I wake up with a small figure sitting at the other end of my room. I raise my head and a shocking headache hits me. I groan and the figure jumps up. It comes closer to me, somewhat cautiously, and I croak "who is it?" She steps a bit closer so I can see her face and my headache increases as I frown.

"Nymphadora?"

Her mouth forms into a quick pout at the mention of her proper name, but then she nods soberly.

"Sirius" I know I shouldn't put all the weight of my worries o this 14 year old but the words escape before I can stop them.

"Azkaban. For life."

I have only seen Tonks a few times, so it takes me time to notice that she is pale and her eyes are a deep, bottomless black and her hair is a mousy brown grey colour and waist length.

It worries me to see her in such a state. I imagine in what state I must be now.

"Dumbledore mustn't know I was here." Tonks whispers. "He won't tell me anything and I need to know." She pauses "I have to get Sirius out of there".

I look at her, confused.

"He's my cousin and he's innocent."

"I'm really sorry, I'd love to help you, but there's not much I can do and I'm not in a state for anything right now". I want to slap the wimpy, 'sensible' boy inside me that had just said those things.

Tonks' eyes turned into a cold, crystal blue.

"if you weren't so damn right pitiful right now and one of Sirius's best friends I'd have hexed you so you'd never be able to open those soft lips of yours again!" she pelted at me.

I feel angry at her as she storms out the room but then it disappears. She's a teenager at her toughest time of life and her favourite and probably closest cousin had just been thrown into jail.

I try to get up and again my head prevents me from it.

I curse and feel for my wand, finding it in my jeans pocket.

I take it out and do a small clever charm James and Sirius made for me on our third year to stop the headaches I had after full moon. My head clears but the intense pain fills my chest again as I think of them.

They met on their first day on the train and both of them became friends instantly. Even as Peter joined their group, and shortly afterwards I, they stayed together. Both were terribly bright and I have never seen anyone with their motivation. True, they also acted stupidly sometimes and had very crazy ideas most of the times, but their loyalty and great friendship made up for it all.

Loyalty.

My trail of thought is going round in circles…