There were a lot of celebrations that night. After thirty years of having to pretend to be something he wasn't Regulus could now finally just be the man that he wanted to be. He had now found true happiness and hoped it would never end. Having his brother back in his life meant the world to Sirius and Harry knew this. However, they still hadn't finished their conversation from earlier. There was another person that he wished to talk to and that was Dumbledore. Before he left Harry requested five minutes with him. They headed outside where it was quieter.

"Professor, Sirius told me that there was going to be members from the order around Hogwarts this year. Do you really believe that things could get worse?"

"Harry you have been through a lot in your life already. I don't want to cause you anymore anxiety but….yes it's likely that there will come a time when Voldemort will regain power…."

"Will regain? So you don't believe that my dreams are just co – incidences?"

"No. But I also don't believe that you should spend any amount of time worrying about them." He added seeing the anxious look on Harry's face.

"Whatever happens will happen but to worry about the future when it is uncertain to us all is pointless."

"There are some things though that are inevitable….things that are meant to happen." Harry replied with a small, sad smile.

"Everything happens for a reason Harry. If I feel that there is something you absolutely need to know then I will tell you but right now all I ask is that you trust me, the order and most important of all Harry….trust your family. You are surrounded by strong, powerful and extremely talented witches and wizards. That if nothing else

is a certainty." He winked at him as he patted him on the shoulder.

Harry gave him a small smile which he reciprocated.

"I best be off now Harry. If I don't see you before the start of term….enjoy the rest of your summer."

"Ok thank you Professor." Within seconds he was gone. Harry sat down on the bench and pondered on his conversation with his head master. He was soon interrupted though by Sirius coming outside for a smoke. He smiled seeing Harry and shouted…

"Hey I was wondering where you got to." Harry looked up and said sternly.

"Well now you know Sirius."

Sirius puffed his cigarette, exhaled, quirked an eyebrow and asked….

"Is there something wrong Harry?"

"No why would there be?"

"Oh no reason." Sirius answered coolly as he tossed his butt away and headed back into the house. As he put his hand on the handle Harry called out.

"No Sirius wait…..please?" He asked with pity in his eyes.

Sirius sighed sadly as he walked over to him and sat down on the bench with him.

"Hey Prongslet…..what's the matter?"

"I'm scared…." He whimpered as he bent forwards so that his head was bowed.

Sirius smiled sadly at his back as he began massaging it in circles.

"What are you scared of Harry?"

"….of me…."

Sirius stopped rubbing his back, frowned and asked as Harry sat up properly.

"I'm sorry Harry I don't think I quite understand….."

"It feels like my life is slowly but surely slipping more and more out of my control everyday. There was a time when all I would have to worry about is beating you in a game of Quiddtich……" Sirius smirked nostalgically at this.

"Well Harry sometimes things change kid. If everything stayed the same forever we would all die of pure boredom. Variety is the spice of life."

Harry bent forwards again as he said….

"There is too much variety for my liking Sirius." Sirius looked back at him anxiously. Harry stood up and started walking the length of the table, back and forth.

"Every morning I wake up now…..I have seen something different and most of the time it comes true….."

"Harry listen to me….." Sirius ushered gently.

"I am afraid to go to sleep Sirius for fear of what I might see."

Sirius smiled sadly at his godson who was near tears. He stood up and held out his arms saying….."Come here…."

"No Sirius. One hug is not going to make it all better."

"Well then tell me what will Harry."

"I don't know….." He wiped away a couple tears that were threatening to stream down his face, sniffed, sighed deeply and turned his back on Sirius.

"Harry you cant keep letting Voldemort into your mind like this. He drove people insane before…." Harry turned around abruptly and asked sharply…..

"Oh so now you think that I am going insane? Oh well cheers for that Sirius! Do you think that I want this? Do you think that I am enjoying it? I don't want to be like this Sirius. I don't want to be scared or edgy or angry…..I just want to be happy. Is that asking for too much?"

"No of course not…..but I don't know what I can say or do to make you happy anymore Harry. When you were a kid it was easy you know? I could take you for a ride on my broomstick, fly you 10,000 feet up in the air and watch your mother scream at me in panic….." They both laughed a little at this. Sirius walked over to Harry and placed his hands on his arms, looked him firmly in the eyes and said…

"The things that upset you now are a lot more serious Harry. A simple game of Quiddtich or a broomstick ride isn't going to make everything all better. However, occlumency can. I strongly suggest that you give it another go Harry. If you don't at least try to master it with Remus then its like old Voldie has won before he has even started."

"I think that I want to be on my own for a little while Sirius."

Sirius backed away and said firmly…."No."

"What do you mean no?" Harry asked irritably.

"No means no Harry. I am not leaving you alone when you are in this state."

"Wow it's really warm in there. Oh sorry was I interrupting something?"

"No its fine Regulus. Sirius and I are finished." Harry said starring at Sirius firmly.

He then goes into in his own house. Sirius calls out but to no avail.

Sirius rolled his head around and sighed. He looks over at Regulus who offers him a small smile.

"I would sooner take another smoke."

Regulus half laughs as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his packet.

"You know too many of them are bad for your health……."

"Just give the damn smoke Reg would ya please and save me the flaming lecture!"

He hands Sirius the cigarette and lighter.

"Thanks." He mutters as he hands him back the lighter.

Sirius goes and leans over the balcony and Regulus follows. There is silence between them for a couple of minutes until Regulus breaks it.

"So what is the score between you and Harry? It all looked pretty intense from where I was standing…."

"Yeah….I suggested that he give occlumency another go but with Remus this time but he is having none of it."

"How come?"

Sirius jerks his head to the side after he exhales and bluntly replies….

"He is a scared kid Regulus. James and Lily….they are the best parents you know? Remus…..well Remus is pretty much the counsellor for this family but me? I am supposed to be his godfather. I am supposed to be there for him in a way that the others can't be but sometimes…..I don't know….its like we split…." He shakes his head and takes another puff of his cigarette.

"Well what was your relationship like when he was growing up?"

"It was good. It was fun. We had so much fun Reg. You wouldn't believe some of the things we would get up to….." Sirius replied smiling nostalgically

"Actually….I would. You could always have fun Sirius no matter how intense things became. You were always the one that people looked up to in a crisis to lighten the mood. Maybe now that's the problem though. Before you had no responsibilities but now…..now you have a wife and kids and Harry. Maybe for you no amount of pranks or laughter can lighten the mood hence why you can't do it for Harry. We all know that one day he will return, you know it, I know it, they know it and Harry knows it. He needs you to be the fun adult in his life. The godfather who can make it all better but you can't Sirius. Not this time anyway. Kids feed off their parents emotions. Harry feeds of what Lily and James feel so he goes to you for some comfort but doesn't get it because you feel the same way that they do. You are all worried for the welfare of this family and the world. We all know that this time it's going to be different. Things are going to be different. This time Voldemort knows more than he did last time. He knows that the prophecy was right about Harry. He also knows that not only can Harry vanquish him but that he alone can return him to power. He will be after Harry solely and that is why you can't offer him any soft place to land Sirius because you are terrified at the prospect of losing him. But Harry has the right to know Sirius."

Sirius who was still leaning over the balcony starring at Regulus for a right angle with his cigarette hanging from his mouth, spat it out and stood upright, looked around to make sure they were alone as he said in a quiet voice….

"He is James and Lily's son Regulus. He is not mine. We promised that we wouldn't tell him until we absolutely had to. So don't you come over here throwing your weight around telling me that you know how to raise a child or what is best for Harry because you don't. I promised Harry from day one to protect him and that is exactly what I intend to do. Even if it means dying for him this time."

"What do you mean this time?" Regulus asked anxiously. Sirius looked at him but then focused on the sky so Regulus pressed him until he confessed.

"Sirius? Sirius? What do you mean this time?" Sirius still looking at the sky slowly said….

When Harry was three Malfoy captured me and tortured me to the point of death because I wouldn't tell him where we lived; if it wasn't for their house elf….Dobby….

I would probably be dead."

"So that's your solution is it? Die instead of telling him the truth?"

"That kid has been through enough….." Sirius said gently. Regulus, who was standing a distance away from him, approached him saying matter of factly….

"That kid Sirius still has more ahead of him. Whatever he has already faced…. What lies ahead doesn't even come close. He needs stability Sirius. He needs reassurance that no matter what happens….his family will be his soft place to land and not his mirror to the horrors of the future. Sirius, you are so much stronger than I am. I know that you can be what Harry needs you to be."

"I am not going to lie to him and pretend like the inevitable is not going to happen."

"That is not what I am asking of you and nor is Harry. He has had so many dark incidents in his life over the last few years Sirius you know that. Voldemort is not back yet so why are you acting as though he is? Harry had an amazing childhood….filled with joy and love…..and you knew back then that one day he would have to face Voldemort but that didn't stop you from having some fun so why should it now? Okay fine….things are getting a little more serious now but what's life without fun? Instead of being anxious all the time why don't you try to revert back to the old days Sir? You might find that you too could do with a bit of fun."

Sirius looked at his brother who offered him a warm smile. Sirius reciprocated it and decided to take heed of his younger brother's words who for once actually made sense. Regulus bid Sirius a good night and left him to his thoughts.

Well how was it? Let me know what you thought anyway! Talk to you later!!