A/N: There's a LONG Author's Note at the end that I'd like for you all to read when you finish this chapter.

Chapter 32: True Feelings Revealed

(KATNISS POV)

I walked into the bedroom and crashed. We finally finished the entire underground world of District Fourteen and I was EXHAUSTED! Maegan had us working triple over time to get everything done because the more time we spent above ground, the more at risk we were of getting discovered, though they probably knew we were here.

"Melody and Prim came by tonight for a few minutes to see Milo," Cato said looking over at me. "Neither could believe how big he's gotten in a week."

"I can't either," I smiled at him. "He's gotten more fat on his bones and it starting to look less and less like the boney excuses for babies from District Twelve."

We ended our conversation with that and went to sleep.

Every night from that point on, Cato went to work, brought home dinner, feed Milo, and talk to me before we went to bed. Our conversations mostly consisted of what we did during the night, who came by, if I went above ground and if I did then what I did above ground while someone watched Milo.

Milo was four months old when a knock at our door changed up our normal bedtime routine.

"Katniss," I heard the very faint voice of Peeta say.

"Hey," I said smiling when I opened the door. "What's up?"

"I need some advice."

"Why don't we go to your place because Milo and Cato are sleeping and I don't want to wake either of them up."

He nodded and we walked to his place. The walked was short, but seemed long because of the dark hallways. One of these days, we would have to put something in these halls so they didn't seem so scary.

"Peeta," a little girl said stopping him. "Mommy was wondering if you could help us try to fix up the house a little because it's a dark and kinda scary."

"Tell your mom that I'll help as soon as I finish talking to Katniss," he smiled.

The little girl smiled and ran back inside. I was confused, but realized that she looked a lot like District Twelve's girl tribute from a few years ago. Looking at Peeta, he looked down.

"District Twelve's girl tribute from the Sixty-Ninth Games, Rose, and the boy tribute from the Sixty-Eighth Games, Jack, were in love so when they reunited here they had that little girl. They knew how much I loved you so they had Emily help me find a girl here that could get you off of my mind, only problem is that she's got a crush on me and tried to keep me away from everyone," Peeta shrugged.

"Ok," I said closing his door. "Explain your situation and I'll give the best advice I can, but remember that I'm not that good at helping people."

"Emily was sick so I explored the island one day and met a girl that made me forget about you, until you were on television," he sighed. "I've really grown to like her and I was going to ask her out, but you came here that same day. I want to be with her because I know you're with Cato, but I can't get you out of my head. I wished every minute that I would see you again, but it's so hard now because I love two different people."

"I wanted you back for the longest time," I said looking down. "I cried at night because I didn't realize you were telling me to shoot his hand and I caused you to die. I wanted to tell you sorry, to tell you that I wasn't really in love with Cato. As time went by, I grew to like Cato because he wasn't the monster we met in the games. I told myself that I wasn't acting and I really loved him, finally realizing one day that I didn't have to tell myself to love him. When I found out I was pregnant with Milo, I was terrified for his life. Originally, he was going to be named after the first love of my life because he was killed, only he wasn't. I've never stopped loving you, but I'm married so I have to forget about the love for you still in my heart except for friendship. I wish things could be different, but you can't change the past. Besides, I love my son and I wouldn't change anything that's happened in my life because I wouldn't have had him. Basically, I'm telling you that even though you still love me, get together with Clove and try to forget about your feelings for me because you're hurting yourself and her by not letting me go."

"Thanks," He said giving me a half smile.

"When your heart is hers, you'll feel so much better that you went after her and didn't waste your time running after something that would never happen," I said walking out of him place and walking back home.

I held back the tears that wanted to fall. I loved Peeta, but I was with Cato. I told Clove to go after Peeta because I didn't love him, but I was lying to both of us. Cato was Milo's father, not Peeta. Cato was the man who had been by my side since the games, not Peeta. Cato didn't force me to have sex with him or hurt me. He loved me and just wanted me to be happy. I needed to clear my head. I needed a night to just sit out under the stars and sort everything out.

"Where were you," I heard Cato ask when I walked in.

"Peeta's place," I said letting the tears fall. "He needed advice, which I gave him, but it caused my heart to break into a million pieces because it brought back the feelings I had pushed aside."

(CATO POV)

I felt like a total jerk. She was just trying to help and I was basically yelling at her. All she wanted to do was help and I hurt her.

"I'm so sorry Kat," I said hugging her.

"It's not you," she cried into my chest. "It's everything. I love you, but I love Peeta still. I shoved those feelings aside because he was dead and I was yours and I was having OUR baby, but now he's alive and here."

"Tomorrow night you can go above ground and I'll watch Milo," I said. "You need a night to forget and clear you head. If you come back tomorrow night and want to be with him then I'll let you go, no fighting or guilt tripping you."

"But if I choose him over you then you won't be in Milo's life and he needs you just as much as he needs me because Peeta will never be his father," She said a little too loudly and waking up Milo.

"Go to bed and I'll be there as soon as I get Milo back to sleep," I said letting go of her.

"I'll do it," She said without saying another word and walking into his room.

(KATNISS POV)

I looked at Milo and started crying harder. He was so beautiful and my decision would effect him too.

"I love you," I said picking him up and rocking him in my arms. "I know I haven't been around too much at bed time, but I love you and will always be your mommy, so don't ever forget that baby."

As I calmed down, so did he. I walked around the room thinking about why I loved Cato for a while. When I looked down, Milo was fast asleep in my arms. His sleeping form made me realize who I really loved. The true love of my life was probably in bed sleeping, but I had to tell him. I put Milo down and ran out of his room. Was it wrong to wake him, yes, but I had to tell him that I loved him.

A/N: March 5, my uncle came to me in a dream. I told him I was sorry that I didn't tell him good night and he told me he loved me and that he said goodbye to me before he passed. I knew I was dreaming and told him I was going to wake up bawling. He looked just as I remember him, happy and healthy. I told my parents and I shed a happy tear. I know it was hard on his son, my mom, and my dad, but it was super hard on me because he was like another dad and best friend rolled into one to me. The nights of March 14 and March 15, my Uncle visited me again. The first night he jokingly teased me and the second he just hugged me, which isn't much, yet it meant the world to me.

On March 17, 2013 at 1:32 PM, a guest by the name of Ellie reviewed Chapter 31 of this story. Her review said "Ellie:Your work is amazing! Read this all in less than an hour, couldn't stop it was just too good. Please, please get a book published!" Now, I don't know about you, but this is the best review I could have ever received. I appreciate all the reviews I've ever gotten, but I was honored when I read that Ellie was telling me to get book published because I'm not all that good at writing...