I don't own Twilight. Happy New Year to you all! I just want to thank you for welcoming me into writing in such an amazing way. You are the best readers ever, and I can't even tell you how much I appreciate each and every one of you! Here's to lots more Jasper/Edward lovin' in 2012! :)

This is a slash story with m/m lemons involved and language. If you're under 18 or that's not your thing, please just hit the red X.

There will be alternate POV's every day. They are both pretty damn talkative now!

Reviewer of the day goes to…. twilightreaderaddict who said, "So ready, so needy! But I'm glad they didn't just give in to the moment. Edward is right and that Jasper isn't quite mentally there and this isn't just something you should just jump in to! They are very close, but just because you're overly horny, doesn't mean they should just do the deed. As much as I think seeing them pound each other into the mattress would be soooo hot, I want their first time to be filled with the love and devotion they've shown each other so far... Then they can proceed to the pounding!" *high five* Well said Meechy! :)

Chapter 79 - Decisions

J-

Edward has no idea what he fucking does to me. Straddling me and rubbing my cock up and down his ass, just about made me do something I would regret.

Not that I would ever regret making love to him, but I didn't want it to be rushed in my room with my parents coming home any minute. I want it to be something neither one of would ever forget, not something we did because we were too damn horny to stop ourselves.

I'm so proud of Edward for not taking advantage of the situation. I meant it when I was begging him to fuck me. At that moment, I wanted nothing more than for him to sit down hard on my cock and ride me until I screamed.

I wouldn't have been thinking about taking my time and not hurting him at that point. I would have just been fucking his brains out.

I'm sure we'll do that a lot in the very near future, but for our first time I want to be in control and taking care of my boy.

After we both get cleaned up, we pull the sheets off my bed laughing as we do it.

"Damn, Jasper, we forgot the towel again."

"I know. I wasn't really thinking about towels after we got started. I wonder if mom has noticed me cleaning my own sheets now. She hasn't mentioned it."

"She's probably just glad it's one less thing she has to do."

"Maybe."

Somehow I doubt that mom hadn't noticed I'd been cleaning them. Wonder why she hasn't said anything about it. It's not like her to just let things go like that.

Tucking the sheets in place, we both pull on our jeans so it will be easy to get dressed quickly when we hear my parents get home.

Sitting on the bed, I lean back against the headboard.

"Come here, baby. I want to talk to you."

Reaching my hand out, he takes it and lets me pull him so he's sitting between my legs. Holding him tightly around his stomach, he leans his head back and gets comfortable.

"Were you serious tonight, Jasper? Are you really ready to have sex?"

Well, theres the million dollar question. Am I ready?

"Edward, I can honestly say at that moment, I was more than ready."

We both laugh, because damn that was pretty hot what we just did together on this bed.

"But, I'm glad you stopped and didn't go through with it. I think we need to talk about this a little bit before it happens."

I feel him chucking, and trying to keep his laugher so I won't hear it.

"What? You think that's funny, do ya?"

I grab his sides and start tickling him. He's writhing around trying to get away, but I hold him close and don't let him.

"Fuck! Stop, Jasper, please. I can't take it!"

I stop my hands, and lean around him and kiss him hard.

"You want to tell me what was so damn funny?"

He looks around at me sheepishly, and grabs my hands to keep them still.

"I was just laughing because I know you, Jasper. I knew you needed to talk about this before it happened. That's why I didn't go ahead with it, even though I really, really wanted to."

I smile and kiss his temple. Damn, I love him for knowing me so well. He knew what I needed and didn't push me. Could he be any more perfect?

"Thanks for not taking that away from me. I know I'm ready to be with you, Edward. I want you to be my first, but I just have this crazy part of me that needs to make it special for you. That's really a pussy thing to say, isn't it?"

He shakes his head no, and then turns his whole body around so he's on his knees in front of me.

"That right there is why I love you. I want it to be special, too. I don't ever want to forget the first time you're inside me."

Leaning forward, he kisses me lightly sucking my lower lip into his mouth and nibbling on it. Pulling away, he looks at me seriously.

"Okay, when and how do you want it to happen, baby? Tell me what you dream about doing to me."

.

E-

He looks a little stunned at what I said. I'm not asking him for a blow by blow of what he wants to happen, but I just wanted an idea of what he had in mind. Although, I hope a blow by blow does happen at some point.

"I mean, when do you think you want to do this? I think we both agree that privacy is essential. We don't want to have to worry about being interrupted."

"Well, do you think we could wait until next weekend when we go up to see Amanda? We'd have the whole night to ourselves, right?"

"That's fucking perfect, Jasper. Then I can be as loud as I want!"

He groans at me, and shakes his head.

"Stop. It's hard enough just talking about this with you. No more trying to distract me."

"Right. Sorry. Okay, so next weekend when we stay at the hotel. Mom said she was going to call ahead so it won't be a problem for us to get a room. It's going to be prepaid and everything."

"Perfect. So we know when and we know where. Now we just have to talk about how."

"How? Do you mean positions and stuff?"

I knew he wanted to talk things through, but I didn't really think we'd be getting into this much detail. I thought we'd just kind of go with the flow.

"No, not positions. I mean…. damn, this is… oh, nevermind."

"Hey, it's me. You can tell me anything. Don't get shy on my now. Tell me what you want."

He looks so damn nervous. I honestly have no idea what he's so upset about.

"Okay, I'm just going to say it. Condoms. Are we going to use them?"

That was not what I expected him to say at all.

"Do you want to use them?"

He looks all around the room and avoids looking into my eyes. I grab his face, and hold it until he looks directly at me.

"I said do you want to use them."

"Honestly, Edward, I don't want to. I don't want anything between us."

Damn, that's hot. I close my eyes and just imagine what it would be like to have him inside me with no barriers. I want that so fucking much.

"I don't want to, either. I just want you inside me. We're both virgins. We know we're safe. If we decide to use them later on we can, but for the first time can it just be us?"

"Yes please, Edward. I want that so much."

Pulling his face back to mine, I give him a couple of open mouth kisses. Nothing deep, but just enough to let him know how much I'm excited about what's going to happen between us.

"So, that's it? I think we've got all the bases covered."

I'm so glad we talked about everything. Now we can just concentrate on each other that night, and not have to worry about doing any talking then. When I get him in that hotel room, talking is going to be the last thing on my mind.

"Edward, there's one more thing we need I need to discuss with you."

He looks kind of scared and is back to avoiding my eyes. What did we not talk about yet?

"What is it, Jasper?"

"Well, I don't know how your'e going to feel about this. I wanted to talk to you about it first before I did it."

"Just tell me, Jasper, what's got you so upset?"

"Well, I was thinking that I want to tell my mom and dad about us before we leave for the trip. I want to tell them that I'm gay."

Wow! So do you think this is a good choice that Jasper's making? I think many of you already have an opinion on whether Carlisle and Esme know what's going on with the boys. Do you think Edward is going to be comfortable with them knowing? So many things for the boys to think about!

LOVED reading the reviews for last chapter. Some were supportive of them waiting, but some were yelling at them to just get to fucking already! haha You all made my day with those! Thanks!

See you tomorrow!