I don't own Twilight. Rob looked yummy all in black on Fallon last night. In the US, one week from today BD will be upon us. I'm just praying they give us all what we want.

This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.

There will be alternate POV's every day. Jasper will be first and is much more talkative, but Edward is starting to talk a bit more!

Reviewer of the day goes to….. maryhell who said, "Loved the chapter - it will be interesting to see how Rose takes rejection, that could be dangerous too. I find it interesting that in most stories Rose is a bit like Marmite, you either love her or hate her. The voice has got to be Jake's, or someone we haven't heard of yet - possibly James." Marmite comment cracked me up, and I loved your thoughts on Rose. So very true. You were also the only one who wasn't 100% convinced it was Jacob's voice. James is a very interesting idea….

Chapter 30 - Shattered

J-

Watching Edward take his shirt off and wipe the sweat from his face with it, is so fucking hot. I'm glad he isn't still worried about what I think of his body. Sexy does not even begin to cover what I'm currently looking at.

He makes a crack about himself, but I barely hear it. He may still have a few issues, but I'm going to work very hard making him understand just how desirable he is. It would be my pleasure actually.

He's still laughing, and I'm about to walk over there and give his mouth something better to do when I hear her.

"Damn, would you look at that. I sure picked the right time to come to the barn for a visit."

Oh, shit. Please no. Please not right now. She could ruin everything.

We both turn toward the door and watch her walk in. Small and thin wearing a pair of barely there cut offs and a tank top. She always dresses like this when she comes to the farm. I didn't mind so much before, but now I see just how desperate it is.

I walk forward a bit trying like hell to figure out a way to get out of this situation without it hurting Edward. I hear him behind me hastily putting his shirt back on.

"You don't have to put that back on on my account. I was enjoying the view." She giggles at her joke. Do all girls look this ridiculous when they try to flirt?

"I'm Alice, by the way. You must be the new guy everyone is talking about. Well, don't let my boyfriend work you too hard."

FUCK!

Alice walks up to me and wraps her arms around my waste. That's about as high as she can reach.

I hear Edward gasp behind me, and I know she's just fucked everything up. I can hear the pain in his voice, and it almost kills me.

"Well, I'm going to get back to work. I'll let you two talk. It was nice meeting you, Alice."

I try to get him to look at me, but his eyes are on the floor again. He's back to insecure Edward, and it kills me that I'm the reason for it.

He walks away leaving me with Alice still clinging to my side. Would it be wrong to shove her as hard as I could away from me?

"Nice to meet you too, Edward! I'm sure I'll see you all the time out here this summer."

Alice is her normal, bubbly self. She has no idea what she's done.

I have to be smart about this. I can't do anything that would raise her suspicions and make her think anything is going on.

"Alice, what are you doing out here? And I don't recall me agreeing to be your boyfriend in all the years that I've known you."

"Oh Jazzy, stop being silly. You know it's just a matter of time until we're together officially. We make the perfect couple. I know it, and of course my mom and your mom know it. You're the only one holding us up."

She's all smiles. She thinks she's being cute.

I can see Edward over in the corner stacking bales quickly. His face is wet and I'm really hoping it's sweat and not tears.

"Alice, I told you no, and I meant it. We're just better as friends. We tried going out a couple of times and it didn't work. Please stop telling people we're together when we're not."

"Okay, be stubborn. Think about all the fun we had after the Prom last year. Wouldn't you want to have that all the time?"

She's trying to be sexy, but it's not working. All I can think about is Edward over there having to hear this shit. I need to get her out of here right now so I can talk to my boy.

"Alice, I don't have time to argue with you about this again. I need to get back to work and help Edward."

I turn and walk away fast before she can grab hold of me again.

"I'll be back soon. Call me when you want to go out again."

I don't even acknowledge her. I just keep walking toward Edward and hope like I hell I can fix this.

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E-

So this is what it feels like to have your heart broken. I guess I've never let myself get too close to anyone for this very reason. When you have a dad that breaks your heart on a daily basis, you can't allow yourself to open up to someone else who might hurt it. I made a very big mistake, and now I'm paying for it dearly.

My chest hurts so bad it feels like I'm having a heart attack. I'm trying to keep my breathing steady and cry silently, but it's so hard. The lump in my throat won't go away no matter how many times I try and swallow it down.

I can hear them talking. I can see her hands still on him. They look so good together. They look like they've known each other their whole lives. I can't compete with that. I never even had a chance, did I?

I try and tune them out, but I hear her comment about Prom. I didn't think I could hurt any more, but I was wrong. I knew that Jasper had messed around with a couple of girls before he even knew me. I guess I just didn't expect to actually have to see them. The thoughts burning in my head of them together are driving me crazy. I have to stop. I have to go to the place I go when dad is yelling at me. That's my safe place where I don't feel any of the pain.

I keep working and that helps, too. I don't hear him at all until I feel his hands on my arms stopping me from moving.

"Edward! What the fuck! I've been trying to talk to you. I've been saying your name."

"Sorry, Jasper. I didn't hear you. I'm just trying to get this done so I can head out. I'm kind of tired, and it's been a long day."

I walk out of his grip and start in on another bale. He can feel him behind me staring. I'm sure he's just embarrassed that he got caught. I don't want to make him uncomfortable.

"I guess it's getting close to quitting time anyway. Is it okay if we just finish this up tomorrow? I think I need to get home." I don't mean for my voice to break, but of course it does.

I need to get out of this barn right now.

I don't wait for his answer. I just start walking as quickly as I can for the door. If I can just make it to my car before I break down, everything will be okay.

Please don't hate me! You know the one good thing about this story? You'll get an update again tomorrow! :)

Should Jasper let him go and cool off a bit before he tries to talk to him, or should he try and stop him before he leaves? I'd love to hear what you think would be best for the boys.

See you tomorrow!