iTurn Back in Time

Chapter 2 : iCan't Breathe

"I waited for her. It seemed like years to me. I wanted a connection with her. I wanted to talk to her. I wanted to see her."

FREDDIE

We went straight back to our apartment and I locked myself in my room-again. I took my clothes off and threw them on the floor, never minding where it would land. I looked around the room and saw a pile of clothes gathering up at the foot of the bed near the drawer where my lampshade was. The closet doors were opened and the bathroom door was left ajar, probably because I wasn't myself when I was using it.

My cellphone rang. I checked who it was. Carly. I picked it up from the floor.

"Carly?"

"Hey, Freddie. Uhm, w-would you like to-uh, never mind."

What was that she was supposed to say? I asked her again. "No, I am listening. What is it?" I wasn't really in the mood for talking but I thought was she was about to tell me was something important.

"Sorry, I know we aren't supposed to do this and I think we should-"

"Carly," I interrupted her. "Go straight to the point."

"Fine." I heard her sigh. "iCarly."

"And what about that?" I sounded like I was angry. What was she trying to say? Continue iCarly without Sam? iCarly wouldn't be the same. Nothing would be the same.

"Look, if you're trying to say that you want to continue iCarly without Sam, I am afraid to reject your invitation to do that."

She didn't speak for a minute or two. We were silent on the phone. We weren't talking to each other anymore. But Carly broke the silence. "You really loved Sam."

My heart skipped a beat.

Sam.

"No Carly," I answered firmly. "I love her. Present tense."

Carly talked about lots of things but I didn't understand a single word. I wasn't paying attention to her. I stared blankly at the window, curtains closed blocking the sunlight which kept my room very dim. I was thinking about Sam, only her and no one else but her. I wondered what she could be doing today if she survived in the accident.

Carly finally dropped the call and I lie down my bed again, in my silent sanctuary where I could just keep on dreaming about her. I wanted to say a lot of things to Sam right now but I just couldn't, knowing perfectly that she was already gone. I still can't accept it though.

I held my cell phone with my left hand, hoping a call from Sam. I may sound crazy but it's the least I can ever hope for at the moment, half of my heart believing that it will come and the other saying to cut my fantasies and throw them away.

I waited for her. It seemed like years to me. I wanted a connection with her. I wanted to talk to her. I wanted to see her.

Regret. Yes, that was the word. I had lost all the chances and now, I am grieving, silently hoping for her to arrive. I have done nothing to save her that day. Nothing. I was such an idiot.

I cannot live without her.

I cannot breathe without her.

I felt a gust of wind blow my face gently. The windows opened and the curtain flew with the wind's direction. I remembered closing them a while ago. I swear.

"Freddie."

It was a girl's voice and in an instant, I knew it was her.

It was something my mind knew without thinking too much of it.

I knew it was Sam.

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- edit -

I've edited another chapter. Yay! I know it's really short but I can't do anything about it. My shortest so far. Sorry for that. And, to thank all of the reviewers for the last chapter, may I present to you:

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