I don't own Twilight. I knew this was going to happen. I'm going through Rob withdrawal. It is nice seeing him going in and out of Kristen's apartment, but then I feel guilty for looking at the pictures! haha
This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.
There will be alternate POV's every day. Jasper will be first and is much more talkative, but Edward is starting to talk a bit more!
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Chapter 49 - Ruined
J-
Lube? Where can I buy some and how fast can I get it here? These are the questions running through my mind after Edward's attempt to put me in my grave with his comment.
Doesn't the boy know I need some time to recover after that orgasm?
"I'll get some, baby. You're going to have to show me what to do, but I really want to try that with you."
He leans up and captures my lips in a slow, but very tender kiss. He pulls away and lays his head back on the grass. He is so fucking beautiful laying underneath me, sated, and happy. I want this look on his face all the time.
"Jasper, I have a small bottle for my own personal use, but I don't think it will last long for what I had in mind for us."
I just laugh and shake my head at him. Of course, he would have a bottle of lube.
"You just had to say that to tease me, didn't you? Now I'll be thinking about you using that lube on your cock."
"Well, that was the idea. And wait, didn't you say that it was your cock?"
He winks at me and leans up for another chaste kiss.
"That's right it is, but I'm yours too, gorgeous. You know that, right? All of this has been amazing, but that's not all I want from you, Edward."
I want him to understand that this isn't going to be anything close to casual for me. I want him badly, but that is only secondary to my need to love him.
"I know, Jasper. I feel the same way. I know I've been pushing you this week, and you've been doing to great. It's been amazing, but your body is not all I want. I want this and most importantly this."
He reaches up and touches my head, and then runs his hand down to rub against my chest where my heart is.
"It's yours, baby. You already have it. I love you so fucking much, Edward."
"Well, then you might feel a small bit of just how much I love you then."
He's teasing me, or at least he better be. I know for a fact I love him irrationally, but maybe he loves me just as much.
I really want to believe that.
"Very funny, love. Don't go comparing my feelings for you, because you will lose."
He laughs and shakes his head at me.
"Let's get back to the house and see what kind of trouble we can get into there."
I stand up and pull him along with me. Our clothes are still on the ground beside us so we get dressed, and start back around the pond.
It's starting to get really hot, and I'd love to get my boy in there to do a little swimming, but we'll have to do that another day. It can't hurt to see if he's be receptive to the idea, though.
"Hey, baby. How about next time we come out here we do a little skinny dipping? Have you ever done that before, Edward?"
His steps falter as he looks over at me and then to the cool, clear water in the pond. I can tell he's thinking about giving it a try right now.
"I would really like that, Jasper. No, I've never been before. Have you?"
"Just once, and it wasn't a very nice experience. It was just us guys, but somehow Alice and Bella found out what we were doing and they tried to join us. I put a stop to it before they could undress and get in. The guys weren't happy with me, but I just knew what would happen if Alice was anywhere near me naked."
I distinctly hear a low growl coming from Edward, and I grab his hand to calm him down.
I know she's going to be a touchy subject to him, but he might as well get used to her since she's in our class at school. There aren't enough kids that go there, so we would never be able to avoid her completely. We're just going to have a figure out a strategy. Good thing we have a couple of months before school starts, because I have no idea how we're going to handle her.
"So she's always been a whore then? She and Rose should start up a club at school: Future Whores of America."
That cracked me the fuck up, and I had to stop walking to catch my breath. I wonder if he knows I'm a member of Future Farmers of America (FFA). I doubt they had that club at his school in Chicago.
"I like that, baby. The FWA. They could be the founding members. We should make them shirts or something."
Now we're both giggling up a storm. We get to the Mule, and I try to calm down a bit so I can drive back. I love being able to laugh like this with him. I would never be this comfortable around a girl.
Holding his hand as we drive back, we continue to laugh and talk about the kids in our class at school. I try and give him the lowdown on all of them so he'll be prepared.
I tell him that Emmett is great and so is Peter, even if I was irrationally jealous of him. Edward just rolls his eyes at that.
I tell him about some of the nice girls in our class like Angela. Not every girl here is a slut or a conniving whore.
I was going to to tell him about Bella, but I didn't want to get into that since we were almost up to the house. That conversation is going to take some time.
As we pull up, I see a car parked near the garage that I don't recognize. I don't really think anything about it, until I feel Edward pull his hand away from mine suddenly and see him scoot as far away from me as he can.
What the fuck?
Then I realize who is here.
His dad.
.
E-
Oh, fuck!
Why is he here? I texted mom last night and told her what I was doing. We were in by curfew. What did I do wrong?
I hate having to pull away from Jasper when all I want is his strength and comfort right now.
When we get closer to the house, I can see dad talking to Carlisle.
"Baby, don't panic. It's going to be okay."
I can't say anything, but I nod my head letting him know I heard him and appreciate him trying to reassure me. My stomach is in knots as we pull up close to where they're talking, and Jasper turns off the engine.
"There they are. I was just telling Edward's dad that you two were taking a tour of the farm. He was worried when he couldn't get you to answer your phone, Edward."
Shit, my phone!
I look at Carlisle's face, and I can tell he's trying to make this as light and as pleasant as it can be. He's smiling, but I can tell it's forced. He doesn't like my dad any more than Jasper does.
"Oh, sorry. I guess I wasn't thinking and left my phone in the pocket of the jeans I wore yesterday."
I hope he doesn't throw a fit in front of Jasper and Carlisle. I'm sure he's pissed he had to drive all the way out here.
"Well Edward, once again you show just how responsible you are. You are never going to be ready for life after you get out of high school. You can't even remember your Goddamn phone!"
His voices raises at the end and he's pretty much screaming at me. All of us just stand there in shock. Why did this have to happen on this perfect day?
"Dad, I'm really sorry. It was a mistake. I won't let it happen again."
He doesn't even to seem to hear me. He just keeps going with his tirade.
"Your mother was worried sick. She hadn't heard from you since yesterday. Of course, she would be worried about her little boy. I think even she knows you can't take care of yourself."
I can feel Jasper step forward, and I know he's about to either go off on my dad or punch him in the face. As much as I'd love to see that, I know I can't let it happen.
"Well, here I am safe and sound. Does mom want me to come home now? I'll just go inside and get my clothes."
I start heading for the back door as quickly as I can. I really wanted to spend the day out here with Jasper, but I know now that won't be a possibility.
Just another time in my life that he's ruined something for me. Another time when I felt just a moment of joy, before he stepped in and stomped it away.
I hear him yelling from behind me, and I try not to listen. I try to block him out, but he's so loud in my head.
"Yeah, you need to come home right now. I'm sure there's something more productive you could be doing with your day than wasting it with your new friend."
I cringe as I walk up the steps and open the door. I know he doesn't suspect anything about me being gay, because if he did, I wouldn't have a place to live right now. It still makes my stomach drop when he talks about Jasper. I don't want him to even think his name.
I'm half-way up the stairs before I hear footsteps behind me. I know who's they are.
When I get in his room, I don't even stop and turn around. I hear the door shut and lock, but I just busy myself gathering all my clothes and stuff. I feel his hands on me as he stops me from frantically roaming the room for items I might have missed.
I can't look up at him. I know if I do, I'll lose it, and I want so bad to not let Jasper see how much this is effecting me. I don't want his pity.
"Baby, please stop. Stop."
He puts his warm hand on either side of my face and forces me to look at him. The moment I see the sadness in his ice blue eyes, I break down.
I lean into him as he pulls me into his arms. I try not to get his shirt wet with my tears, but he doesn't seem to mind.
When I've calmed down a bit, he loosens his hold on me and tilts my head up with is fingers.
"Edward, I love you. You are so loved, baby. Don't let him get to you. Don't you dare believe anything he says to you!"
I know he's getting upset, too. I hear his voice crack and see the wetness in his eyes.
I need to put on the brave face or I know Jasper isn't going to let me go, and that will only cause more trouble.
"You're right, baby. I won't listen to him. I love you so much. I need to get back down there, though. I'll call you tonight, okay?"
I know he doesn't want to let me go, but he eventually does. I lean up and peck his lips and then turn for the door.
No more tears….. no more tears….
I can't let either of them see me weak. Jasper, because he'll do something stupid, and my dad because he'll just enjoy it. He always loves it when he can make me cry.
I want Jasper to stay in the house, but I know that's not going to happen. He's right on my heals as I open the door and head back outside.
Back to him.
Why did asshole have to show up and ruin their perfect day? Hate him! Do you think Jasper will be able to control his temper when they get back out there? How about Carlisle?
I'm so glad you all liked my attempt at writing a 69! I was so worried about it, and you all were nothing but kind and supportive. Thank you!
See you tomorrow!