I don't own Twilight. I really enjoyed watching Kristen's imitation of Rob looking in the mirror. I would enjoy seeing that face in my mirror any time!
This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.
There will be alternate POV's every day. Jasper will be first and is much more talkative, but Edward is starting to talk a bit more!
Reviewer of the day goes to….. MacGyverTape who said, "WHAT THE HELL, HOTNESS. WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST ROLL YOUR EYES AT ALICE AND SHRUG HER OFF? WENCH!" LOL She wrote more than that, but you get the idea. A lot of you felt the same way, and you didn't want Jasper to let Edward leave. Did you really think he would? :)
Chapter 33 - Listening
J-
He's walking away from me so fast. I can't let him leave. I can't let him think the things I know he's thinking without at least trying to make him understand.
"Edward, please…" I didn't know it until I spoke that I was crying. My voice is so broken.
He must hear the pain, because he stops before he can get to the door. He doesn't turn around, but at least he didn't ignore me and just keep walking.
"Please baby. Please let me explain. I know this seems terrible, but if I mean anything to you, just let me tell you my side. Let me tell you the truth."
His back is shuddering, and I tell he's crying. He takes a couple of deep breaths and wipes his face with his shirt. I'm surprised when he turns around and walks right past me to the ladder going up to the hayloft. He starts to climb, and I get my legs moving and follow him.
When I reach the top, he's already over in the corner farthest from the wide opening in the front of the barn. He's sitting with his knees up and his head buried down behind them.
If I wasn't crying before, I am now.
I want to feel hurt that he would think I would lie to him like that. Did he really believe I would hide a girlfriend from him? I want to be mad, but I can't. We've only met yesterday for fucks sake. He doesn't really know me. All we know is that we feel this incredible connection to each other. I have to make him see that I would never hurt him like that. I'm not that kind of man.
I start toward him slowly. He looks up at me, and he's not crying now, but instead I'm looking at an Edward whose not really here. When I was trying to get him to listen to me downstairs, he had the same look on his face. He was like stone. He had no emotion on his face at all. It was fucking scary to think he could just shut down like that.
It scares the hell out of me that he's being forced to be like this now. I need to get him to really listen to me.
When I reach him, I get down on my knees right in front of him. I grab his hands that are draped over his knees, and I bring them up to my lips and kiss them all over while I repeat his name. I don't quit until he finally stops looking past me and finally looks me in the eyes.
"Jasper? Is what she said true?"
"No baby, it's not. Alice is not my girlfriend. She never has been and she never fucking will be."
Please let him believe me. I keep talking because I know it's up to me to fix this.
"Edward, Alice has wanted me for as long as I can remember. Our families are close and we grew up together. Her mom and mine would always tease how we would get married someday and raise our family here on the farm. I didn't take them seriously. Alice did."
I can tell I'm losing him again. He's in pain hearing this, but I have to make him see the whole picture.
"Baby, I have never wanted that. She wants that. I've told her since 6th grade that I wasn't interested, but she's fucking psycho!"
The look on his face changes a little. Where it was stone before, it looks like he's relaxed just a bit. And is that a smirk I see slowly appearing?
"She is, Edward. I swear! She's a total nut job. I didn't even want to go to Prom at all, but my mom made me take her. Then the fucking little wacko attacked me when I dropped her off at house after. It was a complete and total nightmare. I told my mom to never even think about making me go out with her again."
I keep searching his face the entire time I'm rambling, and I'm not disappointed. I can tell that he's listening to me and thank goodness believing me. I'm actually getting a small smile from him now. I keep talking.
"She comes around here at least once a week dressed like a slut. I swear she gives Rose a run for her money. I know she's had offers from other guys, but she just won't leave me alone. I try to be nice to her because my mom would kill me if I wasn't, but damn the girl needs to get the fuck over it."
"What would she do if the next time she came over I grabbed you by the back of your hair and shoved my tongue down your throat? Would that convince her that you're not interested?"
I bust out laughing and lean over him so he's forced to put his knees down. I slowly lower myself on top of him and grab his beautiful face in my hands.
"I would fucking get down on my knees and suck your cock so she'd get the picture, gorgeous. Like I told you, I belong to you."
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E-
I want to believe him so fucking bad. I have no reason to think he would keep Alice from me like that. I was just so scared. Maybe I overreacted a tad bit. I've been known to do that.
It feels so good to have his weight on top of me. It's like I'm not whole unless we're touching. I have to give him a chance. I can't lose what we've just found because of my insecurities.
"Jasper, I'm so sorry I overrated. I should have given you a chance to explain and not jumped to the worst conclusion. I was just so scared that she was telling the truth. I don't know if my heart can take it if I'm just some experiment for you while you keep your girlfriend on the side."
He's shaking his head back and forth while I'm talking. His eyes are wide and I can tell that's not what I am to him.
"No, Edward. I would never do that to you. You are not an experiment. I told you it never felt right when a girl would try and kiss me. I thought it was just because they were like sisters to me. When Alice jumped me, I honestly thought I was going to get sick. It was like I was kissing Rose."
He has the funniest grossed out look on his face talking about it.
I have to ask him the next question just to be sure. Just so I can relax and not worry about girls in short little cut-offs coming on to him.
"Jasper, do you really think you're gay?"
"I know I'm gay, Edward. I had no idea that was why none of these girls ever did anything for me, but now I know that's why. You are the only one I've ever felt like this about."
Thank fuck!
"I can't tell you how glad I am to hear you say that, Jasper. I know all this is new to you, and I just want you to be sure that this is the right choice for you. I don't want you to feel pressured into doing anything."
"This is new, but I'm not worried at all. It's like my whole life has fallen into place. I don't know if I can explain it properly to you. I was lost before yesterday, Edward, and I didn't even know it. I didn't realize that there was a feeling like this out there. You are what I want. Not other guys and definintly not any women. You."
I smile up at him and pull him down even closer to me.
"Kiss me, Jasper. Make me yours."
He doesn't hesitate.
His mouth is on mine in an instant, and I revel at the feel of it. He's being so soft and gentle, just nipping at my lips and then soothing them with his tongue.
I groan when I feel his tongue asking permission to enter my mouth. Like he even has to ask.
I open up to him, and bring my tongue to meet his. These kisses are the best we've shared yet. They're so soft and erotic. There's no hurry. Just both of us taking our time and loving each other.
We're both breathing heavy, and Jasper pulls back a bit to get some breath. I didn't even notice that my hands are clutching his tight ass. I give him a squeeze and he moans as he leans down to capture my neck with his mouth.
He's starting to lose a bit of his control. I can tell he wants to mark me, but he's afraid to.
"Go ahead, baby. Let everyone know I'm yours."
"Fuck, Edward. You can't say shit like that to me. I want to so bad, but I can't send you home with marks on you. I won't give your dad any reason for not letting you come out here."
He's so smart. Dad would freak out.
Talk of my father kind of cools things off. We're just staring at each other now not wanting for this moment to end.
"I will never betray you Edward. Promise me if you hear something or even think something you're not happy about, you'll give me a chance to explain. I know how bad that looked with what Alice said so I don't blame you a bit for getting upset, but please don't ever run away from me."
"I promise, baby. I will try not to overreact and think the worse. I'm just so used to things not going my way."
Now that everything is okay, I can't help but have a bit of fun with him.
"But just imagine Jasper, if a friend of mine from Chicago came to visit and walked up and put his arms around me. What if he told you he was my boyfriend? What would you do then?"
Oh hell. Maybe I shouldn't have done that. If he thinks I reacted badly to Alice, that's got nothing on the look he's giving me right now.
"I would tell that fucker to get in his car and take his ass to back Chicago. I would remove his hands from what is mine, and if he still doesn't take the hint, I would…."
I don't give him a chance to finish. I reach up and pull his lips to mine. He's desperate for me and there is honestly not a better feeling in the world than to be underneath him when he's out of control like this.
I pull away from him with a little effort and try and soothe him.
"Baby, that won't happen so don't worry."
He moans as he lays his head down on my shoulder. He's still holding me so tightly, like he's afraid I'll leave him.
"You and me, Edward. We aren't going to let Alice, your dad, this farm, Jacob, or anything get in between us. Promise me."
"I promise, Jasper. We are going to be together and nothing is going to stop us."
I truly believe that.
Now if we could just get all these other people to leave us the hell alone!
Don't you agree? The boys deserve some time without all the drama. Let's hope they get it. haha
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See you tomorrow!