Hey I am sorry you guys if I Bugged ye by ending it so…….abruptly! Lol. Ill end it better this time I swear:) Glad ya liked it and hope ya enjoy this one as much! Talk 2 ya:) :)
"You hit Sirius…..I saw you James." Lily said gently half into the pillow. James who had his head in his hands looked up suddenly looking shaken.
"I know…..I don't know what is happening to me Lils…."
"You need help James. All the stress of work is making you become somebody that you are not." Lily raised herself up a little on the bed. She supported her head with her hand as James slowly walked over to her. He sat on the bed with his back to her as he said……
"Lily I am so sorry……I could never forgive myself if I had acted on impulse. You have to believe that." He turned around to look at her. She smiled meekly as she said……
"I do believe you James but I…..I can't be around you right now. You are becoming this monster that I know you are not. I want the real James back……my James…..the one who made me fall in love with him. He is gone."
"He can come back Lily….."James replied despondently. Lily wiped a few stray tears away saying….
"I know….but he isn't here now. You need to decide what is more important to you James. This stupid promotion that is tearing your family apart or being here with us like you used always be."
"Lily this promotion is big…..it's huge in fact. I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I might actually be awarded this…..head auror in the department of defence. My father always wanted that but…..he never achieved it….."
"James what is so important about being head auror? You always said that your one true ambition was to train young witches and wizards in the way of the light….."
"Ah Lily…..this is huge! Can you not see that? It means more money, more responsibility….."
"More hours and more aggression from you too James! Can you not see that it is affecting your personality too? You snap at me without reason and you never apologise for it! It's as though you are giving yourself permission to……"
"Look……I am sorry Lily alright but with this promotion I am able to keep watch over Peter……"
"What….how can you….."
"The department is tailing his every move okay? He appears to be spending a great deal of time in the dark forest…..but then he suddenly goes out of reach so we think that it has something to do with Voldemort….."
"Why didn't you tell me that is what you were doing?"
"I…..well….."
"You see that is the thing James….this promotion is changing you completely. You are even keeping secrets from me now……."
"I'm keeping secrets? What about you?" James said aggressively standing up.
"WHAT ABOUT ME? I HAVE KEPT NO SECRETS FROM YOU!"
"OH REALLY WELL ABOUT SIRIUS? HOW LONG HAVE YOUR MORNING RENDEVOUS BEING GOING ON FOR?"
"YOU ARE UNREAL JAMES POTTER! YOU ARE ACTUALLY GOING TO STAND THERE AND ACCUSE ME OF HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND? HARRYS GODFATHER….HOW DARE YOU!"
"WELL YOU LOOKED MIGHTY CONTENT IN HIS ARMS LILS……THAT'S ALL I AM SAYING."
"You have reached rock bottom James. You are seriously paranoid. Get help and then we can talk." Lily who was kneeling on the bed got off it and headed towards the door. James was standing in front of it and he pulled her back saying…..
"Oh no you don't!" He pushed her on top of the bed. She stared at him in horror and he stared back at her in disgust. He walked over to her saying….
"Lily I am so sorry darling…."
"GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE JAMES!" He stared at her with pleading eyes saying…..
"No…..Lily please…..don't do this to us babe….."
"I haven't done anything to us James. You have….."
"But I love you….."
"Actions speak louder than words James. You have shown the complete opposite to me for the past few weeks and I have had enough. I want you to leave now James…."
"But Lils….."
"If you love me you will honour my request James." She replied coldly staring at the floor. James looked at her remorsefully, nodded his head and left.
Arielle was in the kitchen when James arrived down. He smiled at her but she stared maliciously at him.
"Hey princess….."
"Don't you princess me dad. I saw what you did to Sirius….."
"Did he tell you?" James asked gently.
"No….he covered for you saying that he bashed into a door but the only pragmatic issue with that is….I heard you two shouting and then I heard a thud which I assume was Sirius falling to the floor."
"Oh baby I am so sorry okay? I just lost my cool……"James said bending down to her.
"Dad you never ever would hit anybody if you lost your cool. Especially Sirius……you nearly hit mom too this morning….I heard everything."
"Arielle sweetheart…..I have just been under a lot of pressure at work lately……"
"Do I look like I care? Dad there are a lot of people who are under pressure at work but they don't go around using people as punch bags!" James stood up looking annoyed with his daughter.
"Oh go on then am I next?"
"I would never hit you…."
"Oh but its okay to hit mom and Sirius?"
"I never hit your mother!"
"You came close enough to it as far as I can see dad….."
"Arielle I have to go alright?" James went to the door but Arielle turned around saying…..
"Doesn't the fact that you didn't hit mom and me tell you something? You know it's wrong to hit women but you also that you need help. Dad please come back to us. We all know you can. We need you….please don't leave."
"I will never leave you darling."
"You already have. You better get back to work before they get worried." She said as she turned her back on him. James stared at her in agony. He had let his family down. But he knew that he had to so something drastic before he lost them for good. Taking another glance at his daughter he left.
"How are you feeling now Sirius?" Shari asked sitting down beside him. Sirius had an ice pack against his nose. He smiled at her as he took it down saying……
"Ya I'm alright darling…" The blood started running down again.
"Oops here show me…."In her hand she had a tissue with something in it. She dabbed it against his nose.
"There that should do it but you better put the ice pack up again in case it swells." He smiled at her as he said……."Thank you Shars….."
"No problem Sirius." She smirked at him before Sirius kissed her gently but passionately. Then there was a knock on the door which their moment. Sirius sighed before going to answer it. He pulled it open to find James standing there.
"Alright?" Sirius asked emotionless.
"No not really mate. Can I come in?"
"Alright come on then." Sirius replied coldly stepping aside for James to enter. He smiled a little at Sirius but it wasn't returned.
"Hey Shari…."
"Hey James…..Look Ill leave you guys to it." Sirius smiled blandly at her as she left.
"So eh…..how's the nose?"
"It's alright. Surprisingly enough still in one piece after the knock you gave it."
"Ya…..sorry about that." Sirius smiled forcedly at him before gesturing him to sit down.
"So…..what brings you here anyway James? I would have thought I was the last person you wanted to see since I am supposed to be screwing your wife!"
"Ah Sirius mate I was just pissed off then. I wasn't mad at you or Lily or Arielle come to think of it….I was annoyed with me. I cannot believe that I actually have reached this…..level. the level where I become an abusive husband and negligent father…..I hate who I am but I just cant explain what comes over me…."
"James you are stressed. You are so stressed and obsessed with work that you have lost track of the important things like friends and family. I have seen plenty good men go down that route and never return. That is why I will be damned before I let that happen to you."
"You are going to help me after everything I have said and done?"
"I am helping my best friend and his family. I am not helping the neurotic moron sitting in front of me! First though you have to help me understand why this promotion is so god damn important."
"There are certain aurors at the ministry who are keeping track on Peter. They offered me the position if head auror because of our history…."
"Okay so basically Wormtail is being…..well tailed but why is it so important to you? I mean correct me if I am wrong but maybe this aggression that you are feeling towards Lily and me has something to do with….him? Is he close to Hogwarts?"
"He takes refuge in the dark forest a lot ya but he ends up somewhere on the far side of London. We are trying to track down that exact location….."
"All this stress, all this aggression……it is affecting you James. You need to get out of it before you change all sense of propriety. If you stay there you will lose your family and then you will hate yourself for letting that foul git ruin everything you love!"
"I know Sirius but…..it means I keep Harry safe."
"James mate you haven't spoken to your son for close to a month. He is pretty pissed at you right now so take my advice and bail in order to save your family while you still can."
"My family hate me Sirius….."
"No they don't James. They are all scared for you. They hate who you have transformed to over night but…..they love you….even Harry."
"I don't know about Harry mate….."
"Ah James come on will ya? Get a grip kid! Harry idolises you. Why do you think he is annoyed with you right now?"
"……Because I let him down…."
"It is because he cares James. If it didn't bother him you not turning up to his game or you not returning his calls so to speak…..he wouldn't behave like this. Ill admit that it wont be easy trying to get him round but ask yourself this. Do you think it will get any easier of you let it go longer?"
"No…."
"Well then……you know what you have to do mate. Resign from your promotion at the ministry and resolve your differences with your son."
Well was that a better ending? Lol. Okay well this is quite possibly gona be the last chapter before I go on holidays next week! I gota go to a match tomorrow and organise things today so…..Ill start posting chaps again Sunday week. Okay? Talk 2 ya:)