can see us.

"Gorgeous, what's wrong? Did I say something to upset you?" The look of concern and worry on his face breaks my heart. It shows me just how much he really cares for me.

"No, Jasper. I was just thinking about my dad. I can't help but wonder how different I would have turned out if I had a dad who loved me and was around to show me things when I was growing up. Maybe if he was, I wouldn't have turned into the freak I am. Your dad is so great. You're lucky to have him."

Jasper's face is not the loving, caring one I'm expecting when I look up.

He walks forward and traps me against the side of the loft with one arm on either side of my head. Our chests are touching and he's looking at me like he's livid.

"Don't fucking call yourself that, Edward. I mean it. You're absolutely perfect." His jaw is tight as he says this, and he's almost growling at me. I don't know whether to be scared of him or turned the fuck on. I think I'll go with turned the fuck on. My cock agrees with me.

"But Jasper, …"

I'm cut off before I can finish my sentence as he leans in toward me even closer. Our whole bodies are pressed together, and it's quite obvious he's just as excited to be near me as I am him. God, he's so hard. I have to stop myself from rubbing up against him while he's talking to me.

"Edward, you are not a freak. You're an amazing person who just had the bad luck of having an asshole for a dad. Please don't let him make you think you can't do this. You're going to surprise him and everybody else this summer."

He smiles at me then, and I can't help but lean up the few inches he is above me and lightly kiss his lips. Even as chaste as this first kiss is, it sends waves of pleasure throughout my entire body. His lips were made to be on mine.

Jasper gasps and I pull back before he has a chance to get too upset with me for kissing him. Maybe I shouldn't have done that here. I know he said he wanted to kiss me, but maybe he wasn't really ready for it.

I start to slide away to put some distance between us, when his hands move down quickly from their place on the wall behind me and hold me still at my waist. He brings me right back in front of him and our cocks are once again aligned. Heaven.

"Where do you think you're going? You think you can tease me with that little kiss and get away with it?"

Oh hell, I'm in so much trouble. The look in Jasper's eyes is almost feral as he takes one of the hands from my waist and threads it into the hair at the back of my neck and pulls me closer. As I look up into his eyes, I know this is going to be the kiss I've been waiting for.

Sorry to stop it there! I hate that Edward feels so bad about himself. I'm hoping Jasper can give him some confidence and help him see there is nothing wrong with him. I want "I hate Ed. Sr." T-shirts made!

I had a review that pointed out that this isn't really a drabble fic anymore. I can't say that I disagree with them! haha It just seems like I sit down and can't stop writing. I wanted to get your opinion on whether or not you want me to go back to the shorter more drabble length chapters or not. I will be happy to try and make these updates shorter if that's what you all prefer. Just let me know!

Thanks to Newton's Outficcers and ArcadianMaggie for including Hard Labor in the October Slash Round-Up!Welcome new readers! :)

See you tomorrow!