I don't own Twilight. I had a very nice day at home today playing the new Zelda game. Yes, I'm a nerd. I don't really try to hide it. lol

This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.

There will be alternate POV's every day. They are both pretty damn talkative now!

Reviewer of the day goes to…. shenoahdesigns who said, "Jasper's channeling Rocky! Except Adrienne is Edward. Loving me some Jasper in this chapter! I too wish Jake would've gotten punched." Yo, Edward! LOL Wow, that kind of makes me want to write a boxing story about E and J. :)

Chapter 75 - Understanding

J-

That motherfucker.

I honestly don't know what I would have done if I'd gotten my hands on Jacob. The pure rage that was inside of me was actually scary.

Who talks to someone like that? I mean who the hell gave him the right to speak to Edward that way? I've know Jake for a lot of years, and I've never seen him act this way toward anyone else.

I know that Edward is gorgeous. There's no denying it, but how does that give him the right to talk to him like he's just a piece of meat? I know that can't be how all gay men act.

Maybe just the assholes.

I'm still fuming as we follow dad into the house. I can tell Edward is nervous, and fuck so am I! This is my dad we're about to talk to, and I have no idea what he's going to say. Did he hear what Jacob said to Edward?

Does he know about us?

I brush the back of my hand on his as we walk down the hallway by the kitchen. I need him to know that it's going to be okay. I don't know what dad is going to say, but I trust him to love me no matter what.

When mom sees us walking by the kitchen, she smiles wide and waves.

"Hey, Edward! What's your favorite color?"

Well, that's random.

We both stop walking and look at her like she's crazy.

"What? I want to know!" She's put her hands on her hips, so I know she means business. He might as well tell her because she won't let it go until he does.

"Um, my favorite color is blue."

He glances over at me, and I can see him paying close attention to my eyes. That right there makes me very fucking happy.

"Great! Thanks, Edward."

She grabs some samples she got from hardware store and rushes into the spare bedroom.

I think my mom has officially lost it.

"Boys, come in here please."

I wish there was a way to keep Edward from having to go through this with me, but dad didn't ask for just me. He wanted both of us.

Walking in his office, he shuts the door behind us and walks around to sit in the chair behind his desk.

"Take a seat."

There are two nice comfortable chairs that mom's put in here in case dad has any business meetings. I really don't feel like sitting down at the moment. I'm still wired from almost punching Jake's face until there was nothing left. Damn, why couldn't dad have waited five minutes to come up to the barn?

I sit down anyways, because from the look on his face, I can tell he's not messing around.

"Boys, can you tell me exactly what happened just now? I want to know why I just stopped you from almost hitting an employee, Jasper."

"Mr. Cullen, please don't be angry with Jasper. He was just defending me. He didn't start anything."

Dad finally breaks the no nonsense look on his face, and smirks at Edward.

"Mr. Cullen is it now? Do you think you're in trouble, Edward?"

Edward just shakes his head no, and looks down at his lap. I can see this is just how he would act if his dad was yelling at him, and I want dad to stop making him feel like that.

"Stop it! Stop making him feel like he did anything wrong! He's the innocent one in this. Jake came on to him and said some very disgusting things that made Edward uncomfortable. I was the one who lost their temper. I'm the one who wanted to hit Jacob, and I still fucking do!"

The room is completely silent after my outburst. I know I shouldn't have raised my voice to my dad, but I couldn't help it. Why does it feel like everyone is fucking against us?

"Jasper, I heard what Jacob said to Edward. I just wanted your version of the events. I in no way think Edward is at fault in any of this. You on the other hand, I do have a problem with."

Edward's head turns to me quickly, and I can tell he's about ready to defend me, but I shake my head at him.

I know the feeling of wanting to protect the one you love, but dad isn't going to listen to anyone but me explain this.

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E-

As glad as I am that Carlisle isn't mad at me, I'm terrified that he's going to punish Jasper over this. It's fucking Jake's fault!

Watching Carlisle talk calmly and think things through before he speaks, just shows me what a fucking loser my dad is. He would have already been in my face screaming about what had happened. Of course, it would have been my fault somehow that douche bag harassed me.

I watch as the two Cullen men stare at each other, and feel like I'm intruding, but Carlisle told me to come in here, so I don't move.

"Dad, I'm sorry for raising my voice at you, and I'm sorry I lost my temper in the barn. I know not to throw a punch unless it's in defense, but I just kind of got carried away. The things he was saying, dad, were just vile."

"I totally agree with you, Jasper, that's why I'm not more angry than I am, but you can't let him get to you like that. Do you have any idea what his dad would do to you if you touched his little boy? He wouldn't be able to sue you because you're a minor, but he sure as hell could sue me and the farm since he's an employee. How much do you think we'd have left when he got through with us? Do you want us to lose the farm?"

I look over and see Jasper's eyes tearing up, and I want to hold him so Goddamn bad. My leg is bouncing up and down, and I'm biting my lip.

"I'm so sorry, dad. I wasn't thinking." That's all Jasper can get out before his voice breaks, and he puts his face in his hands. I start to get up, but Carlisle is there before I can.

He has his arms around him, and pulls him into a hug.

"Jasper, stop. It's okay. I just wanted you to realize how important it is for you to control your temper when it comes to Edward. We had this talk before his dad was here for supper, and obviously Jacob is trying to be a problem as well. You're going to have a lot of challenges ahead of you in life, son, but I know your going to make me proud with the way you handle them."

I'm crying a bit now too watching them, but I notice the office door open a small bit behind where Jasper and Carlisle are. Looking closely, I see Esme motioning me out of the room.

Quietly, I get up and walk toward her. When I get in the hallway, she shuts the door and envelopes me in a big hug.

"Edward, what's going on? I heard Jasper yelling. What the hell did Jacob say to you, sweetie?"

I just shake my head on her shoulder, and she holds me tighter. I don't know how it is I feel safe being held by her small petite body, but I do. I know I can't repeat to her what Jacob said to me. I'd be so embarrassed for her to hear.

She pulls back and wipes the tears I didn't even realized I had shed from my face.

"It's okay. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but you have to know that Carlisle isn't mad at you or Jasper."

"I know, but Jasper almost hit Jacob, Esme, and he could have gotten you in a lot of trouble with Jacob's dad all because of me. I'm not good for anyone. Everywhere I go, I just cause pain and trouble."

"You stop that talk right now! It is not your fault that Jacob said those things. It wasn't your fault that Jasper reacted like he did. That was his decision, not yours. And Jacob's lawyer dad can kiss my ass."

I want to laugh at what she said, but I'm still too upset.

"Yeah, but if he wouldn't have to defend me all the time … Just forget it. I think I should go home. Could you please tell Jasper that I'm not going to stay tonight."

"I will, honey, if that's what you want, but I don't think he's going to be very happy about it. He's not mad at you. He'll want to talk to you about it."

"Maybe he will or maybe he'll realize that my friendship is costing him a whole lot. A lot more than it's worth that's for sure."

I try to pull away, but Esme holds on tight to my hands.

"Edward, don't leave until you've talked to him. He'll be so hurt if you do."

I listen to her, and realize that she is treating me a lot more like Jasper's boyfriend than just his friend.

Does she know? I realize mom's are pretty smart when it comes to their kids, and the way Esme is looking at me right now makes me think she knows and is totally fine with it.

It's too much to hope for.

"Esme do you know…"

"Edward, what's going on?"

I jump away from Esme and wipe my eyes as I turn toward Jasper's voice. He and Carlisle are walking out of the office.

Carlisle has his arm around Jasper, and it makes me smile to see that everything is okay between them.

"Nothing. I was just telling your mom I thought it might be a good idea if I went home and didn't stay tonight. I don't want to cause any more problems between you guys."

I don't want to look up at Jasper, but I know I have to. His face is pained, and he looks hurt and upset.

"No need for that, Edward. We talked about some things, and everything is fine. No need for you guys to change your plans this evening because of this. In fact, I feel like taking my wife out on on a date tonight. Would you like to go out, my dear?"

"No cooking? You don't have to ask me twice. There's left-overs in the fridge or you can heat up a pizza, boys."

Carlisle leaves Jasper's side and wraps his arm around his wife.

"Don't wait up for us!"

I hear Esme giggling as they walk toward the door. When I hear it shut and their car start up, I finally have the nerve to look up again at Jasper.

"Were you really going to leave me?"

Well, I for one think Edward needs punished for getting emo and trying to leave! LOL They do have the whole house to themselves for a few hours. Hmmm, wonder what they could get "up" to in that amount of time. ;)

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