I don't own Twilight. I hate that it gets dark at 6:00 now. I think I'm tired of winter already. :( Well, at least I have the boys to cheer me up! haha
This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.
There will be alternate POV's every day. They are both pretty damn talkative now!
Reviewer of the day goes to…. kirifox who said, "Jacob has no idea how close he came to death! Gay 101! LOL! Teach that boy, Edward!" Oh, I think Edward is going to have a lot of fun teaching Jasper. That is if he doesn't die of embarrassment first! lol
Chapter 54 - Preferences
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I'm glad I didn't go after Jacob. I know that Edward can take care of himself, but it's so hard to just stand by and let him. I really need to work on that.
I guess today was a good first step.
What if I hadn't driven by? Edward would have just told him no, and he would have left. No big deal, right?
I'm going to have to learn that I have BOYfriend who is perfectly capable of handling things himself. Now, we just have to worry about if Jacob will keep his mouth shut about Edward being gay.
Edward didn't admit anything to him, but Jacob seemed pretty confident in his assumptions. I really don't think he will say anything, because that would open things up about his sexuality. I had no idea he was gay until he started hitting on Edward, and I'm damn sure nobody else around here knows it. That news would have spread fast. I'm sure he'll keep quiet about everything.
Sitting here laughing with Edward is the last thing I thought would happen after the afternoon we've just had. I love the sound of his laugh so damn much.
Challenges like this are just going to make us a stronger couple, and that makes me so happy. I know we're young, but I know we can do this and make it last.
"Agreed. We can go out to a club, and if some big, beefy top comes up and tries to dance with me, you can beat him up and I won't say a word."
Beefy top? What the hell does that mean? Who the fuck would be trying to come up and dance with my boy? I don't like the sound of these "tops" at all, but what or who the fuck are they?
"Top?"
Edward starts to laugh again, but sobers up real fast when he can see I'm completely serious. I don't like the sound of this at all. Who would be trying to take Edward away from me?
"You really don't know what a Top is, Jasper?"
"No, I don't. And I really don't like the fact that you know what they are and you expect one of them to ask you to dance!"
I'm trying not to get upset, but I really hate to feel stupid. I guess I should have known I would have a lot to learn about this new life I'm entering.
"Hey, I'm sorry. I kind of forget you're new to all of this. You've just been kind of of a natural at everything."
He winks at me and rubs his hand up and down my arm. That makes me feel better.
"I'm just being touchy about everything. Sorry, baby. So what is it anyway?"
"Well, I know you realize how gay sex works, right? There's one that's a giver, a Top, and then there is a taker, or Bottom."
I sit there for a minute and think about that.
"So are you saying that one of us is the guy and the other will be the girl?"
"Well, kind of. One of us is going to have to Bottom. That doesn't mean act like a girl or even take on those characteristics. It's just a matter of semantics."
I guess he's right. I'm not so naive that I don't understand how sex between us would work, but I just had never heard those terms before. I wonder which one Edward is going to be more comfortable with. Should I ask him?
He's looking at me and smiling. I'm sure I've got a look of great concentration on my face. He's given me a lot to thing about, damn it!
"Jasper, in case you're wondering which I think I'd prefer, I actually think I'm a bottom."
I breath a sigh of relief, because I think I would definitely be more comfortable being a Top.
"Are you sure, baby? Would you really be comfortable with that?"
I don't want him to agree to something because he thinks that's what I want to hear. I want us both to be happy with how we do this.
"Yes, I'm sure. I've had a lot longer to think about this than you have, Jasper. It's just something that I've always kind of known about myself. Not that I would be opposed to switching from time to time."
He is smiling wide at me, and I think I can figure out what switching means.
"I don't think I would mind that either, baby, but I do think I would most comfortable being a Top."
"Good! Then it's just like I thought. We're perfect for each other!"
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I was so relieved to hear that Jasper would be more comfortable topping. I mean, of course, I've thought of both scenarios but being a bottom always just felt right for me.
I may be wrong, but that's the good thing about both of us being new to all this. We'll have a whole lot of fun experimenting.
"We are perfect for each other, baby. And I don't want you to think I wan't to have sex right away. I mean I totally do, but I'll wait until you're ready."
He's so damn sweet. He wants to wait until I'm ready? I don't know if he'll want to hear this, but I'm ready right the fuck now.
I know this is new to him, so I'm not going to push, though.
"We're just going to go with what feels good, Jasper. We've already learned so much about each other this week. I have a feeling when it's time, we'll know it."
He moves his hand from mine, and puts it up on my shoulder. I try to not flinch, but he notices right away.
"Baby, what the hell is wrong? Did your dad hurt you?"
He's angry again. Damn, sunburn.
"No, I just got a little too much sun mowing the grass. It's not big deal."
"I hate that fucker for making you do all of his work around the house. Why didn't you wear sunblock, baby?"
"I forgot, and I didn't want to go back inside to get it. It's fine, Jasper. Don't worry. It will all be worth it when I get to see you again tomorrow."
He smiles at that and returns his hand to mine.
"When you come out to the house, maybe I'll give you a massage with some cool lotion to make you feel better."
"Oh, I definitely like the sound of that."
Just the thought of his hands oiled up and all over me, is making for a very uncomfortable situation in my jeans.
"Maybe I can turn you over and use my hands to really make you feel good, gorgeous."
"Jasper, stop. I can't take you talking to me like that. I'm about to take my cock out and give you quite a show."
He moans and his eyes have zeroed in on my very noticeable erection.
Damn, I want to be alone with him right the fuck now, but I know we're going to have to wait until tomorrow.
"I've got to get back. I know dad has probably woke up by now. Mom is telling him she sent me out to the store, but he's not going to buy that if I'm gone for too long. I don't want him mad at her."
"I understand, baby. I don't want that either. Go, and text me as soon as you know if you can come over. I fucking hate that he's making you work all day today."
"It's okay. I don't mind as long as I get to see you tomorrow instead of having to wait until Monday."
"Fuck, I want to kiss you so bad right now. I love you."
"I love you too, Jasper."
Letting go of his hand was a lot harder than I thought it would be, but I do it.
On the way home, I smile as I think about our conversation. So my man thinks he's a Top, huh? Well, we'll just have to see about that.
I think I have a lot of lessons to teach my new student on what it's like being gay.
I think my first one will be how he can put those very long fingers to good use.
You all pretty much called it when you said that Jasper was a natural Top! I think these two are going to have fun learning together. Think Edward should invite Jasper over to his house for some high speed internet porn viewing? That could be fun! lol
Blame my daughter for this getting to you this late. She made me watch a show on TLC about 30 year old virgins! I could not stop watching! I couldn't help thinking of our virgin boys. I guarentee they will not make it to 30 still virgins. They probably won't make it to 18 if I have anything to say about it! ;)
See you tomorrow!